Summary: Can (Y/N) and Ubbe survive day one as a "happy couple" or is the damage already done?
Pairing: Not Telling
Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four
Part Five
Ubbe had taken his time to put the food away and wash the dishes properly, something he actually hadn’t had to do since he was a college student staying in the dorms. He was more than out of practice, but he wanted to do a good job so that (Y/N) wouldn’t have to correct it later.
He hadn’t heard any movement upstairs in the last few minutes and assumed that (Y/N) must have gone back to sleep, it was the early hours of the morning after all. Once he put away the last of the dishes he made his way upstairs, slightly afraid he would find his bed empty.
As quietly as he possibly could Ubbe made his way down the hall, and he stopped by the guest room and looked inside. He was happy to see that the bed was neatly made and empty.
With more hope than he deserved to have he walked normally toward the master bedroom and he opened the door to find (Y/N) sleeping just as she had the night before.
Ubbe got undressed and climbed in behind her sleeping frame, he felt her shift, as if to move away before she settled in his arms.
He had done this last night, held her close just like this, but it was different this time. This time it wasn’t a stolen moment, it was him genuinely holding her as his wife and she was allowing it. The room was still pitch black, but the sun would be rising soon, for now Ubbe could only feel her in the darkness.
‘Goodnight (Y/N).’ Ubbe whispered before he placed a kiss on her shoulder.
Sleep found him easily, his dreams were the disconnected meaningless kind that he could never fully recall when he woke up, but he remembered (Y/N) was in it. She was smiling at something he had done or said in the middle of chaos, he was happy he didn’t forget that part.
When he opened his eyes the room was well lit through the curtains by the afternoon sun, he could guess it was probably one or two o’ clock judging the brightness through squinted eyes.
As he sat up he noticed the bed was empty again, for a brief moment he worried that (Y/N) hadn’t truly been comfortable when she woke up, but then the very distinct sound of vomiting came from the bathroom.
Hangover.
Ubbe got out of bed and followed the noise to find his lovely wife hugging the toilet and looking utterly miserable as she caught her breath.
‘I don’t even fucking like wine, it all taste like pissed in grape juice.’ she complained once she realized he was watching her.
‘It doesn’t seem to like you either.’ he teased as he helped her stand up.
‘You okay, all done?’ Ubbe asked, gesturing to the toilet, in response she nodded and swatted away his hands.
‘Let go, I stink. I need to shower, get out.’ she complained as she began pushing Ubbe out of the bathroom, but he resisted.
‘Can’t a man join his wife in the shower?’ he asked, just before he shoved out completely.
She stopped and looked at him with so much confusion on her face that he could see that for a moment she didn’t fully remember their agreement last night, that she had agreed to allow him the chance to participate in their marriage.
Just as he was about to explain it he saw her face redden as she did remember.
‘Not when she is still hungover, but she would appreciate breakfast.’ she said quickly before she closed the door.
Ubbe felt the rejection as he heard the shower turn on, but he also noticed the olive branch in her statement. She wasn’t ready to be openly affectionate with him, but she was giving him a chance, that’s all he needed.
So he let out a yawn and went to the guest bathroom to brush his teeth before he made his way to the kitchen.
He was still thinking about the part of his dream when he opened the fridge, he wanted to see that smile in reality. With that singular goal, and a bit too much confidence in his cooking skills, Ubbe took out everything to make a breakfast feast.
Pancakes, sunny side up eggs, bacon, fresh squeezed orange juice, strawberries and coffee; that was the vision he had in mind. The problem was he didn’t exactly have the best time management for cooking, and he burned just about everything he possibly could because he would walk away from the stove to make the juice. Ubbe was on his eighth black pancake before he remembered the eggs and bacon were also burning.
At last the smoke detector had no choice but to begin to wail through the house, startled and overwhelmed he rushed to turn on the fan and began waving the smoke away from the detector.
It really was remarkable how fast things went to shit.
‘Hey! Hey! What the fuck is happening in my kit-my kitchen.’ (Y/N) came running into the kitchen, with shampoo in her hair and a satin robe clinging to her dripping skin.
She looked at the scene before her with wide eyes; the smoke, the stack of hockey pucks, the black pans and Ubbe looking as if he had been caught doing something he had no business doing. The kitchen was in a state it had never been in before, every dish Ubbe used sat dirty upon the island, all the ingredients left out and spills and splashes of batter decorated the stove top.
‘I- ahem, I made breakfast.’ he confessed as the smoke detector finally went silent.
She looked at him, then at the kitchen again before she looked down at herself and covered her face with both hands.
‘I’m sorry! I’ll clean all this up and you can-’ Ubbe began frantically apologizing as he saw her shoulders begin to shake.
‘Please don’t cry, you can finish your shower and I’ll throw all this out.’
A loud laugh broke the silence.
(Y/N) moved her hands so that only one covered her mouth as she tried to stop her laughter, but she wasn’t successful. Her muffled laugh continued as her eyes moved from one mess to the next, there were tears in her eyes as she finally moved her hand away.
That smile.
If he had to burn breakfast every morning for the rest of his life to see that smile again, he would have the fire department on speed dial.
‘Oh my God!’ she sighed breathlessly as her laughter finally subsided.
Ubbe realized he had been holding his breath and cleared his throat before he spoke again.
‘Maybe, I should leave the kitchen alone.’ he said.
‘Oh no, you aren’t getting off that easy, you’re cooking for the next two weeks, however I see now you need supervision. Get a head start cleaning this, I have a shower to finish, obviously, but I’ll help when I’m done.’ she said, pointing at her overall appearance before turning to leave.
‘I don’t know, I think you could start a new trend, Shower Chic will be all the rage by next week, but I doubt anyone will pull it off like you.’ he said as he took a better look at the way the wet robe hugged her body.
(Y/N)’s eyes widened in shock at his tone before she looked down at herself and realized what kind display she had been unintentionally showing her husband.
‘Close those eyes, you haven’t earned a peep show.’ she said, as she wrapped the robe tighter around herself.
Not that it did anything for modesty, the beige robe was soaked and nearly see through at this point. She looked like a Goddess, caught bathing by his mortal eyes, and he wanted to choke himself for refusing to see this sooner. It was practically wasteful for him to have looked elsewhere when she had been willing to accept his advances.
‘What does orange juice and strawberries earn? Morning kiss?’ he asked.
At the direct flirtation (Y/N) looked taken aback, her eyes darted quickly around the room like she was looking for who he was talking to.
He hated to see that her first reaction to his attention was to think he couldn’t be talking to her, as if she wasn’t worth a second glance. He was relieved when he saw her take a deep breath and step closer to him.
‘A fist bump?’ she offered, holding out her fist and watching him with unsure eyes.
Ubbe looked at her hand and scoffed before he instead interlaced their fingers and placed a kiss on the back of her hand.
‘Yeah, I’m not getting friendzoned by my wife, no fist bumps.’ he declined as he rubbed over her knuckles.
Again she looked like she was confused as to why he was looking at her like this, and he knew it was because he never had before.
She pulled her hand back and looked at him seriously.
‘You don’t-you don’t have to lay it on so thick, ya’ know, no need to force yourself just for my ego.’ (Y/N) said before she turned to leave.
This time, instead of stopping her by catching her arm, Ubbe caught her by the waist and held her so close that his own clothes became damp.
‘I’m not forcing anything, I just wanted to flirt with my wife.’ he confessed.
‘You’ve never wanted to before, and plenty of men are happily married to women they aren’t attracted to. We can do the next two weeks without you having to pretend you’re suddenly smitten with me.’
With a sigh of great disappointment Ubbe let her go and watched as she left to finish her shower.
She didn’t say it to start a fight, and she hadn’t even sounded angry when she said it; in her mind there was no way he would be genuinely attracted to her. He knew he hadn’t given her any reason to think otherwise in the last five years, and he was quickly learning that he wouldn’t be able to rely on physical attraction to mend things.
Within the next ten minutes, he had cleaned a majority of his mess, but he was still scrubbing the pans when (Y/N) came back into the kitchen. She was dressed in sweatpants and an oversized hoodie, an ensemble he’d seen a million times, but now he felt like she was intentionally covering up, perhaps she always was.
She didn’t say anything when she entered, just came in and took the still black pan from him and began inspecting it sadly.
And with a sigh she turned to the pantry.
Ubbe watched her move wordlessly around him as she filled the pan and all the other scorched cookware with baking soda, lemon juice and hot water. She moved to the fridge and took out more bacon and eggs, it was only after she started cooking did Ubbe finally speak up.
‘How did you sleep?’ he asked, wincing when he startled her.
‘Um… pretty good considering how awful waking up was, but it's what I needed according to my therapist. The big break she’s been pushing me to have with you, she’s going to love the update.’ she said as she laid the bacon on a baking tray.
He could see her trying, trying to speak comfortably with him but her shoulders were tense as she spoke. She was clearly a creature of habit and him suddenly breaking the five year silence was something she wasn’t used to.
It shouldn't be that way; she should be able to come into the kitchen expecting at least morning small talk with her husband, not being jumpscared when he attempts to have a conversation, but what was he expecting? That she would just suddenly warm up to him now that he was willing to acknowledge her as his wife when she was so close to being free of him anyway?
‘You have a therapist?’ he asked.
Finally, he thought to himself; the beginning of a conversation, even if it was only small talk, it was a conversation.
‘Yeah, I needed one after… yeah, she’s good, I’ve been seeing her for almost as long as we’ve been married.’ (Y/N) said softly.
Ubbe felt the sting of guilt but at least she was willing to talk to him openly.
‘Do you think she would recommend one for me?’ he asked.
‘Yes, I’ll send her an email; she is a marriage counselor so I’m sure she’d love to sit down with both of us.’ she replied, sending Ubbe another suspicious look as she continued cooking.
She moved around the kitchen like a wizard, unlike him she managed to cook everything all at once without burning anything. Nothing was left out, her pancakes came out golden and her eggs were served over easy, the bacon was perfectly crispy when it was pulled from the oven.
‘You really are an amazing cook, you know?’ he complimented after he realized he had been watching her in silence. He had never taken time to watch her cook anything, in fact he purposefully ensured he was always preoccupied when he was in her presence.
‘Thank you, I always knew enough to get by but I like to think I’m a pretty decent self trained chef now. It's a very practical way to pass the time and with the right background noise I can cook a buffet.’ she said, sounding for the first time as if she was truly relaxed.
Her shoulders had dropped as she began plating the food carefully, almost lovingly.
‘Baking too. I know you don’t really like sweet things but whenever I know I’ll have the house to myself I spend every second I can experimenting with recipes. I donate most of it to the local homeless shelter and they seem to enjoy it well enough.’ she continued, walking over to the table.
‘What makes you think I don’t like sweets?’ he asked as he poured two glasses of orange juice.
Ubbe sat down (Y/N)’s glass and took his seat across from her before taking a sip from his own cup.
‘In five years of going to stuffy corporate parties and social events I’ve never seen you finish a full slice of cake. You accept it, say it's delicious and give the usual small talk and then you sit it aside to pursue the real business.’ she reasoned.
She was right, he’d never been big on sweet things even when he was a child, but he hadn’t thought anyone would notice without him saying it directly.
‘Well, I’d love to try anything you’d be willing to bake me.’ he said, careful not to sound too heavy handed this time.
She seemed to realize how casually she was talking, and her hands went into her lap where Ubbe assumed she was digging her nails into her palms again.
‘It’s OK, you don’t have to eat things you don’t like…you don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do.’ she said, and Ubbe could practically see her wall building itself up again.
‘I do want to, I want to put some effort into this marriage. You’re right I don’t like sweets, I think chocolate tastes like dirt, but if you baked it I’d eat a mud cake. You must have done a million things you didn’t want to do for me, let me meet you halfway.’ he confessed.
‘This is weird.’ she said with a huff, sitting down her fork harshly as if she couldn’t hold it in.
‘We have spent years in almost complete silence, and now we are struggling to keep the quiet at bay. I don’t -’ she took a deep breath and closed her eyes.
Ubbe had to stop himself from begging her to keep talking, he didn’t want the wall to be built up again.
‘I don’t do this with anyone else but you.’ (Y/N) finally said.
‘What do you mean?’
‘This! This… insecure bullshit, I’m not like this with anyone else. I wasn’t like this before, I could talk with anyone I wanted to without a thought. You? I couldn't avoid you and you couldn’t stand me, so I adapted to the environment. I have rewired my brain to survive this and it’s changing.’ she said, with her eyes darting around the room to avoid looking at him.
Each word hit him like a bullet, he knew she would address what this marriage has been like for her but he still bristled at hearing what he’d put her through. It made him feel unbearably shitty to know that while he was sitting on his phone looking for his next hookup she was in the next room babysitting her sanity.
‘You’re right.’ he finally admitted.
‘It was…unrealistic to expect we could both just flip a switch and suddenly know how to communicate.’ Ubbe said as he leaned back in his chair.
She looked at him, quiet once more, but this time she was waiting for him to fill the silence.
‘If you want, I mean if you really feel like you need to we can cut ties here. We’ll still get the conditions scrubbed and spend the last weeks living separately.’
Now it was Ubbe’s turn to avoid eye contact, he didn’t have the backbone to face her knowing she would always think the worst of him. Knowing that he stole five years of her life to gain his inheritance, money he didn’t need because he was employed at the bank, he wasn't like Sigurd who lived off of his while he pursued his music career.
For nothing, he had stolen her life for nothing.
To his great surprise, his attention was pulled away from his plate when he felt a soft hand land on his own as it was resting on the table.
She still looked at him in that strange, unfamiliar way; but her face was firmly set.
‘My name is (Y/N) (Y/M/N) (Y/L/N), I keep my word because that is who I am. Drunk or not I made a deal with you last night, I’ll keep it.’ (Y/N) said.
‘I think we should see Helga today.’ she added.
‘Helga?’ he asked, a mixture of confusion and hope stirring in his chest.
‘My therapist. If we are going to do this for two weeks we have to survive day one first.’
Hello, this is my first post. I know Ivar’s leg situation is really complicated, so this is purely fictional. Just enjoy it.
Ivar Ragnarsson × Fem!Reader.
Warnings: Nothing really, Just a brief sexual innuendo, If something slips out, reading this is at your own risk.
The Bone-Setter's Heart
Vikings One-Shot | Ivar the Boneless × F!Reader
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Part One – The Stranger in the Snow
The first snow of winter had begun to fall when y/n walked through the gates of Kattegat.
She came on foot, wrapped in a wool cloak patched so many times the original colour was lost to memory. No guards stopped her; she was only a woman, after all, small beneath the grey sky, a satchel of dried herbs bumping against her hip. What danger could one wanderer pose to the great trading city of the North?
She had fled three settlements already. The first had been a fishing village in the East, where they’d wanted to keep her as a living charm against plague. The second, a merchant town where the jarl tried to lock her in a tower so she would heal only his warriors. The third, a place so far south the sun burned her skin, where they called her a witch and nearly burned her for it. Each escape had carved a little more caution into her bones, a little more steel into her spine.
Kattegat smelled of salt, smoke, and ambition. Longships creaked in the harbour. Somewhere, a blacksmith’s hammer rang like a bell. y/n kept her head down, eyes flicking left and right, cataloguing faces, exits, threats. It was second nature now.
She found the healing house by following the scent of boiled herbs and the sound of an old woman humming. The door was open a crack, steam curling into the cold air. y/n knocked once, twice, and a voice like dry leaves said, “Come in, child, before you let the winter in with you.”
The healer was called Eldrid. She was old, bent as a question mark, with eyes that missed nothing. She looked y/n up and down once and said, “You know the craft.”
It wasn’t a question.
“I do,” y/n said.
“Then sit. There’s broth on the fire. You look half-starved.”
That was how it began. No grand ceremony, no oath-swearing. Just a bowl of warm broth and an old woman who recognised a fellow keeper of secrets. By the end of the week, y/n had a pallet in the corner of the healing house and a place in Kattegat. For now.
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Part Two – The Cripple Prince
She met Ivar the Boneless three days after her arrival, though she didn’t know who he was at first.
She was grinding comfrey root into paste when the door slammed open hard enough to rattle every jar on the shelves. Two thralls stumbled in, dragging a man between them. He was young, perhaps her age, with sharp cheekbones and eyes so blue they looked stolen from the sky. His lower body was strapped into a contraption of leather and metal—braces, she realised, supports that let his useless legs bear weight. He was sweating with the effort of moving, his jaw clenched so tight the muscle jumped beneath his skin.
