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I find myself super motivated to learn a new skill or even start school every few months. I always talk myself out of it out of fear of failure, lack of time, lack of money, but mostly the commitment of it.
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I find myself super motivated to learn a new skill or even start school every few months. I always talk myself out of it out of fear of failure, lack of time, lack of money, but mostly the commitment of it.
I want to be human...
In today’s society, I would be considered damaged goods. A broken woman that relies on caffeine and snackums to get through the day. A woman that is unable to create meaningful connections with the people around her. The daughter of a beaver bumper and a raging alcoholic.
The loner girl who has suffered from acne most of her life. The loser that is always too afraid to stand up for herself. The pushover that everyone takes advantage of. The girl that’s too nice to say no.
And these are the reasons why I keep getting hurt.
Despite all of the pain that I have endured in my life, I refuse to let it harden my heart. I try my best to remain hopeful, optimistic and kind. I give everyone a chance. I’m even willing to give them more than one chance. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt. But I think it’s time to start accepting the fact that not everyone's the same as me.
Not everyone has the same heart as I do.
Some people don’t care. They have no regard for other people’s feelings.They will use and abuse and then toss them to the side. Like they don’t even matter. It’s sickening. And I for one want no part of it.
I don’t want to become one of these people. I don’t want to let pain shape me into a horrible human being. I don’t want to drag others down to make myself appear bigger.
I want to grow. I want to thrive. I want to evolve. I want to welcome change with open arms.
I want to be an amazing mother. I want to be a thoughtful daughter. I want to be a supportive sister. I want to be a fierce friend. I want to be a good person.
I want to be human.
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I Want To Become A Better, Healthier Human
I'm really so sick of this. Ive spent way too long of my life like this. Hating myself and hurting myself and it never does me any good. I really want to be healthy and well, inside and put but I don't know how to do that or ask for help with doing so. I think I'm going to sit down and make a plan for myself. See how that goes. This idea I've placed in my mind, that I have to be as thin or as physically looking sick as I was in 2.5-3 years (?) ago before I get/ask for any sort of help is ridiculous. It's absolutely absurd and I know that from the moment I thought of it. I'm also still not sure if I was even that bad..I was around the same height just like forty lbs less....yikes. Not really sure what's worse. I'm ruining my life before it's started and in these supposedly crucial years of growth and social stuff and college stuff coming up in my junior year. I want to treat myself right. We'll see how this goes. — Journal entry from August 2nd, 2015, 1:16 PM