WARNING: Serious post ahead. // In this photo, there looks to be a happy, fit, healthy girl. In reality, this girl was constantly bingeing and purging food, couldn’t go a day without exercise without having anxiety attacks, was running so much her feet literally broke on multiple occasions, and was in a very dark place mentally. // That girl in the above picture was me six years ago. // Yesterday marked the first day of National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. Last year at this time, I wrote about my recovery from bulimia (here’s the link if you would like read it: http://annaraegwarjanski.weebly.com/blog/learning-to-feed-myself). Today, I share this photo to say there is not a picture you have to look like before you’re “allowed” to have an eating disorder. That’s what took me so long to get help — I always felt like I was too big to actually have a problem. // But, while I may have been 160 pounds in this photo, I had lost my period. At 18 years old, my bones were like that of a 60-year-old woman, and I was at risk for osteoporosis. I was not healthy. // The theme for NEDA’s 2017 Awareness Week is “It’s time to talk about it.” Last year was the first time I ever opened up about my struggles, and it was really freaking scary, to say the least. It’s still really scary and uncomfortable to talk about. However, talking about my past opened up conversations with other people who were struggling. And, if I can encourage even one person to get help, or even just help someone through a bad day, it makes pushing through that fear worth it. // As part of this year’s theme, NEDA is encouraging everyone to get screened: “These illnesses often hide in plain sight, so whether you have serious concerns or just an inkling about yourself or a loved one, take the screening,” NEDA’s campaign states. // Without treatment, up to 20 percent of people with serious eating disorders die. With treatment, the mortality rate falls to 2-3 percent, according to the South Carolina Department of Mental Health. If you’re interesting in taking NEDA’s confidential screening test, go to screening.mentalhealthscreening.org/NEDA. #itstimetotalkaboutit #recoveryisworthit