“Eldrid!” one of the thralls barked. “The prince has torn the skin again. The braces—they’ve rubbed through.”
Eldrid moved at once, but y/n was already standing, already crossing the room with the comfrey paste still on her fingers. The man on the braces looked at her, and his eyes narrowed. He had the gaze of someone who expected cruelty and met it with cruelty of his own.
“Who is this?” His voice was rough, accented in a way that spoke of long hours speaking through pain.
“A new healer,” Eldrid said, peeling back the leather strapping around his thigh. The skin beneath was raw and bloody, chafed to an open wound. “She knows her craft. Hold still.”
y/n knelt without being asked. She looked at the wound, then at the brace. “The leather’s not cured properly. Too stiff. It needs to be soaked in oil and beaten until it’s soft. And you need padding beneath it—lambswool would be best, wrapped in linen. This will keep happening otherwise.”
The thralls looked at her as if she’d grown a second head. The prince stared at her with something unreadable.
“And what would you know of it?” he asked, voice silky with danger.
y/n met his eyes. “I know that you’ve been bleeding into those straps for weeks, and no one’s thought to solve the problem, only patch the damage. That’s poor healing.”
A beat of silence. Eldrid’s hands paused on the wound. One of the thralls actually took a step back, as if expecting violence.
Then Ivar laughed. It was a harsh sound, unused to joy. “Poor healing,” he repeated, tasting the words. “You hear that? At last, someone in this city who speaks sense. What is your name?”
She told him. His lips curved into something that wasn’t quite a smile.
“I am Ivar. Some call me the Boneless.” He said it like a challenge, like a blade laid on the table between them. He was waiting, she realised, for the flinch, the glance downward, the pity.
She gave him none of it.
“I’ll make you a better salve,” she said instead. “One that numbs the skin while it heals. The comfrey is good, but it needs calendula and a little willow bark. Come back in two days and I’ll have it ready.”
Ivar tilted his head, studying her. His eyes were striking, set in that sharp, handsome face. She noticed, despite herself, the way the candlelight caught the line of his jaw, the dangerous intelligence burning behind his gaze.
“You are not from here,” he said.
“No.”
“Where are you from?”
“Nowhere I intend to return to.”
He smiled at that, a real one this time, quick and feral. “Good. Kattegat eats the weak. You look strong enough to survive.”
He let the thralls carry him out after Eldrid finished bandaging him. At the door, he glanced back once. y/n was still kneeling on the floor, hands stained green, watching him go.
She didn’t look away. Neither did he.
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Part Three – The Bargain
The weeks turned, and y/n became a familiar sight in Kattegat. She worked alongside Eldrid, mending broken bones, brewing tonics for fever, stitching wounds with thread so fine the scars were almost invisible. Word spread. She had a gift, people said. A touch that could calm infection, an instinct for what the body needed. Some whispered that the gods had blessed her. Others, that she was hiding something.
Both were true.
Ivar came to the healing house often. Sometimes with fresh wounds—he pushed his body relentlessly, dragging himself across the training ground, refusing to be less than any other warrior. Sometimes he came with no injury at all, only questions. How did she know so much? Where had she learned? Why did she never speak of her past?
She answered the way she always did: with sarcasm and redirection.
“I learned from a goblin in a cave,” she told him once, when he pushed too hard. “He traded me the knowledge for my shadow. I’ve been walking around shadowless ever since. Haven’t you noticed?”
Ivar’s lips twitched. “You’re lying.”
“Obviously.”
“You mock me.”
“I mock everyone. Don’t take it personally.”
He laughed, that harsh, reluctant sound that seemed dragged out of him against his will. She found she liked making him laugh. It felt like winning something.
It was on one of these visits, as winter began to loosen its grip on the fjord, that she finally said what she’d been thinking for weeks.
He was sitting on the bench by the fire, his braces removed, his legs stretched awkwardly before him. She was mixing a new batch of the numbing salve, her hands moving automatically. The silence between them had grown comfortable over the months, but tonight she broke it.
“Ivar.”
“Hmm?”
“I’ve been reading about bones.”
He glanced at her. “Reading?”
“I can read. Don’t look so surprised, it’s not that impressive. Most monks can do it.” She set the bowl aside and wiped her hands on a cloth. “The bones in your legs—they’re not missing. They’re malformed. Brittle, perhaps, and the joints are wrong. But the bone is there.”
His expression shuttered instantly. “I know what my legs are.”
“I know you do. I’m not saying this to humiliate you.” She turned to face him fully. “I’m saying it because I think I can help.”
The fire crackled. Outside, a dog barked somewhere near the harbour.
“Help how?” His voice was quiet, dangerous in a different way now.
“I’ve treated similar conditions before. Not exactly the same—every body is different—but I’ve helped children with twisted limbs walk straighter. I’ve strengthened bones that kept breaking. There are methods. Herbs to build density. Manipulation to guide the growth. Exercises in water to build muscle without stress on the joints. It takes time—months, maybe a year—but I think I could get you standing without the braces. Walking. Not easily, not perfectly, but walking.”
She had expected anger. Accusation. Mockery. She had not expected the raw, desperate hope that flickered across his face before he crushed it.
“And why would you do this?” he asked. “What do you want? Gold? Land? A title?”
“Maybe I just want to see if I can.”
“Don’t lie to me.” His voice cracked like a whip. “Everyone wants something. Everyone. So what is it you want, healer?”
She should have had an answer ready. A lie, smooth and simple. Safety. A home. But he was looking at her with those impossible blue eyes, and she found the truth rising up in her throat unbidden.
“I want to stop running,” she said. “I’ve been fleeing from people who wanted to use me since I was old enough to hold a knife. They wanted my hands for their own purposes. They wanted to own what I could do. If I do this—if I help you—I want to be under your protection. Permanently. No one in Kattegat, no one from outside, touches me or tries to take me. I want to belong to myself, and I want a prince of Kattegat to guarantee it.”
Ivar stared at her. The firelight threw shadows across his face, making him look like one of the gods from the old stories—beautiful and terrible and not quite human.
“You want my protection.”
“Yes.”
“And in return, you will give me my legs.”
“I’ll try. I can’t promise miracles. But I’ll try.”
He was silent for a long moment. Then, slowly, he pushed himself upright on the bench, his arms braced on either side of him, his useless legs hanging. He looked like a king on a broken throne.
“If you fail,” he said, “nothing changes. I am still Ivar the Boneless.”
“Yes.”
“And if you succeed, you will have made the most feared man in Kattegat able to stand on his own feet. Some would call that a dangerous gift to give.”
“Some would.” She met his eyes. “Are we making a bargain or not?”
Another long pause. Then Ivar smiled—the wolf’s smile, the predator’s smile, the one that made warriors twice his size take a step back.
“We are,” he said. “I, Ivar Ragnarsson, swear it. Succeed or fail, while you are in Kattegat, no one touches what is mine. And you, healer, are mine now. You understand?”
She should have bristled at the possessiveness. Instead, something warm and unexpected curled in her chest.
“I understand.”
“Then we begin tomorrow.”
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Part Four – The Sessions
The treatments began at dawn.
y/n had spent the night preparing: steeping bone-knit tea, grinding eggshells and dried seaweed into powder for strengthening, heating stones wrapped in herbs for muscle relaxation. She had found a sheltered cove near the fjord where the water was shallow and still, perfect for the exercises she had in mind.
Ivar arrived carried by two thralls, who deposited him on the rug she’d spread over the cold ground. He dismissed them with a flick of his hand and looked at her setup with open suspicion.
“You’re going to drown me?”
“The water is knee-deep at most. Unless you’re determined to die dramatically, you’ll survive.” She handed him a cup of the bone-knit tea. “Drink this.”
He sniffed it. “It smells like death.”
“It tastes worse. Drink.”
He drank, grimacing. “You’re very bossy for someone who just arrived in my city.”
“You’re very whiny for someone who wants to walk. Lie back.”
The first sessions were brutal. y/n manipulated his legs gently, testing the range of motion, noting where the joints resisted, where the muscles spasmed. Ivar’s jaw was locked so tight she could hear his teeth grinding. He never cried out, not once, but sweat beaded on his forehead, and his hands clenched into fists at his sides.
She talked to distract him. Sarcastic observations about the warriors training nearby. Mocking impressions of the pompous merchants who came to trade. Stories she made up on the spot about the various herbs she used—the nettle that had once been a vain maiden, the willow bark that remembered every sorrow it had ever witnessed.
Sometimes, he laughed. Sometimes he snarled at her to be quiet. Once, when the pain was particularly bad, he grabbed her wrist hard enough to bruise and held on, his breathing ragged. She let him. When he finally let go, there were tears in his eyes that he would never acknowledge, and she never mentioned.
That was the beginning of trust.
Session three, she moved him to the water. Buoyancy took the weight off his joints, and she guided his legs through slow, careful movements. The water was cold, but neither of them complained. Ivar’s eyes were fixed on his own limbs as if willing them to obey. They didn’t, yet, but there was something new in his expression. Something like hope, still leashed but straining forward.
Session five, he felt sensation he hadn’t felt before. Not pain—something else. A tingling, a warmth. He told her about it as if confessing to a crime.
“That’s the nerves waking up,” she said, trying to keep the excitement from her voice. “It means the herbs are working. The blood is flowing better. Your body is starting to remember what those legs are for.”
“Or you’re poisoning me.”
“If I wanted to poison you, I’d use something that tastes better. Hand me the oil.”
Session seven, they argued. She pushed him too hard, and he exploded, fury and pain and years of humiliation pouring out of him like lava. He called her a fraud, a witch, a fool who didn’t understand what it was to be broken. She stood her ground, arms crossed, letting the storm rage until he ran out of words and sat panting, looking at her with something that might have been shame.
“Are you finished?” she asked mildly.
“No.”
“Good. Neither am I. Lie down.”
He did.
Session eight, something shifted. The exercises in the water produced a flicker of movement—not much, just a twitch of muscle, an involuntary response. But it was more than his legs had ever done on their own. Ivar stared down at the water as if he’d seen a ghost.
“Did you see that?”
“I saw it.”
“Do it again.”
“I can’t make it happen on command yet. But it will come. Give it time.”
He looked at her then, and the expression on his face was so raw, so unguarded, that she had to look away. No one had ever looked at her like that before. Like she was the answer to a prayer he’d been too proud to speak aloud.
Session nine, he asked her to stay after the treatment. The thralls had gone, the sun was setting, and they sat together on the rug, watching the fjord turn gold and pink.
“You never talk about yourself,” he said.
“Neither do you. Not really.”
“I asked you first.”
She pulled her knees up to her chest, wrapping her arms around them. A defensive posture. She knew it, but couldn’t stop it. “What do you want to know?”
“Everything.”
It was a demand, not a request. Ivar didn’t know how to ask softly. She was beginning to understand that about him—that the sharp edges were a shield, not a weapon. Or perhaps both.
So she told him. Not everything, but enough. The village where she was born. The healer who taught her, an old woman who saw something in her hands. The first time someone tried to take her—a chieftain who wanted a personal physician who would never leave. The narrow escapes. The long roads. The loneliness that had become her only constant companion.
Ivar listened without interrupting. When she finished, the sun had set completely, and the first stars were pricking through the dark.
“They tried to cage you,” he said slowly. “Like I am caged.”
“Yes.”
“And you escaped.”
“Yes.”
He reached out, and for a moment she thought he was going to touch her face. But his hand stopped short, hovering in the air between them.
“I would burn the world,” he said quietly, “if someone tried to cage you now.”
It was the most romantic thing anyone had ever said to her. It was also the most terrifying. Because she was starting to believe him.
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Part Five – The Breaking Point
Session ten was the one that changed everything.
It was spring now, the snow melted, the world green and alive. They had been working together for three months. Ivar’s legs had grown stronger. He could stand now, in the water, with her support. He could take a single, wobbling step before his muscles gave out. It wasn’t walking—not yet—but it was close enough to taste.
He was impatient. He was always impatient, but this day was worse. He pushed and pushed and pushed, refusing to stop when she told him to, until finally his leg buckled and he crashed into the shallow water with a cry of frustration that was almost a roar.
y/n waded to him immediately, reaching out to help him up. He shoved her hand away.
“Leave me.”
“Ivar—”
“I said leave me!” His voice cracked, and the sound of it—the raw, bleeding agony beneath the fury—made her chest ache. He sat in the water, his useless legs sprawled, his face twisted with an emotion he would never name.
She didn’t leave.
Instead, she sat down in the water beside him. The cold soaked through her dress instantly, but she didn’t move. She just sat, shoulder to shoulder with the broken prince, and waited.
After a long time, he spoke.
“I will never be whole.”
“You are whole,” she said. “Your legs are not the whole of you.”
“Easy for you to say. You can walk. You can run. You can dance.” He spat the words like curses. “I have to be carried. I have to be helped. I am a prince, and I cannot even stand before my people without these—” He slammed a fist against the braces lying on the shore.
She turned to face him. The water lapped around her waist. His eyes were red-rimmed, furious, lost.
“Ivar,” she said, and her voice was gentler than it had ever been, “you are the most terrifying person I have ever met. You could conquer kingdoms from a chair if you wanted to. But you don’t want to. You want to stand. And you will. I promised you that. But you have to stop hating yourself long enough to let it happen.”
He looked at her. Something in his face cracked open.
“Why do you care?” he asked. “Truly. Why? Is it the bargain? The protection? Because I would give you that anyway. I would give you anything. Can you not see that?”
She went very still. “What do you mean?”
He laughed, but it was a hollow sound. “You are blind, then. All this time, and you haven’t seen it. I am obsessed with you, healer. I think about you constantly. Your voice. Your hands. The way you mock me without fear.” He reached out, and this time his hand did touch her face. His fingers were cold from the water, but his touch burned. “I would burn the world for you. I told you that. Did you think I was speaking in jest?”
Her heart was pounding. “I thought you were being dramatic.”
“I am always dramatic. But I am also honest. With you, at least.”
She didn’t know who moved first. Maybe they moved at the same time. But suddenly his mouth was on hers, and it was nothing like she’d imagined—hot and desperate and consuming. His hands fisted in her wet hair, and she grabbed the front of his tunic as if he might disappear. The water was cold, but they were burning.
When they broke apart, gasping, Ivar pressed his forehead to hers.
“I want you,” he said hoarsely. “Not as my healer. Not as my bargain. I want you.”
She should have been afraid. She had spent so long running from people who wanted to possess her. But this wasn’t possession. This was offering. This was him, Ivar the Boneless, the most guarded man in the North, laying his heart at her feet like a sword surrendered.
“I want you too,” she whispered. And then, because she couldn’t stop herself, she kissed him again.
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Part Six – The Giving
That night, she came to his chambers for the first time.
She told herself she was just bringing more salve for his legs, but the lie was thin and they both knew it. Ivar was waiting for her, sitting on the edge of his bed, his braces leaning against the wall like silent sentinels.
“You came,” he said.
“I said I would.”
“You say many things.”
“And I mean all of them.” She set the salve aside and crossed the room to him. Her hands were shaking slightly, but her voice was steady. “Ivar, there’s something you should know. I’ve never… I haven’t…”
He understood immediately. His eyes widened, then softened in a way she had never seen before.
“You are untouched?”
“I was always running. There was never time. Never anyone I trusted enough.” She swallowed. “Until now.”
He took her hand. His grip was strong—his arms had always been powerful—and he pulled her gently down until she was sitting beside him on the bed.
“We don’t have to do anything,” he said, and the restraint in his voice was a gift she would remember for the rest of her life. “I want you, but I will wait. I will wait forever if that is what you need.”
“I don’t want to wait.” She touched his face, tracing the sharp line of his jaw. “I want this. I want you. I’m not afraid.”
“You should be,” he said, but he was smiling. “I am terrible.”
“You’re terrible and I want you anyway. Shut up and kiss me.”
He did.
The night was slow and careful. He could not move the way other men could, but his hands and his mouth more than compensated. He worshipped her with a devotion that bordered on religious. When it hurt, he stopped, kissed her forehead, whispered things in his rough voice that made her heart ache. When she finally took him inside her, the pain gave way to something deeper, a fullness that was not just physical.
