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X - What do I love most about myself.
At first I was going to say ‘everything!’ but I feel like that’s too vague. So, to put it in perspective....
The thing I love most about myself, is the fact that I put effort into loving myself.
Like, I used to really, REALLY hate myself. I hated everything about myself, how I looked, who I was, who I was becoming, like-- every single thing about myself I used to despise. As time went on, I realized how EXHAUSTING it was to nit pick and hate myself like that, you know? And I started putting forth the effort to change my thinking habits. Like, I’d start being able to catch myself whenever I’d be so mean to myself, or so judgmental to others, and be like ‘hey now, it’s okay, you improve one day at a time, it’s okay.’
I started practicing mindfulness and journaling and therapy, and doing all these things to learn to love myself, and now like- I barely gotta battle myself at all. It’s so weird to look back- and look at myself now.
Life used to be so HEAVY because I was so harsh on myself, and I’d be so harsh on others, I never had the energy to enjoy life at all. And it took years and years, and it still takes every day to work on this, but my life is so much HAPPIER because I put this effort in, you know? Like, I can genuinely say I love who I am and I love myself now, and I didn’t have to change anything physically, it was all MENTAL work that took this burden off myself. And now I can be happy with myself in a way that’s hard to explain to other people.
Sure, I still have those demons pop up and bad days and whatever, but its so MINOR compared to where it used to be. And, I REALLY adore that about myself, that I pushed myself into learning about who I am and what makes my mind tick and forgiving myself and all that. The more you accept yourself, the less you have to battle yourself, and.... I just can’t emphasis enough what an impact that’s made on me.
I don’t gotta pick out minor things I like about myself- I can just like the whole of myself, faults and all, because I definitely have faults. And.... that just- means a lot to me now. I’m proud of how far I’ve come!
