#j and l

[wolfbarnes]

I just made my ocs in sims what is my life tonight

[thatadoptedgirl]

(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd8w42H97nA)

Talk back to your inner critic 

Like, “shhhhhh”

JandLinspire.com

[irllyamfunny]

I DROPPED MY PHONE IN THE OCEAN so I lost all the old pics of me and tittyholes but I love her to death and she is my other half and we both basically only laugh when we are around each other, and that's why SHE is my best fried

[back-of-a-post-card]

In the journal you got me for Christmas I write in it still. Not as much as I used too but I do. I write to you. But it's coming to an end as it keeps getting fuller. I can't wait for you to read what I have to say.

[oneyearofbooks]

Colin Hewitt, Weavings

Published 2009, by J and L, bought during the 5th Photobook Festival

Love the rainbow typo

[sourirebrise-blog]

I can't stop reblogging gay man couples...

I have to friends (one is my best friend) that should get married... Like for real! They were made for each other and they are so homosexual haha and I just can't stop imagine then in every photo I see...

[keyayeyen-blog]

I have to make up my mind.

I know what I feel.

Mas tumitibok puso ko kay J, kaysa kay L.

May past kasi kami ni L, pero after those years, hindi na bumalik yung feelings ko para sa kanya, pati ngayon, na bumalik siya sakin, hindi na bumalik yung feelings. Friend lang tingin ko sa kanya, I do care for him, I do love him, pero as a friend.

Si J naman, he never fails to surprise me, I know he doesn't love me the way L loves me, pero he makes me happy and feel guilt-free. Kahit na ngayong 4th year ko lang siya nakilala. I liked him even before L came back to me, so mas may feelings ako kay J. Pero since halos araw araw kong nakikita si J... Wala na... Parang napapaisip ako... Nagiguilty ako... Ayokong may masaktan, pero hindi yun maiiwasan.

I once asked L,

"J o L?" sabi ko. He replied, "Diba J ung crush mo? :'( Bakit hindi nalang ako?"

Then guilt struck me, oo nga, bakit hindi siya? Bakit hindi tumitibok puso ko para sa taong mas nagmamahal sakin kaysa kay J? Bakit nga ba hindi na lang siya na laging nageeffort para lang makasama ako o makausap ako o mapasaya ako?

Dahil ba sinaktan niya ako dati? Dahil ba apat na taon na ang nakaraan? Dahil ba nakalimutan ko na nararamdaman ko para sa kanya? Bakit nga ba?

L is my classmate back in elementary. He was a playboy, girls from my school always has a crush on him. M.U. kami nung Grade 5, he knew I liked him, I knew he liked me. Pero he broke my heart. I can't/don't want to remember how many times. I don't want to live in the past. So I forgot it all. As of now, memories came back, but the feelings didn't.

J is my crush on the second half of the school year. He was smart, quiet, cute, but he doesn't know anything about love. I have to do all the efforts and stuffs to make him notice me. Well, he did. I told him that I have a crush on him, and he thanked me. (lels.) He's one of a kind. He never fails to amuse me, he just makes me laugh without meaning it. My friends like him for me too, since they know that if I'll be his first "girlfriend", he would be loyal, and be really careful.

Everyday, I recieve 'I love you' messages from L, though I don't say 'I love you too' since I don't really say those words unless I mean it. I knew I'm not ready, I know that I really don't feel something special for him.

For J? He... He already got my heart even before L did. My heart is "reserved" for J... until, L came and messed up my plan... But now, how would I decide?

Should I pick the guy, whom I love as a friend, who loves me wholeheartedly as a special someone? Or the guy, whom I love, whose love for me still develops?