Afterward, they lay tangled together, her head on his chest, his hand stroking her hair.
“You are mine now,” he said, and there was no threat in it. Just wonder. “Truly mine.”
“And you are mine,” she replied.
“Always.”
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Part Seven – The Betrayal
She saw the kiss three weeks later.
She had been coming back from the healing house, a basket of fresh herbs on her arm, when she turned a corner and saw them. Ivar, propped against the wall of the great hall, his braces gleaming. A woman pressed against him—a shieldmaiden with golden hair and a bold smile. Their mouths were fused together.
y/n stopped walking. The basket slipped from her fingers. The sound of it hitting the ground made them break apart, and Ivar’s eyes found hers immediately.
She didn’t stay for explanations. She turned and walked away, her heart shattering into a thousand sharp pieces.
He called her name. She didn’t stop.
The days that followed were a special kind of torture. She threw herself into her work, spending every waking hour in the healing house, avoiding the great hall, avoiding the training grounds, avoiding anywhere he might be. Eldrid gave her knowing looks but said nothing. The thralls who brought messages from Ivar were turned away. The gifts he sent—a silver bracelet, a fur cloak, a knife with a bone handle—she left unopened in a chest.
She should have known better. She should have known that a prince could never truly want a healer with no name and no family. She had been a fool, and the fool’s payment was heartbreak.
She cried only at night, when no one could see. She would not give him the satisfaction of her tears.
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Part Eight – The Kidnapping
They came at dawn.
y/n was alone in the healing house, Eldrid having gone to attend a birth in the village. She heard the footsteps too late—heavy, multiple, wrong. She reached for the knife she kept hidden in her sleeve, but hands grabbed her from behind before she could draw it.
“Don’t scream,” a voice growled in her ear. “We’ve been looking for you for a long time, witch.”
She was dragged from the healing house with a sack over her head. She heard the clash of weapons, shouts, the chaos of a raid. Then she was thrown onto a horse, and the world became nothing but motion and fear.
They took her south. Days of riding, blindfolded and bound. She pieced together enough from their conversations to understand: they were mercenaries hired by a Saxon lord who had heard of a healer with miraculous skills. He wanted her for his own court, and he was willing to pay handsomely for her capture.
For the first time in years, y/n was truly terrified. Not of death—death was simple. She was afraid of being caged again. Of being owned.
And underneath the fear, a traitorous thought: Ivar will come for me. He promised.
But he had also kissed someone else. Maybe he didn’t care anymore. Maybe she was already forgotten.
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Part Nine – The Wrath of Ivar
He came on the fifth night.
y/n was being held in a camp near the coast, waiting for the ship that would take her across the sea. She heard the screaming before she understood what was happening. It was a sound from the underworld—high and terrible and full of agony.
Then the tent flap tore open, and he was there.
Ivar stood in the entrance, and for a moment she didn’t recognise him. He was on his feet—truly on his feet, without braces, without support. He held a blood-soaked axe in each hand, and his eyes were wild, unseeing, mad.
Behind him, the camp was on fire. Bodies littered the ground. The mercenaries who had been laughing around their fire an hour ago were dead, most of them in pieces.
He had done this. He had walked through fire and blood to find her.
“Ivar,” she breathed.
The axes dropped. He crossed the distance between them in three staggering steps—walking, he was walking—and then he was on his knees before her, his hands cupping her face, his voice cracked and desperate.
“You’re alive. You’re alive. I thought—I thought I was too late—”
“Your legs,” she said stupidly. “You’re walking.”
“I don’t care about my legs!” He was shaking, tears streaming down his face, leaving tracks in the blood splattered across his cheeks. “I care about you. Only you. When they said you were taken, I… I went mad. I killed everyone who tried to stop me. I would have killed the whole world to find you.”
She touched his face, her bound hands clumsy. “The kiss. The shieldmaiden.”
He laughed, a broken sound. “Is that why you were avoiding me? That was nothing. Nothing. She threw herself at me at a feast, and I was pushing her away when you saw. I pushed her away, y/n. I have touched no one but you. I want no one but you. You have to believe me.”
She did. Looking into his ruined, beautiful face, she believed him completely.
“Untie me,” she said.
He did, his fingers fumbling with the ropes. The moment she was free, she threw her arms around his neck and held on. He clung to her like a drowning man, his body shaking with sobs he would never admit to.
“I’m sorry,” he said into her hair. “I’m sorry. I should have protected you. I should have been faster.”
“You came. That’s what matters.”
“I will never let anyone take you again. Never. You hear me?” He pulled back, his hands gripping her shoulders. “You are mine. And I am yours. And I am going to make you my queen. Not a healer hidden in a corner. A queen. Everyone will know. Everyone will see.”
She kissed him, tasting blood and salt and the smoke of the burning camp. It was the most perfect kiss of her life.
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Part Ten – The Crown
They returned to Kattegat as the sun rose.
Ivar walked into the city on his own legs, carrying y/n in his arms. He had refused to let her walk, refused to let anyone else touch her. The people of Kattegat gathered to watch, their eyes wide. Some wept. Some cheered. The cripple prince stood before them, and in his arms was the woman he would move heaven and earth to protect.
He set her down before the great hall, keeping one arm around her waist.
“Hear me!” he shouted, his voice carrying across the silent crowd. “This woman is y/n, and she is the reason I stand before you today. She gave me back my legs. She gave me back my life. And I will give her everything in return. From this day forward, she is not just a healer. She is my wife. My queen. And anyone who dares to touch her, to threaten her, to even look at her wrong—I will make them beg for death before I am finished.”
No one argued. No one would have dared.
That night, in his chambers, they were married in the old way, with blood and vows and witnesses. y/n wore a dress of deep blue that he had commissioned weeks ago, waiting for the right moment. He wore his braces for the first time since the rescue—not because he needed them, but because they were part of him, and she loved every part.
When the ceremony was over, and they were alone, he pulled her into his lap and kissed her slowly, deeply, with all the time in the world.
“I love you,” he said. “I should have said it before. I should have said it the moment I met you.”
“I love you too,” she said. “Even when you’re infuriating. Especially then.”
He laughed, and it was no longer the harsh, reluctant sound from before. It was full and warm and hers.
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Epilogue – The Heir
The snow was falling again, a year later.
y/n stood at the window of the royal chambers, watching the flakes dance over the fjord. Her hand rested on the swell of her belly, round and full with the child growing inside her.
Ivar came up behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist, his chin resting on her shoulder. He had walked across the room without a trace of a limp.
“You should be resting,” he murmured.
“You should stop telling me what to do.”
“Never.” He pressed a kiss to her temple. “How is the little warrior today?”
“Kicking. She’s going to be trouble.”
“She?”
“A feeling.” y/n turned in his arms, looping her own around his neck. “Are you disappointed?”
He looked at her as if she’d said something incomprehensible. “Disappointed? You are giving me a child. Our child. A daughter, a son, it doesn’t matter. They will be loved beyond reason. They will want for nothing. And they will never, ever know what it is to be caged.” He touched her belly, his hand spreading over the curve. “I promise you that, little one.”
She had spent so many years running. So many years hiding. And now, here, in the arms of the most feared man in the North, she had found something she never thought she would have.
A home.
A love.
A life worth living.
Ivar tilted her chin up and kissed her, soft and sweet, his thumb brushing the apple of her cheek. Outside, the snow kept falling, blanketing Kattegat in white silence. Inside, the fire crackled, and two hearts beat as one.
Tropes/Themes: Friends to lovers to enemies, betrayal, heavy smut/spice, hurt/comfort, childhood flashbacks, satisfying/bittersweet ending.
Summary: You were the only one who didn't run from him when you were kids. You were the one who healed his pride after Margrethe. But when Ivar's thirst for a crown makes him blind to what he already has, he learns the hardest lesson of all: you cannot share a god's throne with a ghost.
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The mud of Kattegat was always cold, a thick, gray sludge that clung to the skin like a curse, but to a boy who could only drag himself through it, it was a personal malice. The fjord winds howled through the timber alleys of the settlement, carrying the scent of drying fish, woodsmoke, and the damp rot of the shoreline. For young Ivar, the world was viewed from the earth up, a perspective that bred a bitter, defensive venom in his small chest.
When you were children, Ivar was already a storm brewing in a fragile, broken frame. The other children ran from his sharp, bared teeth and the heavy stones he kept stuffed in his linen tunic to hurl at anyone who stared too long at his twisted legs. Even his own brothers looked at him with a mix of exhausting caution and a soft pity that made his blood boil. Only Floki laughed with him, teaching him the chaotic songs of the trickster gods, and only you sat in the frozen dirt beside him without waiting for him to strike or yell.
You distinctly remember the day the fragile peace cracked entirely. A butcher’s son, older, thicker, and arrogant with his growth, had stood over Ivar near the animal pens. He had openly mocked the way Ivar’s legs twisted uselessly beneath him, spitting into the dirt and calling him a useless cripple who would never see the smoke of Valhalla’s fires.
"You'll just crawl under the tables while real men feast," the boy sneered, kicking a clump of mud at Ivar’s chest.
Before anyone could blink, Ivar’s face contorted with a demonic, blinding rage. He didn't cry; he growled, a raw, animalistic sound. Grabbing a heavy wooden toy boat—carved by Floki with a sharp, heavy, solid oak prow—he swung his torso forward, utilizing all the desperate strength of his upper body. The wood shattered against the older boy’s mouth with a sickening crack, splitting his lip to the bone and spraying crimson blood across the packed dirt.
The other children shrieked in horror and fled, their boots pounding away as they shouted that Ivar was a monster, a demon born to curse the line of Ragnar. Ivar lay there in the mud, panting, his knuckles white around the broken toy, his chest heaving as he prepared for the inevitable blows or the disgusted, fearful looks that usually followed his outbursts. He glared at the ground, waiting for you to run too.
You did not run. You simply walked over, your small leather boots squelching in the mire, and picked up the broken piece of wood that had flown near your feet. You knelt directly in his line of sight, taking your sleeve to wipe a stray streak of northern mud and someone else's blood from your own cheek.
"Your aim is getting better," you said softly, handing him the broken prow. "But you need to lean into the swing more if you want to break the jaw next time. You wasted too much force on the lip."
Ivar snapped his head up, his eyes a terrifying, vivid, luminous blue—the deep, electric shade that warned of his immense physical pain and volatile temper. "Aren't you going to run?" he snarled, his voice cracking with youth and bitterness, his whole body tense as if waiting for you to strike him. "I am a monster. Didn't you hear them? They all say it. My father thinks it."
"Why would I run?" you asked, shifting to sit cross-legged just out of reach of his sudden swings, but close enough to feel the radiant, furious heat of his body. "You only hit the stupid ones. And besides, who would help you fix your boat if I left? Floki is busy with the longships."
Ivar stared at you, the wildness in his blue eyes freezing into something silent, intense, and deeply rooted. "You aren't afraid of me?" he whispered, his small fingers tightening around the wood you gave him.
"No," you said firmly, looking him dead in the eye. "I'm not."
From that exact moment, you became his anchor in a world that terrified him. As the years bled into one another, his fierce, possessive attachment to you deepened into something heavy, silent, and altogether consuming. He grew into a man with the broad, powerful shoulders of a true Viking warrior and the razor-sharp mind of a master tactician, but whenever his eyes landed on you, the storm in those blue depths always calmed into a deep, dark fire. He loved you with the desperate, territorial intensity of a man who believed he was entitled to absolutely nothing from this world, yet secretly wanted everything it had to offer.
The Unbroken Promise
The night after the humiliating incident with Margrethe, the atmosphere inside Ivar’s private quarters was thick enough to suffocate. The slave girl had failed him—or rather, his own body had failed him in the dark, leaving him drowning in a toxic, suffocating mix of masculine rage, vulnerability, and profound shame. He sat slumped on the edge of his massive bed of furs, his breathing ragged and shallow. The room was in ruins; broken jugs of mead leaked into the floorboards, an upturned pine table lay splintered in the corner, and a heavy iron dagger was gripped so fiercely in Ivar's fist that the blade bit into his own palm, sending a slow trickle of dark blood down his wrist.
You entered without knocking, the heavy oak door thudding shut behind you to lock out the snickering whispers of the camp. You saw the wild, shattered look in his eyes, the sweat matting his dark hair to his forehead.
"Get out," he hissed, his voice a low, animalistic growl that didn't even sound human. He kept his eyes glued to the floor, refusing to look at you. "Get out before I crawl over there and open your throat from ear to ear. I mean it!"
"You won't open my throat, Ivar," you said softly, completely unfazed by the threat you knew was born of agonizing pain. You walked over slowly, deliberately placing yourself in his space, and knelt right between his braced, useless legs. You reached up, your fingers warm, gentle, but entirely unyielding as you pried the iron dagger from his white-knuckled grip, tossing it carelessly onto the wooden floorboards where it clattered away into the shadows. "Look at me."
"I am less than a man," he whispered, a rare, horrific vulnerability cracking through his armored exterior. His blue eyes were almost pitch black in the dying firelight, swimming with unshed tears of pure fury. "She looked at me with pity. She tried to hide it, she tried to act the willing thrall, but I saw it in her eyes. They all do. I cannot give a woman what she needs. I am broken. I am a cripple who cannot even take a woman."
"Margrethe is a frightened slave who knows nothing of a man’s true power," you murmured, leaning in until your breath brushed against his trembling lips, casting a spell of absolute certainty over him. You took his large, calloused hands—hands that could crush an enemy's skull—and pressed them firmly against the bare skin of your waist, slipping them beneath your tunic. "Let me show you what you are, Ivar. Let me show you what you can do."
"No," he panted, his chest heaving, even as his fingers instinctively gripped your hips. "Don't mock me. If you pity me, I will kill you."
"Do I look like I pity you?" you asked fiercely, tilting his chin up. "I want you. I have always wanted you."
You didn't wait for his pride to construct more walls. You leaned up and captured his mouth in a bruising, desperate, deeply passionate kiss that tasted of iron, salt, and years of unspoken desire. Ivar gasped into your mouth, a shudder running through his massive frame, and his hands instantly locked onto your hips with a bruising, desperate force, pulling you flush against his solid chest. He couldn't use his legs, but his upper body possessed the terrifying, magnificent strength of a warrior who rowed longships and dragged his own weight through the dirt every single day.
Proving the God
The heat between you flared into an absolute inferno. You shifted, sliding up onto the thick, heavy furs of the bed, straddling his lap completely, guiding his rough hands beneath the hem of your tunic. His fingers were coarse, tracing the curve of your ribs, leaving trails of electric fire that made your stomach clench. When you pulled your tunic over your head and tossed it aside into the dark, his breath caught, his eyes flaring with a dark, deeply predatory hunger as he stared at your bared breasts in the flickering firelight.
"You are beautiful," he growled, his voice dropping an octave into a gravelly purring sound as he buried his face in the crook of your neck, his teeth nipping hungrily at your pulsing vein, making you gasp out loud.
You reached down, your fingers steady as you unlaced his heavy trousers, sliding your hand down into the radiating heat between his thighs. He stiffened instantly, a low, guttural groan escaping his throat as your warm, slick fingers wrapped around his length. He was soft, hesitant, his mind still fighting the ghosts of his failure with Margrethe, but you did not hesitate for a second. You dipped your head, your tongue tracing the harsh line of his jaw down to his collarbone, while your hand began a slow, deliberate, agonizingly teasing rhythm.
"Look at me, Ivar," you whispered against his skin, demanding his presence. "Look at what you do to me."
He forced his heavy eyelids open, panting, his chest heaving like a beast in a cage. You shifted your hips, pressing your bare, aching center directly against his thick, muscular thigh, grinding down slowly in a rhythm that made his eyes widen. The friction was agonizingly sweet, coating his skin with your warmth. You took his mouth again, deeper this time, your tongue tangling masterfully with his as you picked up the pace of your hand, sliding the slick, honeyed heat of your own arousal between you.
Ivar’s breath completely caught. He was a tactician; he caught on instantly to how this battle could be won without his legs. His powerful arms suddenly pinned you down into the furs, his immense upper-body weight pressing down into you, dominating the space. He used his thick, strong fingers to explore the wet warmth of your cleft, finding the sensitive, swollen bud of your flesh and swirling against it with a torturous, rhythmic, heavy pressure that made your back arch completely off the bed.
