#bingeeatingdisorder

[maitide]

wiead as a uni student in BED recovery

lunch: mango, two boiled eggs, turkey slices, pickle slices, tomato, cucumber, and celery with garlic powder & hot sauce & dried parsley

dinner: a sandwich with three squares of cheese, turkey slices, hummus, tomato, and lettuce with corn & cucumber & celery on the side

snack: a couple bites of tiramisu

dessert: apple and half of a bueno bar

[beautifullstarvation]

Even when I specifically look up binge eating disorder all I find are ana posts

Why is this ed so invalid? Why is this one pushed so far to the back? As if I’m not ashamed enough

[moimgonc]

How am I (how am I really) when it comes to my body image?

April 19th, Wednesday

Hi, I’m Marta and I am a recovering compulsive overeater.

I am powerless over the belief that I cannot be happy until I get the perfect body.

I have lost opportunities to have fun, connect, dance, express my creativity to this belief; as well as for stolen my inner peace, and joy.

“There's still a fire in my heart, my darling

But I'm not burning for you”

Let it All Go, Birdy and Rhodes

Even when I started recovery I did it because I wanted to lose weight and look perfect, and not fully because I was concerned with my well being. To me my well-being could not be without an ideal body. To be honest, I still don’t know if I can be okay with the extra fat on my body.

I am now struggling because I still don’t know what’s wrong with my nutrition.. Do I have a healthy gut? Is restricting sugars okay? What should I eat and not eat? What advice should I follow?

I guess I could go to a nutritionist, personal trainer or something, but I find myself disillusioned with the revolutionary, go-getter attitude of those spaces… I sense that I now need to find my own way; some time to actually implement the advice I heard, tune into my body, listen and execute its cues. That sounds more revolutionary to me than anything I heard anyone say at a gym in years…

At some point you just gotta do the work, right?

“But if we're strong enough to let it in

We're strong enough to let it go oh oh

Let it all go, let it all go, let it all out now”

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Masters, 

I ask you for a body I can feel confident in as I fully experience this life you have given me & help others do the same for themselves. I trust  you to guide as I search for and implement a diet that aligns with my design.

Yours truly,

Landlady

[maitide]

binge eat for dopamine the sugar brings

binge eat because you’re starving

binge eat because it brings excitement

binge eat because you’re sad

binge eat because you’re lonely

binge eat because you’re tired

binge eat because it becomes routine

binge eat because you’re never satisfied

binge eat because it brings quicker self destruction than starving does

you’re not alone. you can do this. you can break the binging habit, even if you feel lost and like there’s no light left

[maitide]

wiead as a uni student battling BED ❤︎ feb 04

breakfast: 1/2 cup an old black coffee, 1/2 cup green tea | 2 cals

had to study and take a midterm so i didn’t have time to eat

lunch: fried fish patty with a tomato, cucumber, pickle, dried basil salad | 18g protein, 415cals

snack: 1/2 an orange + peppermint tea, garlic clove | 30cals

dinner: sesame bagel with two slices swiss cheese, 1/2~ cup chicken breast, mixed greens, bell pepper, broccoli, cauliflower, green onions | 38g protein, 505 cals

dessert: yellow apple | 80cals