“but I was just another queer kid and I thought that I’d be dead by the time that I turn 20, guess I’m pushing all my luck. Living past my life expectancy, cause trans kids normally don’t get this far”
I’m sobbing every time I hear this song and I can’t get over how it cuts so close to home…. I’d never thought I’d get to be older than 16, now I’m 23 and oh boy I’m so fucking clueless ! I feel lost, but not lost as in I don’t know where I am. I feel lost as in the way I felt when I was a kid and my mother dragged me out of bed at 5 am on the weekends to go to a flea market in the middle of nowhere to buy me clothes that were too big and send me to school on Monday in jeans that made me trip over my feet und a Winter coat that made me feel like I was drowning in it, while trying to keep the sleeves of my hands so I could eat my sandwich.