"Ah... god, Ivar," you gasped out, your fingers tangling desperately in his dark, braided hair as he drove you closer to the edge.
"Tell me," he demanded, his voice thick with lust, arrogance, and a newfound, intoxicating sense of masculine power. He pressed his thumb hard against your sweet spot, while his other hand kept your wrists pinned firmly above your head, mastering you entirely. "Tell me what I do to you. Tell me if the cripple can make you scream."
"You tear me apart," you sobbed out, unable to hold back as a massive wave of intense, blinding pleasure crashed over your body, your internal muscles clenching violently around his slick fingers as you came, crying his name into the rafters.
Watching your climax, feeling your body shake, shudder, and weep beneath his hand, something fundamental shifted inside Ivar. A dark, triumphant satisfaction bloomed in his chest, wiping away every ounce of shame Margrethe had inflicted. He slowly pulled his hand away from between your thighs, slick and glistening with your release, and brought his fingers to his mouth, lazily tasting you while his brilliant blue gaze remained locked on your blown-out eyes.
Then, he pulled you down by your hair, his lips scraping aggressively against yours. "We marry," he growled against your mouth, no longer asking, no longer doubting, but declaring a law to the gods themselves. "Before the week ends, the sacrifices will be made, and you will be my wife."
The Fractured Throne
The world shattered into a million bloody pieces when Ragnar Lothbrok died in the snake pit. The Great Heathen Army marched across the sea like a plague of locusts, a tide of blood and vengeance that tore through the Saxon kingdoms. Under the shared, turbulent command of Ivar, Ubbe, and Hvitserk, the Saxons fell like wheat before a scythe. But victory bred toxic ambition, and ambition bred rot within the brotherhood.
After a fierce, echoing argument in the great hall of York—where Ivar had publicly humiliated Ubbe, thrown an axe at his brothers' feet, and declared himself the sole, rightful leader of the great army—the air in the camp was thick with impending civil war.
"You do not speak for our father!" Ubbe had shouted, his face red with fury.
"I speak for his ghost!" Ivar had screamed back, his voice cutting through the hall like a broadsword. "You have the heart of a farmer, Ubbe! Go back to your dirt! I am the leader of this army!"
You had gone searching for him through the dark, muddy corridors of the captured fortress, hoping to cool his volatile temper before he tore his father's legacy apart completely. The heavy stone walls of the Saxon fort held a damp chill, but the rage building in your chest kept you warm.
You found him in the deeply shadowed, private backrooms of the encampment. But he was not alone.
The heavy wooden door was left slightly ajar, a sliver of warm candlelight cutting into the dark hallway. Through the crack, a scene unfolded that turned the blood in your veins to absolute ice. Freydis, the former slave with the treacherous, worshipful eyes, was kneeling in the dirt before Ivar’s makeshift throne. Her hands were slid high up his thighs, and Ivar’s head was thrown back against the carved wood, his eyes closed, a low, guttural, unmistakable groan tearing from his throat.
"You are a god, Ivar," Freydis whispered, her voice a poisonous, sweet honey as she slid her lips up his bare stomach, inflating his monstrous ego with every breath. "The gods speak directly to me. They tell me you will rule the entire world. No mortal woman can understand your greatness."
Ivar’s hands were tangled deep in her long blonde hair, pulling her up onto his lap with a rough familiarity. He didn't see you standing in the shadows as he pushed her heavy linen skirts up, his large fingers slicking her inner thighs, plunging into her with the same frantic, desperate need for validation that you thought you had healed in him. He was losing himself in her worship, letting her hands touch the parts of him he had once sworn belonged only to you.
The breath left your lungs in a sharp, ragged gasp that hit the quiet room like a thunderclap.
Ivar’s head snaps toward the door instantly. His blue eyes widened to the size of saucers, the thick haze of lust instantly shattering into a look of stark, naked panic. "Get out!" he roared at Freydis, his voice echoing off the stone walls as he violently shoved her off his lap, sending her tumbling unceremoniously into the dirt floor. "Out!"
Freydis scrambled to her feet, clutching her skirts, casting a dark, venomous look at you before slipping past into the corridor.
You didn't run away this time. You stood your ground, stepping fully into the room, your face a pale, frozen mask of absolute betrayal. Ivar dragged himself up into his custom chair, pulling his tunic down over his waist, his face rapidly shifting from panic to a defensive, arrogant rage.
"It means nothing!" Ivar shouted, pointing a trembling finger at you, his voice booming. "She is a slave! She means nothing to me! But she sees what I truly am! She speaks for the gods, she tells me my destiny!"
"She speaks to your pride, Ivar," you said, your voice terrifyingly calm, though your heart was breaking into a thousand jagged, bleeding pieces inside your chest. "And you let her into your bed. The bed we swore before the Allfather to share only with each other. You gave her what belonged to me."
Ivar swung himself forward into his chariot frames, pulling his massive upper body up so he could look you dead in the eye, refusing to back down. The vulnerability of the boy in the mud was entirely gone, replaced by the monstrous, blinding ego of a man who believed his own myth. "I am a son of Ragnar! I am destined to be a king of kings! A king can take whatever wives he pleases to secure his legacy! I will make Freydis my wife alongside you. You will accept it because I command it!"
You looked at him—really looked at him—and saw the boy you had protected now completely blinded by false praise and treacherous whispers. Slowly, without taking your eyes off his, you reached down to your wrist. You unclasped the heavy, ornate silver arm ring he had given you on your wedding night and let it drop. It hit the stone floor with a dull, final, ringing clang that seemed to echo forever.
"I do not share, Ivar," you whispered, your voice cutting through his anger like a razor. "If you take her, you lose me. And you will never, ever get me back."
"You will stay where I command you to stay!" he roared, his eyes flashing a brilliant, dangerous, wild blue as he smashed his fist against the arm of his chair. "You are my wife! You belong to me!"
"I belonged to the man you used to be," you said softly, turning your back on him. "Not to the monster she is creating."
Within two days, Ivar wed Freydis in a lavish, blood-soaked ceremony before the army. That very same night, under the cover of a torrential downpour, you packed your few belongings, walked down to the dark docks where Ubbe and his loyalists were silently preparing to flee Ivar's tyranny, and stepped onto the longship. Ubbe looked at your hollow eyes, offered you a silent hand of solidarity, and sailed away into the night, leaving Ivar’s fractured kingdom behind.
The Echo in the Hall
Years passed like a bitter, endless winter. The war for the crown of Kattegat was brutal, a horrific meat-grinder of brothers fighting brothers, turning the rivers red with Norse blood. When Ivar finally returned at the head of a massive foreign army to reclaim his birthright, he expected to see Björn, Hvitserk, and Ubbe guarding the wooden walls.
He did not expect to see you.
Standing high on the ramparts of Kattegat, wrapped in a heavy, fur-lined cloak against the biting sea wind, you stood shoulder-to-shoulder with Ubbe, a shield in your hand. Your gaze locked onto Ivar’s golden chariot as it rolled to the very front of the invading line. Even from across the battlefield, the sudden sight of you punched the air straight out of his lungs. His heart hammered frantically against his ribs—a furious, agonizing, suffocating mix of desperate, undying love and blinding, possessive betrayal. You had sided with his enemies. You were fighting against him.
The battle that followed was an absolute bloodbath, but Ivar’s terrifying tactical genius ultimately broke the town's defenses. As the great gates of Kattegat were smashed to splinters and his warriors flooded the streets, painting the snow red, Ivar didn't care about the throne. He didn't care about the crown or the cheers of his men.
"Find them!" Ivar screamed at the top of his lungs over the deafening din of clashing steel and screaming men, his voice cracking with a terrifying desperation as he swung himself through the bloody mud of his childhood home. "Search every single house! Every cellar! Every cave! Bring my wife to me unharmed! If a single one of you puts a scratch on them, I will flay you alive and feed your lungs to the ravens!"
His men scoured the settlement for hours, turning over every shield, breaking down every door. The sun began to set over the dark fjord, casting long, bloody, crimson shadows across the high hall of Ragnar.
Hvitserk walked into the great hall, his battle-axe dripping with thick blood, a weary, completely hollow look carved into his face. Ivar was sitting alone on the high throne, his hands trembling violently on his knees, his eyes wild and bloodshot as he stared desperately at the entrance, waiting for you to be dragged in.
"Where are they?" Ivar demanded, leaning so far forward he nearly fell from the seat. "Where is my wife, Hvitserk? Tell me you found them!"
Hvitserk sighed heavily, wiping a smear of dark blood across his forehead. "They are gone, Ivar. We searched the entire settlement, up to the mountain passes. The small scouting boats at the back docks are missing. Ubbe’s huscarls must have secured a secret retreat for them by sea before our shield wall even collapsed. They slipped away hours ago."
Ivar’s breath completely caught in his throat. He felt a cold, massive, hollow void open up in his chest—a wound far deeper and more agonizing than any sword could ever inflict. He looked down at the empty stone floor at the base of the throne where, years ago, you had dropped your arm ring.
You had kept your promise to him. He had taken Freydis, he had won his crown, and he was completely, utterly alone.
The Western Wind
Months turned into a bitter, lonely rule. Kattegat was his, but the great hall felt like nothing more than a lavish tomb. Freydis’s constant, frantic whispers of his divinity and his godhood sounded entirely hollow now, nothing more than the annoying buzzing of a fly in an empty, silent room. He couldn't stand the sight of her; every time she touched him, he remembered the warm, fierce, authentic weight of your body against his, a contrast that made her feel like a ghost.
One stormy evening, a trusted scout entered the great hall, shaking the rain from his cloak, and knelt before the throne. He held a small, weathered, tightly rolled piece of parchment, recovered from a Christian merchant ship that had just arrived from the western seas.
"What is it?" Ivar snapped, his mood perpetually foul, his eyes staring blankly into the fire. "Speak before I have your tongue."
"News from the west, Lord. From England," the scout said carefully, watching Ivar's volatile expression. "King Alfred of Wessex has granted a treaty. He has given rich lands to Ubbe and the Northmen who followed him. They have built a new settlement." The scout hesitated, swallowing hard. "Our spies in the Saxon courts report that... they are there, Lord. Your wife. They live in a large timber manor overlooking the sea. They do not carry a shield anymore. They cultivate the earth. They look at the ocean every sunset."
Ivar snatched the parchment from the scout's hand with terrifying speed. His eyes scanned the messy, hurried runes written by his informant. Safe. Whole. Living under a foreign, warm sun, completely free of his violence.
"Does she... does she ask of me?" Ivar whispered, his voice suddenly dropping the kingly armor, revealing the broken boy underneath.
The scout lowered his head. "The spies say they never speak your name, Lord. Not once."
Ivar collapsed back into the heavy wooden throne, his trembling fingers clutching the piece of parchment tightly against his chest, right over his hollow heart, until his knuckles turned pure white. A bitter, agonizing, deeply sorrowful smile traced his lips as a single, silent tear slipped down his cheek, lost in the shadows of the hall.
You were across the great, vast sea, entirely out of his reach, living a beautiful life far away from his madness. He was a god on a throne of ice, completely omnipotent over Kattegat, and entirely, beautifully forgotten.
The Ghost of the North
The parchment felt heavier than any broadsword Ivar had ever swung. He squeezed his eyes shut, his broad shoulders shaking under his heavy wolfskin mantle as the scout’s words echoed through the cavernous rafters of the great hall. They never speak your name. Not once.
It was a far worse punishment than a blade to the ribs. If you had hated him, if you had cursed his name to the Christian monks or sworn bloody vengeance to the Saxon kings, he could have fueled his own dark fires with it. He could have understood wrath. But silence? Absolute, unyielding silence meant you had excised him from your heart like rot from a wound.
"Get out," Ivar whispered, the command dropping like lead into the quiet hall.
The scout didn't wait. He bowed frantically and scrambled toward the heavy oak doors, leaving the King of Kattegat alone with the crackling flames of the central hearth.
Ivar stared down at his useless legs, draped in fine, foreign silks and furs. He remembered the feeling of your weight shifting over them on the night of his greatest shame, the way you had unceremoniously stripped away his armor and his doubts with a fierce, intoxicating dominance. He closed his eyes and could almost taste the salt of your skin, could almost feel the frantic, rhythmic clench of your internal muscles around his fingers as you cried his name into the dark.
Now, his fingers only gripped an empty throne.
The heavy thud of soft leather boots announced her presence before she even spoke. Freydis drifted into the hall, her golden hair braided tightly with silver thread, her belly swollen with the child she claimed was his—the divine seed of a god. She slid up the steps of the dais, her delicate, pale hands reaching out to stroke his tense jawline.
"My love," she purred, her voice a poisonous silk that used to make him feel ten feet tall. "The people are waiting in the square. They wish to see their god. Why do you sit in the dark with a piece of Saxon garbage?"
Ivar didn't move. He let her hand rest on his cheek, but his blue eyes were completely vacant, staring right through her. "Do you love me, Freydis?" he asked, his voice chillingly flat.
"Of course I love you," she smiled, leaning down to press a soft kiss to his forehead. "You are Ivar the Boneless. You are a god walked among mortals. I worship you."
"Worship," Ivar spat, the word tasting like ash. He suddenly snapped his hand up, his powerful, warrior's grip wrapping around her throat—not enough to choke her, but enough to freeze the breath in her lungs. His blue eyes flashed that dangerous, blinding electric hue. "That is the problem, isn't it? You worship a god. You want the crown, the myth, the legend. But they..." His voice cracked, a rare, terrifying fracture in his mask. "They loved the boy in the mud. They loved the monster. They loved the man. And I traded them for a crown made of dirt."
He shoved her away from him violently. Freydis stumbled back, clutching her throat, her eyes wide with a sudden, genuine fear. She realized then, with a sickening certainty, that no matter what she gave him, she was merely a ghost occupying a space meant for someone else.
"Get out of my sight," Ivar growled, turning his face back to the fire. "Before I forget that you carry a child."
The Manor by the Sea
The western sun was a different kind of light. It wasn't the harsh, biting glare that bounced off the frozen fjords of Kattegat; it was a soft, golden warmth that settled deep into the rolling green hills of Wessex.
You stood on the wooden porch of the timber manor Ubbe had built for your small household, watching the tide roll in over the gray pebbles of the beach. The air smelled of salt and wild lavender. Behind you, the sounds of a peaceful settlement drifted on the breeze—the rhythmic thud of a carpenter's hammer, the lowing of cattle, and the laughter of children who didn't know the terror of a civil war.
Ubbe walked up the steps, his shield slung over his back, his face sun-browned and lined with a deep, earned contentment. He held a wooden bowl of fresh milk and handed it to you, leaning his hip against the railing.
"The scouts returned from the port," Ubbe said softly, his eyes scanning the horizon. "A merchant ship from Hedeby arrived. They say Ivar has solidified his rule. Kattegat is completely his."
You took a slow sip of the milk, your gaze remaining fixed on the waves. "Good for him."
Ubbe studied your face, looking for the phantom pain that usually accompanied that name, but he found nothing but a serene, unyielding wall. "They say he is unhinged. That he calls himself a god and rules with an iron fist. But they also say... he spends his nights looking out over the western sea."
You finally turned your head, a faint, bittersweet smile touching your lips. You reached down to your wrist, where a new, simple leather band sat where the heavy silver arm ring used to be.
"Ivar was always a genius, Ubbe," you murmured, your voice carrying no malice, only the weight of an absolute truth. "But he never understood that a man cannot rule a kingdom if his own hearth is cold. He wanted the world to fear him because he was too terrified to let anyone see how much he needed to be loved."
"Do you miss it?" Ubbe asked, genuinely curious. "The fire? The fury of him?"
You looked back out at the vast, endless ocean, the deep blue water stretching out until it met the sky. For a split second, you remembered the taste of his mouth, the bruising grip of his hands on your hips, and the absolute, terrifying thrill of being the only person alive who could tame the beast. You remembered the boy who had looked up at you from the mud, promising you the stars.
"No," you said softly, your voice carrying out over the water, swallowed by the western wind. "The fire was beautiful, Ubbe. But it burns everything it touches. I prefer the sun."
Across the sea, a king sat on a throne of bone and silver, weeping over a scrap of parchment. But in the green hills of Wessex, you took a deep breath of the fresh, clean air, turned your back on the ocean, and walked inside.
