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[angelicfluffs]

𝙻𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝙼𝚎 𝙻𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚕𝚢 : 𝙹𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝙶𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚔𝚢

↳ 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵 : 973 (without lyrics)

↳ 𝘴𝘺𝘯𝘰𝘱𝘴𝘪𝘴 : you realise that jack isn’t providing the love you are giving and bring a end to whatever you both have

↳ 𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘦 : angsty but the songs message is this !! Enjoy :)

↳ 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮𝘦 : nasa

Dangerous love

You're no good for me, darling

Yeah, you turn me away

Like I'm begging for a dollar

Danger, oh, how you hold me

I get a chill inside

And nothing frightens me, baby, oh

Jacks perception to the world was very much big in partying and socialising with lower ranked internet celebrities. Rightfully so, he worked hard and was known all over the woeld for his duo with Jack Johnson. The constant drinking, smoking and nights out made me feel uneasy and make me feel like I wasn’t satisfying him in some way. This usually didn’t hit jack due to his state of mind being encapsulated in that lifestyle.

I was a little apprehensive to say a word to jack especially when intoxicated due to his sober thoughts pouring out and leaving the two of us feeling polar opposite if we were to have it dry in the morning. His friends were sometimes egging jack on and ok, fine but sometimes they would make jacks thoughts manipulated and think of different things like cheating and toxic stuff like that.

I thought to myself that I might as well tell jack how I’m feeling or this feeling will eat me up inside and end our relationship paired along with his lifestyle and barely visible giving in the relationship. I usually followed my heart but this was blindly seen as my heart was covered in my admiration for jack but for once my brain made me aware of the toxicity I was in.

Is it love when so easily said goodbye?

Is it love when we've given up before we tried?

Is it love when you stole my peace of mind?

Is it love when you cry, and cry and cry?

I woke up and there was jack laying trying to quickly recover from the drinks from the night before. I retrieve my robe and enter the kitchen where the island was and the seats to go along. Entering my daily dose of internet, I spot several candids of jack from last night with several girls and being blatantly drunk out of his face.

The hour or two passes and jack enters the room with his hand rubbing his eye along with his sentence “Mornin baby” in a gravelly voice. I smile at him as the picture made me sick as he retrieve a piece of fruit and sits alongside me. He asks “what you lookin at? Trying to tilt his head to be face front to my phone. I look at him aggressively and state “I need to talk with you jack”. We both readjust our seating and I start “you need to seriously have a reboot jack cause honestly, the constant going out, with girls and drinking has to stop or this thing we have, is coming to a end”.

His eyes widen at my previous statement as I continue “there’s literal evident jack of you with girls and I’m tired of it. I’m tired of feeling not good enough for you, of not feeling pretty enough and it’s seriously just fucking me in the head”. He takes a moment and replies “baby, you know I love you but sometimes it’s just for the cameras or my friends, why would I cheat on you? With a strong stare into my eyes.

So when you walk out that door

Don't you come back no more

My heart has had enough of the give and take

And as much as I want you to stay

I start “you know what jack, I can’t even trust you and to be honest, I’m sick of your lies and I’m done with you, I’m done with this thing we have whatever it’s called and I want you out my apartment by tonight or else”. He seems shocked and tries to apologise in some way “baby, you know I love you”. I make a disgusted face and reply “I don’t think you ever loved me jack, I’m in your little pawn and I’m done”.

His face was frowned as I continue “you know, I was better than this. I stooped to your level and that in itself is emabarassing.”. He walks into to fetch his clothes from the previous night and bundle himself together. I analyse my last comment and I was right, the fact that I put my heart in his hands was terrible and dangerous for myself. I was almost forcing myself to like or love him now and that just points at the direction of a end.

The hour passes and jack seems almost complete for his exit and he says “you know, I really am sorry y/n. I didn’t mean to hurt you, I do really love you”. My face was frozen still with the same expression of little effect of the current climate we were in. The face he made was sad but he added “y/n, I know you probably hate me right now and I get that but please, think about this”. He starts to walk towards the door and he looks back, almost to remember the environment.

You're a dangerous love

Baby, you're no good for me, darling

'Cause if you're gonna love me and leave me hanging here

Then I'd rather you leave, leave me lonely

Even though it hurts

Dangerous love, baby

He shortly leaves and I sit down and sigh deeply, letting myself stop the charge that was our relationship. He hadn’t noticed the damage he had caused but that’s for me to acknowledge and repair, although it’s his fault. His words of “think about it” really irked me. I had already thought about it, I’m done. No more acting like everything’s perfect and dandy when really my tears leave my eyes the majority of nights.

The night grew deeper as I had called my mum and said “me and jack are over”. He takes a moment and there’s silence until she says “oh honey, I’m sorry. I’ll come over Tommorow, how about that, a girls day”. I sniffle and reply “thanks mum, I love you”. She responds “love you honey. You have a good nights rest, ok?”. We later on end the phone call and I end up heading to my bed.

