05022016:: Happy Lizzy Scare with ZS
Today started off as a normal day where I don’t have much expectations other than waiting to get f… although it was better after my chat with Aloysious, I was still a little rocky inside. My visit to Aloysious made me realised that I was riding in someone else’s roller coaster which I shouldn’t be in at all.. so I learnt. Noted and point taken. So it started with Mr Bear Hug.. he is still not in the best mood and asked me to go lunch with the usual gang. Of course, I went and it was near ZS’s office. We had lunch had some good laughter though both of us were nothing near happy. Maybe it was becos we knew each other so well, our acting had failed each other big time. We laughed but we were both faking it. Not sure, if the others knew but we both sure knew. After lunch, we parted ways as we headed in different direction.. I decided that I will walk into ZS’s office with the hope of bumping into him. As I walked past his office, he was talking/playing with his colleagues. I walked past him just so that he gets to see me and I get to see him. I merely wanted my presence felt by him. Which, of course, my presence was felt by him. While walking towards the door, I stopped in the path way cos a lizard decided to cross my path. Another guy saw it and went after it while I stunned there for a while… that’s when ZS came near me. While the guy crossing my path, lizard crossing to the other side I panicked and wanted to quickly make my way out of the door. ZS was quick to be by my side nearer to the Lizard while I was half screaming on my way out, holding on to his sleeve and using him as a human shield. Once out of the door, he started laughing while I started throwing tantrum of why the Lizard appeared in my path. The unreasonable princess traits came out naturally. And he just couldn’t stop smiling at my nonsense. He then proceed to walk me out of the BOH. As we were walking, he asked how was I and I told him ok but just tired. I believe he had read about my upset and how I cried my eyes out. For some reasons, I sensed a relieve in his vibes. We were talking and he went: ZS: it’s OK. Take MC… Me: no, I still need to clean my house and get things done. Sun got reunion dinner, Mon to work early in the morg, Tue… ZS: Tue is PH cannot take MC Me: ya! Then Wed got to work and do rehearsal and Thursday and Fri got to do gala and then continue event inside casino and thru the whole weekend. Then Mon got to come back work cos ppl on leave … then till 19. .19 cannot take MC cos I am pm leave and travelling till 24 Feb… ZS: then you take while on leave lor Me: you don’t curse me .. Cos I kena-ed before where I spent one one day sleeping in the hotel. That was like such expensive MC cos hotel was ex. We broke into laughter and by then we were already standing outside for a while chatting away. ZS: I think other than planning leave, now we need available calendar to plan MC.
We laughed and went on to about me being busy where I complained that sometimes I don’t even know what I am busy with for all those weird meetings that were non-conclusional and contradictory. I just took the chance to whine and whine like a baby to ZS. But both of us knew we have got to part cos we have work to go back to. But we still tried to prolong our conversation where I said his shoes were nice cos I have the urge to step on it. His reaction was ‘yours nice too though a little too big cos you are slipping forward’. Told him that’s becos I am too fat. He went ‘really? Fat again?’ Accompanied by rolling eyes… hahaha We had to part though we both didn’t want to. He said he had to go back to a briefing. He walked away from the briefing cos he saw me and he wanted to walk with me… honestly that was so sweet and it made me happy 😊 cos that’s what I wanted to hear and I am glad he started to say it again. He then walked a little further with me before making his way back. We parted but it left me with a sweet feeling. Feels love for sure. Went back to office to continue my work and meetings. Was at a meeting venue when I got the 2nd scare in the day… this time I met Xiao Qiang aka cockroach!!! I really couldn’t believe my luck. So after the meeting, I couldn’t contain it and had to call ZS to tell him my encounter. Though I feel silly but I really wanted to share with him. He picked up the phone almost quite fast, so we chatted for a short while. Told him I had to call him just to talk nonsense and hanged up. Don’t ask me why I called instead of text. Maybe I just wanted to hear his voice again. A large part of me really wants to get back with him. I don’t know if I want him back as a friend or as a romantic partner. Either way, I do want him back. Let’s hope that he feels the same way too and God to answer our prayers. For now, let’s hope that we have more chance to talk to each other. Hope there are more chances where he will drop whatever he is doing to stay with me for a while….