The Winter of the God
The shadows in the great hall of Kattegat grew longer, darker, and colder as the months bled into a harsh, unyielding winter. Ivar sat upon his high throne, draped in heavy bearskins that failed to warm his bones. The parchment from England had grown soft, its edges frayed and creased from the countless times his rough, calloused fingers had unrolled it in the dead of night. He knew every rune by heart, yet he stared at it as if it were a riddle he could somehow solve.
Freydis had given birth to a boy. She had brought the child to him, her eyes wide with a desperate, frantic plea for him to see his own divinity in the infant's face. But Ivar had looked down at the child’s twisted legs and felt nothing but a profound, sickening sense of irony. The gods were not honoring him; they were mocking him. They had given him the crown he had murdered his brother for, they had given him the worship of fools, and they had left him with an heir that reminded him only of his own vulnerability.
He had turned Freydis away from his bed entirely. The heavy oak doors of his chambers remained barred, a barrier against the world he had conquered but no longer wished to face.
One night, the wind howled so fiercely against the timber walls that it sounded like the dying groans of the Great Heathen Army. Ivar lay on his side in the massive bed of furs, his eyes fixed on the empty space beside him. His mind, always a chaotic storm of strategy and malice, betrayed him, dragging him backward through the years.
He remembered the smell of the damp earth after a rain in their youth. He remembered the feel of your small, warm hand sliding into his when his legs ached so badly he wanted to cry out to Odin to end his life. You had never looked at him with the worshipful, hollow eyes of Freydis, nor the fearful, wide-eyed compliance of the thralls. You had looked at him as a man.
In the dark, Ivar’s hand slid down his own bare stomach, tracing the lines of his muscles, remembering the night after Margrethe. He closed his eyes, and the memory was so sharp it felt like a blade. He could almost feel your soft skin beneath his rough palms, the frantic, delicious friction of your hips grinding against his thigh as you guided him, showing him that he was not broken.
“Look at me, Ivar,” your ghost whispered in the dark room.
A low, guttural groan tore from his throat. He wrapped his powerful fingers around his own length, his upper body tensing as he sought the release that used to come with your name on his lips. He stroked himself with a frantic, punishing speed, his mind conjuring the image of your arched back, the flush of your skin in the firelight, and the sweet, tight heat of your body clenching around his fingers. He imagined your hair tangled in his fists, your lips bruising his as you claimed him as your husband.
When the climax hit him, it wasn't a victory; it was a surrender. He came with a sharp, ragged cry that was swallowed by the howling wind outside, his body shuddering into the empty furs. He pulled his hand away, slick and warm, and for a fleeting, delusional second, he expected to feel your breath on his neck.
There was only the cold northern air. He rolled onto his back, staring up at the dark rafters, his chest heaving. He was Ivar the Boneless. He was a king. He was a god. And he was entirely, utterly hollow.
Seeds in the Mud
In Wessex, the winter was kinder. The snow fell in soft, dusting blankets that melted by midday, leaving the rich, dark soil of the valley damp and ready for the spring plow.
You knelt in the small garden plot behind the timber manor, your fingers dug deep into the cool earth. You were turning the soil, preparing to plant the herbs and vegetables that would sustain the household through the coming year. It was hard, honest work that left your muscles aching and your hands stained with dirt, but it was a grounding pain—a pain that built something rather than tearing it down.
A shadow fell over you. You looked up to see Ubbe standing there, a wooden crate of seed potatoes lifted against his broad chest. He smiled down at you, his eyes reflecting the calm, steady nature that made him so different from his volatile brother.
"You have mud on your nose," Ubbe joked, setting the crate down with a heavy thud.
You laughed, wiping your face with the back of a dirt-streaked forearm. "It’s good luck. Or so Floki used to say."
The mention of the old shipbuilder’s name hung in the air for a moment, a gentle reminder of the world you had left behind. Ubbe sat down on a large stump nearby, watching you work.
"A Saxon monk came through the market today," Ubbe said carefully, his tone turning serious. "He had traveled from the northern ports. He said the tension in Kattegat is reaching a breaking point. Björn and Hvitserk are gathering forces in the East. They mean to take the town back from Ivar."
You paused, your hand resting on the wooden trowel. For a long moment, the only sound was the distant cry of gulls over the cliffs. You thought of the golden chariot, the brilliant, dangerous blue of Ivar’s eyes, and the absolute certainty with which he had told you that you belonged to him. You thought of the boy who had broken a toy boat over a bully's face just to prove he wasn't weak.
"Björn will win," you said softly, your voice devoid of malice or triumph. It was simply a fact. "Ivar is a brilliant general when he has an enemy to face. But when he sits on a throne with nothing but his own mind to fight, he destroys himself. He always has."
Ubbe nodded, reaching down to pick up a handful of the rich English soil, letting it crumble through his fingers. "He will never stop looking for you, you know. If Björn doesn't kill him, he will spend the rest of his days looking across the water."
You stood up, dusting the dirt from your linen skirts. You walked over to the edge of the garden, where the cliffside dropped down toward the crashing waves of the channel. The wind caught your hair, pulling it back from your face.
"Let him look," you murmured, looking out over the endless blue. "He wanted a empire of ghosts, Ubbe. He can rule over them. But my feet are planted in the earth."
You turned away from the sea, walking back toward the warmth of the timber hall, leaving the King of Kattegat to his frozen throne and his beautiful, empty crown.
The Broken Mirror
The siege of Kattegat did not come with the grand glory of the sagas; it came with the wet, choking stench of thawing snow, burning pine, and blood running into the fjord. Björn Ironside and Hvitserk had struck from the mountains and the sea simultaneously, a pincer movement born of shared hatred and exhaustion.
Inside the great hall, the chaos of the collapsing defenses echoed like thunder. Ivar did not cower. He sat on his high throne, his armor gleaming in the frantic, dancing firelight, a massive iron broadsword resting across his knees. His men were dying in the streets, betrayed from within by those who could no longer stomach the cruel whims of a man who called himself a god.
The heavy doors groaned, splintering under the weight of an iron-headed ram. Freydis stood near the base of the dais, her pale face streaked with soot, her posture taut with terror. She looked up at him, waiting for the tactical miracle that had always saved him before.
"Ivar!" she shrieked over the roar of the oncoming shield wall. "They are through the inner gates! You must order the retreat to the boats! We can rebuild in the east!"
Ivar didn't look at her. His brilliant blue eyes were fixed on the shattering wood of the entryway. "Retreat?" he murmured, a terrifying, manic smile spreading across his lips. "A god does not retreat from his own footstool, Freydis."
"You are mad!" she screamed, the illusion of her worship finally cracking beneath the cold reality of an incoming axe. "You are nothing but a cripple in a gilded chair! You threw away your true wife for a lie, and now you will die alone in the dirt!"
The words hit him harder than any Saxon arrow. The manic smile vanished, replaced by a cold, predatory stillness. With a fluid, terrifying surge of his massive arms, Ivar swung himself down from the throne, his torso hitting the stone steps with a heavy thud as he dragged his body forward with impossible speed. Before Freydis could scream, his large, scarred hand locked around her throat, slamming her down onto the steps.
"I know what I am," Ivar whispered, his face inches from hers, his breath hot and smelling of sour mead. "I have always known. But they knew too, and they loved me anyway. You... you just wanted a crown."
His fingers tightened, silencing her permanently. He let her body slide down the stone steps, an discarded doll in the path of the conquering heroes.
When Björn and Hvitserk finally kicked the remaining timbers of the door aside, shields raised and axes dripping with the blood of Ivar's personal guard, they found him sitting on the bottom step. He had no chariot, no crutches, no army left to command. He simply sat there, his broadsword resting carelessly across his lap, his hands covered in the blood of the woman who had promised him the world.
Hvitserk raised his axe, his chest heaving, his face a mask of exhausted rage. "It is over, Ivar. Yield the hall."
Ivar looked up at his brothers, his eyes fading from that brilliant, wild electric blue into a dull, weathered slate gray. He laughed, a low, raspy sound that echoed off the empty rafters.
"Take it," Ivar said, flinging the heavy iron broadsword into the dirt at Björn's feet. "Take the wood and the stone. There is nothing left here but ghosts anyway."
The Midsummer Harvest
Three summers passed in Wessex, each one milder and richer than the last. The timber manor by the sea had grown into a prosperous homestead, surrounded by high fences, fat sheep, and fields of golden wheat that rippled like a sea of amber under the southern sun.
It was midsummer, the longest day of the year. The air was thick with the scent of roasted wild boar, sweet clover, and ale. The settlement was celebrating the harvest, a vibrant blend of Saxon neighbors and Norse settlers who had learned to live in the space between their different gods.
You sat on a heavy oak bench outside the longhouse, a linen apron tied over your green kirtle. Your hands, once smooth, were now calloused from the loom and the garden, but they were steady. Beside you sat a wooden cradle, and inside it, a plump, healthy baby girl with wide, curious green eyes stared up at the canopy of leaves above.
Ubbe stepped out of the hall, his braided hair silvering slightly at the temples, but his smile was warm and unburdened. He held a horn of mead, taking a seat beside you and leaning his head back against the warm timber wall.
"She looks like you," Ubbe said softly, nodding toward the cradle. "Thank the gods she didn't inherit the Lothbrok nose."
You laughed, reaching down to let the infant wrap her tiny, strong fingers around your thumb. "She has your eyes, Ubbe. Calm. Like the sea before a fair wind."
Ubbe turned his gaze toward the horizon, where the western sea met the sky in a haze of purple and gold. "A ship arrived from Frankia this morning. Merchants from the old routes." He paused, his tone shifting into that quiet, respectful caution he always used when handling the past. "They say Ivar is alive. He left Kattegat after Björn took it. They say he is wandering the eastern empires, fighting as a mercenary for kings who don't know his name. A shadow with a broken chariot."
You looked down at the tiny hand holding yours, feeling the perfect, fragile warmth of the life you had built here, in the dirt, far away from the blood-soaked altars of the North.
For years, you had wondered if the ghost of Ivar the Boneless would always hang over you—if the memory of his heavy hands, his desperate, bruising mouth, and the intoxicating, dangerous thrill of his love would pull you back into the dark. But looking out at the golden fields, listening to the peaceful laughter of the village, you realized the fire had finally gone out. The ashes had been scattered by the western wind.
"I hope he finds a war that satisfies him, Ubbe," you said softly, your voice completely free of hatred, longing, or regret. "But he belongs to the skalds now. We belong to the earth."
Ubbe smiled, reaching over to press a warm, solid hand against your shoulder. You leaned into his side, watching the sun slowly dip below the edge of the world, casting its light over a kingdom that required no kings, no gods, and no sacrifices—only the quiet promise of tomorrow.
The Last Horizon
The Eastern empires were vast, flat, and choked with a yellow dust that tasted nothing like the salt-crusted air of Kattegat. For Ivar, the world had shrunk to the iron rims of a crude mercenary chariot, pulled by two gaunt horses through lands where his father’s name meant absolutely nothing. To the lords of Kiev and the silk merchants of the south, he was not the son of Ragnar Lothbrok, nor a god walked among men. He was simply the Boneless One—a terrifying, crippled warlord whom they paid in heavy silver to break the shield walls of their enemies.
He had become a ghost before his body could even die.
One evening, after a brutal skirmish along a muddy riverbank that left his arms trembling with exhaustion, Ivar sat by a campfire. He was surrounded by men who spoke a language he barely understood, men who feared his mind but cared nothing for his soul. Slowly, his scarred, trembling fingers reached into the leather pouch at his waist. He pulled out the scrap of parchment—now so worn and tattered that the ink had faded into faint, gray smudges.
He didn't need to read it. The runes were carved into the back of his eyelids.
A manor by the sea. They cultivate the earth. They look at the ocean every sunset.
With a sudden, violent surge of frustration, Ivar threw the parchment into the heart of the campfire. He watched the dry skin curl, the edges blackening and catching fire, turning the last physical tie to his past into a bright, fleeting orange flame.
"Let it burn," he whispered to the empty night, his voice cracking with a decade of unshed tears. "Let them forget me."
He leaned his head back against the iron wheel of his chariot, closing his blue eyes. For the first time in his life, the electric, dangerous fury in his blood didn't ignite. The fire that had sustained him, the rage that had driven him to conquer kingdoms and murder brothers, had finally burned itself down to ash. He was tired. He was so incredibly tired of fighting a war against a ghost he could never defeat.
Across the western sea, the midsummer sun had finally dipped below the horizon, leaving the sky over Wessex painted in bruises of deep purple and bruised gold.
The feast had quieted down. The children had been carried off to their furs, and the embers of the village bonfire were glowing a soft, comforting red. You stood at the wooden railing of your porch, a heavy woolen shawl wrapped tight around your shoulders against the cooling night air.
From inside the timber hall, the soft, rhythmic sound of Ubbe’s breathing drifted through the open window, alongside the faint, sweet coo of your sleeping daughter.
You looked out over the dark water of the channel. For years, you had half-expected to see the black sails of a longship cutting through the fog, half-expected to hear the terrifying, booming roar of a golden chariot rolling onto the pebbles of the beach. You had carried a quiet defense in your heart, a readiness to fight for the peace you had ripped out of the earth.
But tonight, as the cool western wind brushed across your face, carrying the scent of damp grass and sea salt, the tension completely left your shoulders.
You closed your eyes and took a deep, clear breath. There were no ghosts hiding in the dark. There was no lingering shadow of a boy in the mud, nor the phantom grip of a king who couldn't let go. The sea was just water, the wind was just air, and the past was a story told by dead men around fires you would never sit beside again.
You let your hand drop from the railing, untying the leather band at your wrist and letting it slip into the grass below. You didn't need a token to remind you of who you were anymore.
Turning your back on the endless ocean, you pushed open the heavy timber door, stepped into the warmth of your home, and shut out the northern night forever.
The Hands That Healed Him | Ivar the Boneless x Reader | One shot
A/N
So... I got a request for a fluffy Ivar x Reader, but the message somehow disappeared into the void. The idea still haunted me though, refusing to leave my mind until my hands eventually turned it into this little piece of fanfiction. Got to be honest, I have been excitedly wiggling in my chair while typing this and seeing what it slowly turned into before posting it. 🖤
Warnings: fluff, minor wound tending, soft Ivar
Your parents had settled Kattegat years ago, back when Ragnar still ruled their people as Jarl. Not long after Ragnar got killed by king Aelle, Kattegat had changed. Wars, chaos and different rulers followed throughout the years, all carrying the Ragnarsson name. During one of these battles, word goes both your parents got taken by Saxons, brutally tortured and killed from the brutal wounds the Saxons inflicted on them. You hoped the gods had greeted them at the table to feast with them as you now had to run their little wooden farm on your own. It made you give up your dreams of becoming a shieldmaiden. The gods never did something without a reason and your parents now in Valhalla made you think it was never their intention for you to become the shieldmaiden you had wanted to be. They probably just wanted you to farm and make sure the winter stores for the village were taken care of properly. The farm had fed at least half the clan through winter for years now. You were ravaging your hands through the fertile soil, planting seeds, when you heard the familiar sound of crutches digging through that same soil your hands were doing their work in.
You slowly looked up, as you noticed his blue eyes were studying every movement of your working hands, like he always did. You almost started to think he enjoyed watching you farm. “How was raiding the Saxons, got loads of riches i suppose?” You asked Ivar with a soft smile, as your hands kept working the soil, digging the seeds with a well thought through distance between every seed, also feeling where the soil would be wet enough. You hadn’t always been this at ease around Ivar, nooo not even close. At the beginning you found him more intriguing, fearsome even as you didn’t understand the condition he carried. He did seem to find your intrigue funny, the visits he made to farm were always played off as a supply run from his side. Though you knew very well, the amount of times he had visited your farm had nothing to do with getting supplies. You had teased him with it a few times lately and he would just say “Instead of openly fearing me, you hand me a basket and put me to work”.
“Of course we did. Enough silver to make half of Kattegat drunk before nightfall” He answered your question, with that recognisable smug smirk on his face. When he spoke he had shifted his shoulder slightly, a faint hiss leaving his lips before he quickly hid it. You noticed and saw dried blood near his shoulder along with torn fabric hanging from his shoulder, showing the bloody gash beneath his clothes. “Guess you could use some patching up” You spoke, it wasn’t a question. “I did not come here to be treated like a wounded animal.” His voice was low, almost defensive, though the slight tension in his jaw betrayed him. “Accepting help is not a weakness… Ivar” Your voice is soft, you meant it. Ivar gazed into your eyes for a moment, a moment of studying your face before realizing you genuinely meant it as your eyes held concern, instead of pity. He didn’t say anything, just followed you inside the wooden cabin. Him not fighting your attempts at help was a huge step already, it actually secretly surprised you.