As my head rests on the pillow, I go back at the beginning and see the transformation of jack and it was scary. The character development of him was major and I scared myself thinking that I stood by that, whatever it was. The fact that I had the courage to end the thing breaking my heart made me proud of myself that I stood up to it and no fear had anywhere to conquer me now.

[angelicfluffs]

𝙸𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚈𝚘𝚞 : 𝙹𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝙶𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚔𝚢

↳ 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵 : 840 (without lyrics)

↳ 𝘴𝘺𝘯𝘰𝘱𝘴𝘪𝘴 : you and jack are in a club and things get heated

↳ 𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘦 : kinda heated but yeah ! Enjoy :)

↳ 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮𝘦 : nasa

I'm so into you, I can barely breathe

And all I wanna do is to fall in deep

But close ain't close enough 'til we cross the line

So name a game to play, and I'll roll the dice

I was on a night out tonight in the usual LA nightclub. The bright lights moved around quickly giving some faces a clear spotlight. The club played loud music that the bass shook the room and made people dance over the flashing multicoloured squares on the floor. The club was depending on my mood, either a great place to escape or a place of a dark hole of negatives.

I was usually dragged by my friends either to drink or dance or even hook up with someone. I was wearing a black short and tight dress along with black heels and a small black bag. I just wanted to have a nice night and shortly go home. The usual guys that came here were the usual LA guy but tonight, it’s actually better.

There was this one guy that was at a little corner of the club with a big round couch and a massive space for dancing or whatever. He had tons of people at his but which I probably believed that there fillers. He was wearing a white top with black jeans and those bomber jackets that was black on the outside and orange in the inside but sat beside him.

Oh baby, look what you started

The temperature's rising in here

Is this gonna happen?

Been waiting and waiting for you to make a move

Before I make a move

I tapped my friends shoulder and asked “ hey, see that guy over there, do you know him?”. She nodded and turned to respond in my ear. “ yeah, his names jack”. As soon as we both looked at him, he looked at us. My friend and I looked at each other and sipped from out glasses.

The night crawled into a deeper darkness and more tension grew. The staring between me and jack became more intentional as we inched at the thought of talking to one another. I knew one way or another, it was gonna happen. I didn’t wanna be uptight and would be open to him making the move although, what if he’s scared or nervous?

I then tapped my friends shoulder and again and said “do you think he likes me?”. She looks at him and back at me as she replies “ oh, for sure” making it seem like I was dumb. She adds “don’t worry, he’ll come up to you, I promise” as she smiles at me in the low lighted area.

Got everyone watchin' us, so baby, let's keep it secret

A little bit scandalous, but baby, don't let them see it

A little less conversation and a little more touch my body

'Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you

Sooner or later, I see a tall figure coming bigger as it nears me until I realise, it’s jack. His walk was as if he was straight out a movie, very cool and collected. Although some girls shouted to get his attention, his main goal was to come to me. His face was darkly lit but still framed with a tan and a deep contoured structure.

While amidst my daydreaming, he is in front of me and says “hey”. His smile was enough to send me over the chair but I had to keep my cool. I reply “hey” and we both smile at each other. He starts “how are you?” paired with a soothing tone and a gentle smile. “I’m good, what about you?” was my response as he connects “yeah, I’m good”.

“You know, we can find somewhere else to talk, if it’s too loud” he asks as I quickly think to reply. I comment “yeah, that would be good” as he finds my hand and holds a grip as he guided us both to where the larger bodyguard led us. The multicoloured lights slowly grew smaller as a more cosy and lightly lit room then entered my vision.

Tell me what you came here for

'Cause I can't, I can't wait no more

I'm on the edge with no control

And I need, I need you to know

There was a big booth with red puffy seats as me and jack made ourselves comfortable. I readjust my dress as jack comments “you know, you look really good tonight” as he places his hand on my knee. He and I hesitantly giggled as I didn’t really know him, but it felt comfortable and normal. I look up to him and add “you look good too”.

The silence filled the room for a moment as our eyes kept on each other’s attributes. He leans in for a kiss, which I didn’t know really what to think or do. I blamed the majority of these events cause of the liquid courage. We kiss and placed his hand on my waist and I place mine on his chest.

The time moved fast through the night as jack asked “if you want, you can come back to my place?”. I smile and reply “I mean, yeah”. His smile and smirk grew into each other as he tightened his grip on my waist and kissed my cheek. He says “we can go now if you want” as I add “yeah, I’ll just tell my friends” as I smile and walk over to where my friend was from before. I tap my friend and say “I’m going to jacks place”. She smiles and get excited as I smile with her. I turn as jacks waiting by the door as he’s waiting for me and I add “ I’ll call you later” as I hug her and collect my stuff to retreat to jack.