#ivynabiayala

[dieayala]

Dreams Interlude

In the realm of dreams

where thoughts and feelings intertwine

a dreamy state of mind

what if this was our last conversation

then all my words would be lost in translation

in my dreams please stay

we’ve made a pact a bond so deep and true

i always knew it would be you

the dream i had about her

it happened so fast it just became a blur

i was five when she appeared in my dreams

now i’m 17 and still haven’t met her

is she real or is it all in my head

i hope one day this all makes sense

[dieayala]

stayed up all night staring at the sky talking to god and how i wish that the person i love could be closer to me. I wish I could drown my feelings out it’s really impossible to cry for me now i can’t fight it anymore i know i don’t need people to fill in my loneliness it’s something that i have inhabited to me something i know for a long time that feeling you know

[dieayala]

i spent a week in the mental hospital i don’t really know how to feel i just feel fucking empty like shi am i really insane fuckkkk

[dieayala]

it’s currently 2:40 i’m laying in bed trying to figure out why everyone left is it them or is it me idk if i should worry early to sleep i was on the bathroom floor earlier trying not to kut to deep i managed to keep my eyes dry no tears in sight i turned the lights off all you hear is the silence feeding you and the blood drop i’m not crazy i just need someone to save me im mdsjnsndndmmdmdmddmdmddmdmalskskkKSKSNSNMAoeiriejfnjekkWOOWOEJJDDKKknsnsnsnsnsnoeoeoekjjdkedndkelpwwpwlwlsnekp

i’m so sorry guys i couldn’t finish it i just, i just idk too much in my head i know i’m better of dead

[dieayala]

i just can’t take this shit sometimes