The wooden cabin was dimly lit, candles burning throughout the place, soft glow of candlelight dancing across the wooden walls. Different kinds of fur decorated the place, radiating a certain kind of warmth. Ivar had taken a seat and you placed a bowl of water beside him, crushing herbs between your fingers before mixing them into a paste with honey. Your mother had once taught you this to make for infected wounds. When you were getting it all set, Ivar had sunk into deep thought as he was watching your every move silently. Apparently he was thinking about the first time he realised you had stopped fearing him, that you were seeing him for the strong, intelligent warrior he was instead of a cripple. It was the moment that made you realise he feared nothing himself, you saw him as a strong and smart warrior ever since. That moment had made him realize, you intrigued him as well. That had been the moment you began haunting his thoughts. Your gentle manner, the way you spoke to him, treated him like an equal, the way your name sounded on his tongue. But he didn’t speak about it out loud.
You wetted a linen cloth in the water bowl and stepped in between his legs carefully. Your fingers carefully moved the torn cloth down his shoulder, your touches soft and gentle as the cloth would stick a little due to the dried blood, revealing a bit of his muscular chest and upper arm. Up close you could smell traces of smoke, iron and the cold air that was still clinging to him from his journey back home. Ivar his muscles would tense beneath your touch, but he remained silent. “This might sting a little” Your voice was soft, assuring as you started to dab the nasty wound on his shoulder. You were cleaning his wound thoroughly, making his jaw tighten while his fingers gripped the chair and his nostrils would flare lightly. his blue eyes would never leave your E/C ones. It was almost like he was focusing on you to distract him from the sting of the wound. For a moment, the sting of the wound no longer seemed to be what made Ivar tense beneath your touch. The small cabin suddenly felt far warmer than the burning candles could explain as neither of you seemed eager to break the silence settling between the both of you.
You tossed the linen cloth that was now drenched in blood and dirt aside, dipping your fingers in the paste of herbs and honey. Your touch was careful and slow, spreading the paste across the cleaned wound on his shoulder. Your touch lingered longer than necessary, warmth radiating from your hands into his skin. “Do you always stare this intensely when patching people up” He asked, his voice almost quiet, trying to distract himself from the warmth of your hands and how good it felt to have your hands touching him. “Only the wounded ones who refuse to admit they are hurt” You answered softly, making sure the entire wound was covered with the paste, your fingers tracing his skin once again as you enjoyed the closeness too much. Your words and the touch of your fingers earned the faintest smirk on him. When he realised you were done and ready to remove your fingers from his skin he suddenly grabbed your wrist. It wasn’t to stop you, no it was to keep your touch there for a moment longer. Your fingers slowed, once you realised just how close the two of you had gotten, close enough to feel the warmth radiating from him beneath your fingertips.
Your breath caught in your chest softly as your eyes lifted once more to meet his blue gaze. The usual sharpness in Ivar's eyes had faded, being replaced by something more quiet, almost uncertain even. It was something softer, something dangerously close to longing. “You do not look at me the way they do.” His voice had softened, almost sounding like a confession. By now you even forgot you were done with patching him up, the touch of his hand around your wrist, the look in his eyes, the softness in his voice kept you right in place and drew you in even closer. “It is because they do not see you the way I do.” Your voice was soft, certain, honest. His grip around your wrist had softened by now, his thumb slowly brushing against your skin absentmindedly. Silence had settled between the two of you once again, this time it did feel heavier, warmer even. His eyes were wandering down from your eyes to your lips for the briefest moment, before roaming back up again. You drew in closer to him, not really noticing it because of the intensity of the moment. Yearning for more, as he was eternally fighting the doubt if he should even do this, if you even wanted this.
“Ivar..” Your voice had softened by now into something merely a whisper, breaking the silence as you notice the uncertainty in his eyes. Your fingers are still lingering against his skin despite the wound already being treated. His eyes never left yours “Yes?” He answered you, calling out his name. “You look at me as if there is nothing broken to fix” A vulnerability in his voice that made your heartbeat tremble. “The gods may not have made you like other men… but they made you stronger than most” You answered him. For a moment, Ivar simply stared at you. No fear. No pity. No hesitation. Only you. His hand found your jaw, caressing your skin as he pulled you in. He left you no choice, but to straddle his lap into the chair. His forehead rested against yours, his warm breath ghosting your lips as if he was giving you a spare moment to pull away. You didn’t. Instead your fingers curled lightly against his shoulder. The movement was small, yet more than enough to break whatever restrained he had left. Then his lips met yours, at first it was careful but still carried a fire burning beneath it. It made you whimper for more. The two of you parted for a moment, breath hitching as if the both of you needed to process what had just happened. Ivar his hands found your waist, tightening his grip as the look in your eyes begged him for more of this. That was it, he crashed his lips against yours, with a hunger that clearly had been building for far too long.
Selethryth, a young lady with strange eyes and prophetic dreams, is both feared and revered in King Ecbert's court. Though he sees her as a powerful tool for his ambitions, it is Ivar, the brutal and unpredictable son of Ragnar, who is drawn to her. As their fates collide, Selethryth finds herself entangled in a dangerous game where her gifts may lead her into the arms of darkness.
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Chapter 4
The dreams had grown worse.
Every night for the past week, since her father and the King had left for Repton, Selethryth had woken in the cold dark of her chamber with her heart hammering against her ribs and the phantom sensation of falling still clinging to her limbs. The raven. Always the raven. And behind it, the storm, and behind the storm, those eyes — blue and burning and full of a grief so vast it felt like standing at the edge of the sea.
She had stopped telling the physician about them. He looked at her differently now, and she could not bear it.
Without the King's presence, the days at court had taken on a strange, suspended quality. Her father was gone, which should have brought some relief, but instead the quiet only pressed in closer, leaving her with nothing to occupy her hands but needlework she had no patience for and books she could not concentrate on. Even Alfred had seemed distracted lately, restless in the way that boys his age always had.
Judith noticed. Judith always noticed.
"You look like you haven't slept in a week," she said one afternoon, without looking up from her painting.
"I am alright, my lady," Selethryth answered, which made Judith set down her brush.
She did not press further. That was one of the things Selethryth valued most about her — the ability to know when silence was the more merciful gift.
It was on the morning of the seventh day that the stillness broke.
She heard the commotion before she understood it.
Voices in the courtyard below, urgent and overlapping, and the sound of horses pushed hard. She had been sitting at the window with a book open and unread in her lap, and now she leaned forward, her fingers resting lightly against the sill.
Aethelwulf's men were flooding into the courtyard in numbers that made no sense for an ordinary return. She counted them without meaning to, the way her mind always counted things it did not yet have words for. Then she saw the prisoners.
The first man was on foot, walking, surrounded on all sides by guards whose hands never left their weapons. He was older, and there was something in the way he moved — steady, deliberate, as though the men circling him were an inconvenience rather than a threat — that made the air around him feel different. Heavier. Selethryth had spent enough years at court to recognize the bearing of a man who had commanded things, and this man wore it the way others wore a cloak.
Then the guards closed in.
It happened quickly and without warning. The first blow caught the man across the shoulders, and the second came from the other side before he had finished stumbling from the first. Selethryth's hands tightened against the sill. She watched the men strike him — fists, boots, the flat of a hand against the side of his head — and something lurched in her chest that she did not quite have a name for. Not pity, or not only pity. Something older and less comfortable.
Who are these people?
The thought arrived plainly. She had never seen them before, and yet there was something about the older man's stillness, even under the blows, that tugged at the edges of her memory the way a word tugged when it sat just beyond reach.
Then her gaze moved to the horse.
A second figure, draped across the horse's back the way one draped a slaughtered deer — limp at first glance, but not limp. She could see, even from the height of her window, the rigidity in the young man's shoulders, the way his hands were not hanging loose but clenched. He was alive, then. But then why was he not walking?
Then the boy lifted his head.
She did not know whether he had looked toward her window specifically or simply upward.
But his eyes found hers across the distance of the courtyard — or she felt that they did, which amounted to the same thing — and what moved through her in that moment was not the cold shock of something unknown.
It was the cold shock of something recognised.
She knew those eyes. Not in the way one knew a face seen before at court, not in the way one remembered a name or a colour or a place. She knew them the way she knew the raven's wings against a darkened sky, the way she knew the feeling of falling before the ground arrived. From somewhere beneath the reach of reason. From the part of her nights that the physician's tonics could no longer touch.
Who is he? She thought, and the thought frightened her. She could not know him... that made no sense.
She stepped back from the window.
Her book slid from her lap and landed on the floor, and she did not pick it up. She stood in the middle of her chamber with her arms folded across herself and her breathing carefully measured, and she told herself what she always told herself.
It is nothing. They are only dreams.
She did not go back to the window.
Selethryth found Hilda in the corridor not a quarter hour later.
"The men who were brought in," she said, keeping her voice even. "Who are they?"
Hilda glanced toward the nearest door, a habit born of years in a court where walls listened. "Heathens, my lady," she said quietly. "Vikings, they're saying. They arrived at the door of the castle."
Selethryth was confused by those words, "They willingly came here?"
"So it seems, my lady," Hilda said, lowering her voice.
"The older one... some of the guards are saying it's Ragnar Lothbrok."
Selethryth said nothing for a moment.
Ragnar Lothbrok. She turned the name over carefully, the way one turned over a stone to see what lived beneath it. She had read that name. She had sat beside Judith and traced her finger along the edge of an illustration — a man, a raven on his chest — and felt something pull at her that she had not wanted to examine too closely.
"And the young one?" she asked.
"I do not know, my lady," Hilda admitted, then she looked at her closely. "Are you feeling well?"
"I am well," Selethryth said, perhaps too quickly. "Thank you, Hilda."
She turned back toward her chamber before Hilda could look at her any longer with those careful, worried eyes. She had spent a lifetime being looked at, and she had learned to distinguish between the gazes — the fearful ones, the contemptuous ones, the pitying ones. Hilda's was the last kind, which was in some ways the hardest to bear. Pity assumed there was something wrong that could not be fixed.
She sat on the edge of her bed and folded her hands in her lap and thought about what she knew.
Ragnar Lothbrok had come to Wessex. He had come willingly, which made no sense, and yet something in the older man's bearing — that deliberate stillness under the blows, as though he had decided in advance to receive them — suggested that nothing about his presence here had been accidental. A man did not carry himself like that by mistake.
And that boy...
with the eyes she had no business recognising.
It is coincidence, she thought, with considerably less conviction than she had managed that morning.
She pressed her hands flat against her knees and looked at the wall opposite and tried to pray, which she had not done with any real intention behind it in a very long time. The words came out of habit rather than faith, smooth and worn as river stones, and she was not sure they went anywhere when she released them.
After a while she stopped trying and simply sat with the quiet, which was the closest she had come to peace in seven nights.
She did not think about the boy's eyes. She tried very hard not to think about the boy's eyes.
But she was largely unsuccessful.
The King returned as the sun was going down.
Selethryth heard the horses in the courtyard and felt something in her chest loosen slightly — the particular relief of a ward who had been without her protector for too long in a house where most people either feared her or wished she were somewhere else. She was at her needlework, or pretending to be, when one of Ecbert's men appeared at the door.
"His Grace requests your presence, my lady."
She set the needlework down with hands that were steadier than she felt.
The corridor that led to the King's hall seemed longer than usual. She was aware of her own footsteps, of the sound of voices somewhere ahead — two, she thought, one of them the King's familiar cadence and one that was not familiar at all, low and weighted differently, shaped by a tongue that was not Saxon. She registered the smell of food, of wine, of torch smoke.
Then she opened the door and understood.
Ecbert was seated at the table, as he so often was, but the table tonight had an unfamiliar gravity to it. Across from him, inside a cage that sat against the far wall like something out of a nightmare, was the older man from the courtyard. Even caged, even with the bars between him and the room, he had that quality she had noticed from the window — the deliberate stillness of a creature that had chosen not to move rather than been forced into it. His eyes found her the moment she entered, pale and sharp and utterly without fear.
And to one side of the room, seated in a chair with a guard posted at each shoulder, was the boy.
She made herself look at him the way she would look at anyone — briefly, neutrally, the practiced glance of a woman who had learned to receive the stares of others without returning them in kind. But neutrality failed her almost immediately, because there was nothing neutral about the way he looked back. He was eating a piece of meat, and he also looked at her.
And his eyes were exactly like those... the eyes she had seen them in her dreams.
She pushed the thought down hard and kept walking.
"Forgive me, Your Grace," she said, and her voice came out even, which felt like a small miracle. "Were you looking for me?"
Every face in the room turned toward her.
She felt it the way she always felt the turning of eyes — like a shift in the temperature of the air. The man in the cage regarded her with a calm, unreadable interest. The guards looked at her with the particular wariness they reserved for her specifically. And the boy kept observing her.
"Yes, yes," Ecbert said, with the warmth he reserved for her and almost no one else. He gestured first toward the cage, then toward her. "This is Selethryth, my ward." Then his gaze returned to hers, steady and deliberate. "My dearest, this is Ragnar Lothbrok. And that is his son."
Selethryth looked at the son. He had not looked away from her.
"And I wish for you to take good care of him," the King said.
She returned her gaze to Ecbert. "Me, Your Grace?"
"Make sure they treat him like a guest."
She thought of her father's words, spoken in the corridor after the feast. You were born to be used. She thought of the raven falling from a sky the color of ash. She thought of how she had stood at her window that afternoon and told herself it meant nothing, and how hollow that had felt even then.
"As you wish, Your Grace," she said.
Ecbert made a small gesture, and the two guards stepped forward with a practiced efficiency that told her this had already been arranged. They took the boy by the arms and lifted him from the chair without ceremony, the way one moved furniture. His feet dragged across the stone.
He said something, sharp and clipped, in his own language — directed at his father, not at the guards, not at her. His voice carried a quality she recognised even without understanding the words. The particular tone of someone who refuses to ask for what they need and so wraps the need inside something that sounds like anger instead.
Ragnar Lothbrok, still in his cage, looked back at his son. Something passed between them that she did not try to interpret.
She looked at the father one last time as she turned to follow. That feeling returned — not fear, exactly, but the particular unease of standing at the edge of something with no way to see the bottom. The raven. The snake coiling from the dark earth. The world going foul and her wings failing her.
It is only a dream, she told herself, for what felt like the hundredth time.
Then she followed the boy out of the room.
The guards brought him to one of the cells off the eastern corridor — sparse and cold, with a narrow window and a door that locked from the outside. Selethryth looked at it and thought that the King's idea of a guest and Aethelwulf's were clearly two different things, but she pressed her lips together and said nothing. There were battles worth fighting at this court and battles that were not, and she had learned, over the years, to tell the difference.
They deposited him in the single chair with carelessness and he seemed to let out a grount of pain.
"There is no need to be that harsh," she said. "You are frightening him."
The guards and the boy looked towards her.
"Lady Selethryth—" the elder of the two began.
"The King said to treat him as a guest," she said, and she kept her voice flat and final in the way she had learned from watching Judith. "Which you will do. Please wait outside. And let him have some more food."
They left, with the reluctance of men who had been overruled by someone they considered beneath them, and the door closed behind them, and Selethryth was alone in a room with a heathen.
The thought arrived with a peculiar calm. She turned to face him.
He was watching her. He had not stopped watching her since the moment she had walked into the hall — that measuring quality, not hostile exactly, but with no pretense of courtesy in it either. He looked at her the way someone looked at a problem they had not yet decided whether to solve.
"I'm sorry," she said, knowing as she said it that he would not understand her. "I hope they didn't hurt you." Her gaze moved briefly to his legs, and the question she had been turning over since the courtyard answered itself quietly. It was not an injury. It had never been an injury. "Of course you can't understand me," she added, mostly to herself. "How silly of me."
She felt faintly ridiculous. And then his voice came, low and deliberate, and he pointed at her face.
"Þín augu."
She blinked. He pointed again, more precisely — at her eyes, one and then the other, as though distinguishing between them.
"What? Oh." Her hand rose without thinking, that old reflex of self-consciousness. "My eyes."
"Eyes," he repeated, in Saxon, accented but careful, and something shifted in her chest at hearing her own language shaped by his mouth.
"You've noticed them too, yes?" she said, and she found — strangely, for the first time in longer than she could remember — that she did not look away from his. "As I have noticed your legs."
Something moved across his face at that. Not offense. Something more complicated — a flicker of surprise at being met directly rather than spoken around, or perhaps at being met at all.
He pointed at his own legs.
"Leggr," he said.
She repeated it carefully, feeling the unfamiliar shape of it. "Leggr." Then she pointed at herself, the way one did across any wall of language. "Selethryth."
His mouth moved around the syllables with a concentrated effort that had in it something she recognised — the stubbornness of someone who had decided not to fail at a thing.
"Selethryth," he said.
She nodded. Then she pointed at him.
He held her gaze for a moment. That measuring look, as though deciding something. As though the giving of his name were a thing to be weighed rather than simply done.
"Ivar," he said.
"Ivar," she said.
The fire crackled in the grate. Outside the narrow window the last light was leaving the sky, and the darkness that followed it was ordinary and quiet, with none of the terrible weight her dreams had placed upon it.
She did not know, sitting across from him in that small room with the fire between them, whether what she felt was the beginning of something or the far edge of something that had already begun without her consent. She did not know if she believed in signs, or whether believing in them made her exactly what everyone had always called her.
She knew only that she had seen those eyes before she had ever seen his face.
And for some reason, even after all those nightmares, she was not, in this moment, afraid.
Summary: The reality of the situation is about to set in for both Ivar and (Y/N).
Heavily inspired by drama shorts I've been watching and my desire for a female lead who has a backbone.
Part One
So maybe making all his executives wait for nearly two hours was a bit extreme, but he had managed to get through the meeting easily enough. Just as things were wrapping up the text came from Heahmund informing him that he and (Y/N) were in the lobby with the tacos.
‘Oh excellent, one moment everyone.’ he said, stopping everyone as they gathered their belongings.
‘I know that my tardiness caused you all great inconvenience and I would like to apologize with a bit more than words. Free lunch in the lobby, and there is also someone very special I would like to introduce you all to.’ he announced, a bright smile showing on his face as he spoke.
There were some very confused murmurs, free food was hardly a gift to people in their tax brackets but Ivar was the CEO and you don’t get far in any industry by turning down invitations, so they followed him to the lobby.
Ivar was actually very excited to show off his surprise fiance, or more accurately he was excited to simply see her. She would be in proper business clothes and he was curious to see how she looked when fully dressed.
As the group reached the lobby they found Heahmund and (Y/N) setting out plates, cutlery and napkins on a long work desk that had been cleared off.
‘Ivar. How did we do, do you think it is enough?’ (Y/N) asked as she saw them enter.
She looked stunning, the pantsuit was simple; black with gold accents and buttons, and it certainly fit her well. Her hair was still not styled and her face was bare, but because the suit was simple it didn’t look out of place.
She was gorgeous.
‘You did excellent.’ he smiled as he placed his arm around your waist.
‘Let me introduce you all to someone very special…this is my fiance, (Y/N).’ he introduced.
What happened next was a bit of a whirlwind of congratulations, and polite questioning about why no one in the office knew he was dating. To his great surprise (Y/N) was the one to answer and she did so perfectly.
‘Oh please don’t be too upset with him, I am very private but now that we’re tying the knot I figured I should meet his colleagues. I was so nervous getting this lunch ready I lost track of time and made him late for your meeting; please forgive me.’ she said sweetly to the old timer who was currently interrogating them as she handed him a plate.
‘Nothing to forgive young lady, love makes time meaningless.’ he smiled kindly.
‘Besides, that was the nicest he has ever been in any meeting.’ the old man added in teasingly.
‘I am nice. Ask anyone.’ Ivar said, looking around for support.
He found nothing but silence and avoided eye contact.
‘No one is blaming you for it Ivar, you being a hardass keeps us working hard to keep our pockets full. But maybe have your wife drop by every other week to keep you civil and to definitely keep bringing these.’ the man said after he had taken his first bite.
There were several murmurs of agreement, it seems everyone was in agreement that the tacos were delicious, or anyone who didn’t think so had the social sense not to show it at least.
‘Well we can make some arrangements for that, if my wife doesn’t mind dropping by.’ Ivar said, looking at her sweetly and she looked back at him.
‘How about I only bring them if you are on time for your meetings.’ her tone was clearly flirtatious.
Sure he could have kept things at that, but he just couldn’t waste the low hanging fruit she had set up. So he leaned closer to not so quietly whisper into her ear.
‘You made me late for the mee-’ he was cut off when she suddenly covered his mouth with her hand, looking wide eyed and embarrassed.
‘Anyway! I can definitely bring the tacos, oh look a bird outside.’ she said quickly, interrupting him and hurrying outside.
The old man let out a bark of laughter as they watched her scurry away.
‘A very shy one you got there lad, again congratulations, I will be expecting my wedding invitation soon.’ he said before he moved on to another conversation.
Ivar smiled in gratitude as he followed his “shy” fiance outside and found her leaning comfortably against his car.
‘How did I do?’
‘Amazing, the shy thing was a good touch…excellent exit strategy.’
‘Thanks, I was tree number one in my school play, so you know, I’m a pretty good actress.’ she joked.
‘Well thank goodness I got you before Hollywood did.’ Ivar added.
‘Yeah, those vipers aren’t nearly as nice as you…and you are apparently not very nice.’
‘I am nice!’ Ivar complained.
‘As nice as broken glass.’ Heahmund said as he approached the car and (Y/N) laughed at the offended look on Ivar’s face.
‘Heahmund doesn’t count.’ Ivar complained as he opened the car door.
‘I think he counts.’ (Y/N) said as she climbed into the backseat.
‘Me too.’ Heahmund added as he started the car.
‘Would a mean boss pay as much as I do?’ Ivar asked as he closed the door behind him.
‘He’s a sweetheart, truly a saint.’ Heahmund conceded immediately.
‘Wow, well I guess now is the part where we see how nice he’ll be to me if he can change your tune that fast.’ (Y/N) said as the car started moving.
Ivar knew that the compensation had been his own idea, but having it brought up in a moment of genuine connection was sobering.
‘Yeah, did you have any number in mind?’
‘Not really, not gonna lie I’d be cool with just a place to stay since I sorta gave my place away over lunch. I have my own job, and not paying rent will really help me save up.’ she shrugged.
‘OK, hold on, are you serious?’ Heahmund asked.
‘What?’ (Y/N) asked in confusion.
‘Alright, it's really REALLY not my business, but you two are on such opposite ends of the financial spectrum right now you need a middle man.’
‘What do you mean?’ Ivar asked.
‘I mean she doesn’t get that you aren’t offering under the table minimum wage; (Y/N), he doesn’t use the word compensation for values under fifty thousand dollars.’
‘Fifty thousand dollars!’ she shouted, eyes wide in shock.
‘He paid that for spilling hot coffee on me last month, that’s his minimum. Those are the numbers you’re throwing around in his head right now.’
(Y/N) looked as if someone had just forced all the knowledge in the world into her mind, completely stunned by the apparent amount of wealth she had carelessly connected herself to. Ivar was also coming to the realization that she had no idea at all what he was in the financial world; a giant.
She didn’t know he could buy her mansions just as casually as other men bought their wives jewelry. Didn’t know that he was offering her generational wealth as they chatted over cheap tacos.
He dared to glance at her horrified face and he turned around to look out the window in shame. He had been too hasty, he hadn’t explained clearly or introduced himself properly as a member of one of the richest families on the continent. Rushing into announcing it had been ridiculously foolish because now he could not undo it without ruining himself.
‘I- fifty thousand- I’ve never even seen that… I can’t possibly take that much.’ she said breathlessly as she leaned back into the seat.
‘Contract marriages are more common than you’d think, there is an average settlement. Of course I come from an above average family, so you would get significantly more for helping me.’ he said, already feeling the guilt weighing down on his shoulders.
He knew very well the destruction sudden wealth could bring on those unequipped for it, he had weaponized it a few times in career. Give a person with no financial literacy a large cash advance, watch the money run out and see how far they fall once it’s all gone.
(Y/N) had stumbled into one of his worst business traps, and he hadn’t even meant to set it for her.
An awkward silence fell over the car as Heahmund drove, the traffic at a stand still as they made their way to Ivar’s condo.
‘So…you follow Bridgerton rules because you have actual Bridgerton wealth?’ (Y/N) broke the silence at last.
‘Pretty much, yeah.’ Ivar replied, still not looking at her.
‘You really paid fifty thousand dollars for a spilled coffee?’ she asked.
‘It was hot.’
More silence.
‘Do you not want to-’
‘I’m not saying I don’t-’
They had both spoken at once and stopped just the same.
‘Ladies first.’ Ivar invited.
‘I’m not backing out, but that kind of money changes some things.’ (Y/N) started seriously.
‘What things?’ he asked, feeling some hope returning to him.
‘Well for starters there’s-’
WHACK!
It took a few moments for Ivar to fully process that he had just been smacked upside his head. His only confirmation other than the physical sensation of it was Heahmund nearly choking on his laughter in the front seat.
‘How about you lead with the whole “I’m about to change your tax bracket” thing when you ask a stranger to marry you?’ she complained.
‘And don’t think you’re buying any wife services from me.’ she added in firmly, pointing a threatening finger at him.
Wife services?
‘Oh! No! No no, I would never expect that!’ Ivar said quickly, his face becoming red in an instant at the thought of what she was thinking.
(Y/N) watched him stutter out his apologies and lowered her accusing finger, but she kept her eyes firm on him.
‘Seriously though, I don’t want you thinking you bought me. I’ll do my part but I do it my own way, you aren’t going to be my boss or anything like that.’ (Y/N) said with finality.
‘Wouldn’t want it any other way.’ Ivar agreed, putting his hands up in surrender.
‘Good, now don’t tell me how much you’re giving me. I’ll take it in monthly payments, no lump sums.’ she sighed as she relaxed into her seat once more.
Ivar let out a breath, relieved that he’d made it out of that conversation mostly unscathed and with the added happiness that she wasn’t motivated by his money. He also truly had no intention of bossing her around in their marriage and he hated the idea of buying her.
‘You can give all your information to Heahmund when we make it home, give him your address and he can grab a few of your things too.’ he said.
‘Home? Already eager to get into married life?’ (Y/N) teased in her casual tone once more.
‘The news will spread fast, we gotta look like a couple ready to commit to each other. Didn’t you say most couples live together before they get married?’
‘Fair enough.’ she shrugged.
She called her new friend Cammy and asked her to pack up some of her more important things; like her laptop, toiletries, some clothes and few sketch pads.
At last they reached the parking lot of Ivar’s condo building.
(Y/N) whistled as the car pulled up to the main door.
‘I’d normally ask how much the rent is to make small talk but I think I’ll skip that one and move on to the weather.’ she hummed as she went to open the door.
Ivar quickly reached over her and stopped her from grabbing the door handle, taking hold of her wrist. The quickness of the movement meant that he did realize how close he was getting until he could see her backing away.
‘Sorry.’ he apologized.
‘I have to get the door, my mother likes to keep her eye on things and we have to look the part until we make it to my floor.’ he explained before he got out himself, cursing his own existence as he walked around the car to her door.
Once he opened it (Y/N) let him help her out of the car and she casually linked their arms in a romantic display.
‘Game face until we get off the elevator, right?’ she asked, smiling at him.
‘Yes, and we have to stop by the desk to get you a key.’ he said, quickly clearing his throat when his voice came out nervous and high pitched.
‘Ooh new keys, how official already and it’s only day one. I’m seeing matching pajama pictures in the near future, it’s gonna take a lot for me to convince my crowd that I genuinely decided to get hitched.’ (Y/N) hummed as they began walking.
‘Mr. Rangarson, Ma’am.’ the doorman greeted them as he opened the door.
‘Soon to be Mrs. Ragnarson, if you don’t mind telling the others for me.’ Ivar informed as they passed.
He saw her look back at the doorman curiously before she began looking around the lobby.
The luxury decor and furniture had become a common backdrop in his daily life, but she seemed to have a hard time looking at everything all at once. Her eyes were bouncing from the light fixtures, to the art on the walls and the patterns on the marble floor.
‘I don’t think I could afford the oxygen in this place.’ she whispered to herself.
‘You can look around more if you want, I’ll get the key.’ he offered, but her grip tightened on his arm.
‘No, I can do that later, you only get one shot at a first impression. If I’m gonna live here I think its best I don’t act like a visitor.’
He agreed silently and led her to the desk, where again (Y/N) played the role of nervous new fiance perfectly as they requested a new key and got her security information. The woman at the desk was very friendly as she and (Y/N) spoke, and it was more than professional politeness. It seemed everyone that spoke with (Y/N) found her delightful, Ivar had been passing this desk for two years and had never had such open conversation.
‘The best pool time is actually six pm, the last hour before it closes, all the families are gone and the hot tub is empty.’ the woman said as she handed (Y/N) the key.
‘Well I’ll be testing that at some point this week, hopefully I’ll catch you there some time Julie. Thanks so much, nice meeting you.’ (Y/N) said politely as she let Ivar pull her away to the elevators.
‘Doing great, keep it up in the elevator.’ he whispered into her ear as they waited on the doors to open.
She leaned into his side even more as she whispered back.
‘Why?’
‘My family owns the building and my mother watches the security footage, my floor is private, no cameras.’
‘Jesus Christ.’ she groaned through her smile as they finally stepped on the elevator.
‘Yeah, its hard to have secrets when your family has eyes and ears everywhere. Never stopped my brothers of course.’
They stayed close as they watched the floor number rise and rise, Ivar placing his arm around her waist as they chatted softly.
‘I know, growing up rich means no privacy as far as parents are concerned, trust me.’ Ivar sighed.
‘Can’t wait to marry into that kind of nosy family, who needs privacy right?’ (Y/N) joked as the elevator doors opened on the top floor.
‘I couldn’t agree more.’
Ivar looked up and immediately felt all the blood in his veins freeze.
‘Mother.’ he greeted.
Aslaug stood before them, dressed in a dark green dress and extravagant jewelry as she scowled at her son with her arms crossed.
‘Now what is this I hear about you being engaged?’
Summary: The reunion doesn't go the way anyone hoped it would.
Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four
Part Five
Part Six
Part Seven
Part Eight
Part Nine
Part Ten
Let no man say that you didn’t keep your word, you had not struggled at all the whole journey back to Kattegat.
You had hardly spoken since your capture, there seemed to be very few words that were worth saying when your world was crushed. So on you traveled alongside your capturers in silence as they all spoke happily of the reward they would receive for you.
Even as they hurled insults for the amount of time and resources that had been wasted on the hunt to find you, which must have embellished gossip. Surely, Ivar wouldn’t nearly leave himself destitute just to find you. Still, if only silently, you had to admit it was the most pleasant experience you’d ever had on any ship.
White Hair hadn’t forgotten your threat of killing yourself before being delivered to Ivar, and he seemed to take interest in your comfort despite you not asking anything of him. You had a cabin to yourself, guarded by two men at all times and were fed twice a day. It was much better than being trapped in a crate or sharing a cabin with Ivar while you struggled to learn Norse dialect.
Yes, it was more comfortable to lie in silence on a soft cot with a full stomach while you imagined what nightmare Ivar would put you through when he got his hands on you.
You had quite the collection of nightmares in your mind; beating, public humiliation, imprisonment, whatever it was it would be unthinkably severe knowing your husband. With every day that passed the collection grew, it grew to the point that sleep felt cruel and your full stomach ached in dreaded knots.
Silent days turned into silent weeks at sea, the comfortable bed had become stiff and you began turning your meals away more often than not. All too soon a man was announcing to the crew that Kattegat was within sight.
Hours.
You would be back in Ivar’s grasp in a matter of hours.
All around you there was noise as the crew prepared to reach the docks, your guards opened the door and threw a brown bunch of fabric at your feet.
‘Get dressed, we'll reach land soon. He is waiting on the beach.’ the man said, closing the door without waiting on a response.
Upon picking it up your dread intensifies as you recognize it as one of the many brown dresses your husband enjoyed shoving you into. The weight of the clothing felt heavier with the realization that it was really over.
You sat on your cot, looking down at the dress as if it were the shackles of true slavery, not the slavery you had found yourself missing so desperately. Tears landed audibly on the fabric as you allowed yourself one last time to truly cry out loud and in some semblance of privacy.
It hadn’t mattered how far you got or how long it had taken, you had always known it would end right back here. With you under his thumb suffering in silence like you had always done…but there was another option.
A cowardly and sinful way out that you danced with everyday.
Not now, you had given your word that you would allow yourself to be delivered alive in exchange for safety for your friends. You would have to wait and endure until you got word from the others, but once you had that reassurance…
Then you could let it all go, perhaps Ivar would be so kind as to assist you and you wouldn’t have to commit the dreadful act on your own.
A way out, there is a way out, you have a way out.
The words were a mantra in the back of your mind as you wiped your face and got dressed, whispering a prayer for strength. At last the quiet was interrupted as the ship was anchored and the men began rushing off to their families.
It was easy to picture a image just like the scene when Ivar had returned from visiting the Earl, and just as you had been dreading that then, you were dreading this reunion now.
Your door was opened again without a knock, and in came White Hair with three men he must have deemed worthy escorting you back to Ivar’s estate.
You watched the old berserker search over you and your accommodations for any signs of trouble, but there was nothing to see. There was no broken shards of anything you could cut yourself with or any rope or torn cloth to choke yourself.
He nodded in silent relief as he accepted that you had kept your word.
‘Ivar is refusing to give us our reward until he sees you.’ he said as he grabbed you in the same harsh way he had when he captured you and dragged you to the upper deck.
The sun was high in the sky and the scenery was as serene as it always had been, but it never brought you comfort before and didn’t now. No, as soon as your eyes adjusted to the blinding sunlight, they landed on Ivar standing still as stone on the beach.
There was nothing outside of him, the crowds of reunited families blurred into nothing around him; the beach was as indistinct as the background of a painting, but he was clear as crystal.
Ivar stood at full height, his crutches were newer, his braces shined and his hair was braided in war style but he was casually dressed. In a sea of happy faces he appeared both battle ready and relaxed all at once.
White Hair and his men helped you off the ship and the crowd cleared a path to Ivar without anyone needing to tell them to. In fact the beach had gone almost completely silent when your feet hit the sand. The children all stopped running, the women hushed their eager husbands as they tried to get a look at you, probably so they can gossip about your less than stunning appearance.
At long last you stood before him, his eyes bore into you like a thousand swords and you stood firm against each stab. You would not cower like you had before, because there was a way out this time.
‘My beloved wife.’ Ivar said, his face devoid of any emotion as his eyes traveled up and down your body.
You could feel him judging the weight you had lost and the hard edges that a year of slave labor had put on you. He inspected you like you were a pig he was considering offering as a sacrifice, he wanted you scared of him.
He loved your fear of him.
‘Your eyes are very blue today…Husband.’ you said back.
And they were, the last time you'd seen them like this he had managed to break his left leg in two separate places.
Anger flashed in his eyes before he gave the order to White Hair’s men to escort you back to his estate to wait for him.
‘You should rest…no one benefits from you hurting.’ you added before you allowed yourself to be ushered away from the crowded beach.
You didn’t see the way Ivar’s eyes softened when your back was turned.
On the walk back you pass the hidden path to that secret place, where it had all started. Your sanctuary that you and Ubbe turned into a den of sinful lust. There was a white stone, the size of a fist, that you had used to mark the path and it hadn’t been moved.
Then they haven’t discovered where you had been in those missing hours or who you had been with. That was good, at least that secret was safe and civil war wasn’t bubbling under the surface yet.
Ubbe.
He hadn’t truly crossed your mind since you escaped, you had no need to think of him when survival was all that mattered. Even before there was nothing in your heart for him other than the love you had for all of God’s creations, but he had given you your first earthly comfort.
Ubbe was no fool, he would have been able to maintain his innocence, so would Floki; more good news. Still even if he never truly discovered what happened in his absence, Ivar would torture you for every scenario he imagined.
Once it was in sight you were begrudgingly amused to see the estate was just as lavish as always and the shipmen were exaggerating. There were more livestock from what you could see, and it seemed as if more things had been planted in the small garden you personally tended to. You held your breath before you stepped inside, to enjoy the fresh air in your lungs a little longer.
You had expected to be greeted by the old head thrall, no one knew her name, but to your surprise and dismay it was Freydis who awaited you inside the main house.
‘Welcome home Mistress.’ she said formally.
‘Where is-’
‘I’m sad to inform you she passed shortly after your…departure.’
That was the most unexpected news you had received so far, but it would explain Freydis greeting you. Clearly Ivar had been so impressed by her that he had promoted her ahead of his more senior thralls.
‘The tub has been brought into the bedchamber, dinner will be brought in when Ivar returns.’ the thrall informed before leading you back to the room you’d hope never to see again.
She had made it sound so polite but you weren’t as naive as you had once been, you understood the real message. There would be men guarding your door to ensure you did not leave and meals would be given at Ivar’s mercy.
Starvation and isolation.
You tensed more and more the closer you got to the bed chamber, by the time Freydis was opening the door to let you in you felt as if your legs had become stiff wooden logs and you had to awkwardly force each step into the room.
Your body had felt every ache that had come with a long ship travel after a failed escape attempt, and you knew all the luxuries that awaited you inside. A soft mattress with thick warm furs, a bath with hot water and scented oils, the jewelry chest and fine furnishings.
The effort took so much focus you had to look down at your feet to make sure they actually moved. When at last you had crossed the threshold you took a deep breath as you steeled yourself, no matter what you would hold strong until you got word from the others.
You have a way out.
When you looked up you were surprised to see that much had changed in the last year, newer furniture arranged to make space for the large wooden tub. There was a large trading map nailed to the wall, decorated with angry knife slashes on at least two dozen ports and one single charcoal drawn circle marking the port you had escaped to.
The sight of it made the thought of the amount of resources that had gone into the search utterly unthinkable to you. Ivar had intentionally left the map to show you exactly how much trouble you were in.
If you thought turning away from the map to look at the bath would make you feel any better you were wrong. The tub was the same one you had been tormented in that last night, but the water was certainly not up to its usual standard.
Large chunks of ice were floating and bopping about in the water as if it had been left outside to freeze before being brought in and the surface broken.
You didn’t waste time being afraid or complaining so that his guards could report your cries to Ivar, you simply undressed and plunged your body into the biting cold water. The shock made you grit your teeth to keep the shriek inside, and you were proud to say you had been successful, that pride would have to keep you warm.
Of course it didn’t but you would tell yourself that it did, you focused on anything that your mind landed on to try ignoring the loss of feeling in your extremities. Time passed slowly until eventually your body had mercy on you and fell unconscious; elsewhere Ivar was getting as much information out of White Hair and his crew.
‘My wife, working as a slave.’ Ivar repeated, his face twisted in disgust.
He certainly didn’t enjoy learning that (Y/N) had chosen a life in bondage over the infinite luxury he had provided for her.
‘It is what was told to us when we brought her before the Earl, he gave no argument to us taking her but a good deal of offense at our ship arriving unannounced.’
‘Did you ask about her arrival and who brought her to the Earl? Who did she spend her time with?’ the prince insisted.
The old man nodded affirmatively.
‘No one paid her much attention but the head thrall reported she huddled with the few Christian women she was with when we caught her and the healers. Amund was the one who vouched for her, claiming to find her in the woods, mad with shrooms.’ he reported.
'You said there was a man with them, who and where is he?' Ivar pushed.
'Slave boy from Brande meant to protect the women, she refused to cooperate unless we granted her companions safe travel to Herning.'
'Was she close with him?'
White Hair looked confused as to how he should know such a thing, but the impatient look on Ivar's face prompted a response.
'I don't believe so, at least that didn't appear to be friendly from anything we saw while we closed in.'
Ivar growled in frustration at the fact that he was still not getting the answers he wanted and this was very little new information. It was more like an extended version of the message Silver Hair had sent by raven informing Ivar of (Y/N)’s request for correspondence with her slave companions.
Still he had gotten every detail about Amund’s part in helping (Y/N) get settled in her new position, but he couldn’t take action against the young man yet for one simple reason.
He had no legal excuse and he was on thin ice with Bjorn.
Amund, it seemed, was a very careful man; he kept to his schedule and met with no one outside of his small circle. There were no late night secret meetings with his co-conspirators or strange notes passed between strangers. Nothing to give Ivar a reasonable cause to call for Amund’s arrest; the speculation of the crew he’d paid would not suffice as evidence for his eldest brother. He would need (Y/N)’s confession naming him as her accomplice in order to make that move without consequence.
Furious as he was he was still simply relieved to finally have her back where she belongs, in his home waiting for him. Thank the Gods she hadn’t been injured in her time away, but she would have to be punished for leaving.
Ivar gave the reward to White Hair and dismissed him so that the old man could get back to unloading the ship before he too left the beach. He wasn’t heading home though, no it was best to get the nasty part done first.
He was sure the moment he saw her in their bed chamber he would no longer be able to keep his facade together. Ivar had missed her and it had taken a lot of self control not to take hold of her on the beach as soon as she was within reach. No, they would have to wait until she understood the severity of her actions and then once he got every answer he needed to ensure she never did this again he could hold her the way he wanted to.
For now he would go visit with the blacksmiths, banging on a few pieces of metal was just what he needed to calm his anger before he spoke with his wife. That was the advice Ubbe had been hammering into his head for ages.
“Ask her your questions and give her time to answer.”
His older brother had truly been his closest advisor, and he seemed to be the only one not trying to convince Ivar to simply divorce her. So his advice was the only advice worth considering as far as Ivar was concerned, but he seriously doubted his own self control and he had to take into consideration that Ubbe’s marriage was not particularly ideal.
Ubbe allowed his wife to have sex with whoever she desired and she gave him the same freedoms, a common practice that worked for plenty of couples.
However, the thought of any man feeling bold enough to even fantasize about his wife made him furious, and no woman attracted him the way that (Y/N) did without ever trying. No, that arrangement would not work for Ivar, he needed his wife to know that other men were not an option and neither was divorce.
The blacksmiths all hushed as he approached and cleared the path to his work area; he knew they were expecting him to be home now that the wife he had destroyed his reputation to find had finally returned.
‘I didn’t come here for peace and quiet, get back to it.’ he said sharply as he picked up his oldest unfinished product.
He didn’t have to repeat himself, the usual banging and shouting continued but no one dared approach him. He was grateful to not be distracted by conversation and he had no shortage of incomplete items on his bench.
The time passed as he worked, his mind danced around the thought of the conversation he would have with his wife when he returned. She would need caring for after her punishment, he knew it was a harsh one, but it was necessary for their marriage.
Eventually the sun began to set and his arms were sore from uninterrupted working, but he felt much more calm now that his muscles were tired. He couldn’t gather the energy to physically act on any anger that might occur during the inevitable conversation.
Once he sat aside his tools he studied his newest completed product, a gift for his wife.
He tucked it into his tunic and rose from the seat he had been in all afternoon, immediately the pain shot through his left ankle and he knew it was broken.
He grunted, loud and sharp enough to silence the others once more, luckily this wouldn’t be the first time he had broken a bone here and his colleagues had a system in place.
The nearest man began to help him back into his seat while another ran for the healer to mend him, but it would take time for them to come back and even longer before he made it home himself now.
With a frustrated and pain filled growl Ivar had to accept that his true reunion would have to wait just a little while longer.
Alicent hated attention and with Ivar she got a lot of attention. Especially when she took him to church on Sunday just to torture him. But really she took him everywhere. People were calling him, her pet. Alicent had great distain for the people who did but she couldn't show it.
When they were together in public, she could show no emotion for him. Not even annoyance at him picking at the very dried winter hazel bracelet around his wrist, it is a miracle in held together for so long.
"What is this?" Ivar wrinkled his nose. "It's a gift" Alicent smiled sweetly. "For what?" Ivar scoffed.
"It's just a gift" Alicent could only smirk to herself at the memory hoping no one noticed her change of expression. But his face when she gave him it was priceless. He looked at her with the most curious look that could only make her giggle. Probably similar to the one he was giving her now because he always was watching her.
Alicent prayed for a quick mass because of such things. Alicent knew what he was doing was to make her uncomfortable, teasing her in his own way but her father's thoughts did not think kindly of the heathen. He couldn't believe she had thought to take him to mass with her.
She in a very subservient way suggested to him that how was she supposed to save a sinner if she couldn't bring him to the place specifically made to save sinners. Which her father only responded that he was beyond saving. Alicent knew he was right and for some reason that bothered her.
The mass did eventually end but with people leaving, Alicent only wanted to stay longer much to Ivar's discontent.
Alicent liked to go to votive chapel inside the church. She liked the going there for its peace, quiet and time she could spend alone. But time spent alone at this instance was debatable.
No one in the church would go near her as she kneeled by the candles because of the heathen next to her. He didn't help matters any because when a little boy slowly walked over to get a better look at the viking, Ivar of course growled and fake pounced at him making him run screaming to his mother.
"Must you be a terror" Alicent side eyeing him as he smirked.
"I'm a devil ain't I? Do you expect anything less from one" Ivar trying to provoke her, that's all he did. And when he did, that was what she would call him devil or demon.
"I shall pray for you" She sighed, closing her eyes, folding her hands on the stand.
"Don't you dare" he said genuinely insulted making her bite her lip not to giggle.
"I often do" She said genuinely, making him look curiously at her.
"For what purpose" He tilted his head down, his eyes narrowed.
"I'm been set to purpose to save your soul, haven't I? When I am given a task I do whatever I can to complete it...even if it is the most impossible case" She shrugged with a pointed nose.
"Hmm" Alicent felt Ivar's eyes bore into her until she felt movement, he got closer to her "And what if instead I try to convert you" She felt his breath on her cheek as his words sent a shiver down her spine but she scoffed them away.
"That is a ridiculous notion, I would never" Alicent wrinkle her nose at the thought willfully ignoring him now.
"Yet I would?" Ivar's voice felt venomous as it met her ears making her pause questioning but stopped quickly.
"Your conversion would save you, my conversion would damn me" She said adamantly, her fingers tightening in pray.
"Maybe you would like it" His breath grazed her ear making a chill go down her spine.
"Dear God please save this boy-" alicent prayed before ivar seethed.
"I should kill you for such an insult" He said through gritted teeth, his nose against her cheek.
"Then do it, if it is my time God will welcome me for my efforts to save your soul but then it would be a shame. The guards over by the doors would kill you rather quickly and would killing little Christian princess be enough to bring you to Valhalla" He watched her tongue emphasize every word it made him still and his breath hitch before he just slumped back from her.
"Far too little" He scoffed "But do you not fear death? I could break your neck now, wouldn't take much" She could feel his fingers playing with the ends of her hair. She shivers, his words cold but his actions were tender.
"I do not fear the devil in the Lord's home. If I die here it must be his will so I would not stop you" She said indignant and childish that Ivar could not help but laugh loudly.
"Strange..stupid cristian" Ivar particularly purred making Alicent shift in her kneeling position.
"Strange..demonic heathen" Alicent said mockingly rhythmically. Alicent tried not to pay attention to him but why did he have to make himself so distracting. She could hear him click his teeth, his fingers slowly tapping on the wood stand and his body repeatedly shifting as his eyes continued to burn into her soul before he finally said something so unfathomable.
"How lucky is your god...to have you kneel so pretty for him" Alicent eyebrows knitted freezing as Ivar got even closer his chest rubbing against the side of her body "To have those lips part in words of foolish worship but tell me princess if I was above you as he...would you do the same for me."
Alicent's face turned bright red but the words meaning were lost on her "You are blasphemous" She said through clenched teeth as Ivar studied her eyes seeing no disgust or wanting only innocence that made him scoff pushing himself back from her abruptly making her even more unnerved.
Maybe my desires have become so little that all I would want is for you to do the same for me
Those were the words Ivar said in his thoughts that he would never say to her.
But what he didn't know is that he planted a seed.
Alicent tried to pray away the thoughts but in the moment she imagined Ivar standing above her. His hand clawed in her hair as his other hand..his thumb traced her parted lips. The images flashed in her mind and she tried to push them away.