pairing: jaehee kang x reader
warnings: slightly nsfw- nothing too much, but there is mentions of jaehee being a giver. religion and comparing it to love. very brief mentions of homophobia
god i'm praying the mystic fandom isn't dead bc i just started playing again T_T. i haven't written anything in yearsss so please excuse the quality. also please please like/rt and tell me ur thoughts!!! i had this idea in my head and i don't know if it makes the most sense. jaehee kang ur my favorite lesbian and i love u
title from meteor showers by andy kong :)
mdni !!
jaehee is a devout catholic. she goes to church when she can, prays every night and randomly throughout the day. she can recite scripture back to front— reading the bible gives her comfort. reminds her that, even if some of the stories may be embellished, that people thousands of years ago still felt similarly to herself.
despite all of this, jaehee has never felt closer to god than when she was kneeling in front of you, her face buried between your thighs and the taste of you blooming on her tongue. she was hopelessly devoted to you; your loyal servant, yours to do with whatever you may please. any time a plea fell from your lips, jaehee obeyed immediately. how could she not, when you sounded like heaven incarnate?
it didn’t take a long time for jaehee to come to terms with the fact that she was a lesbian. even with her catholicism, she knew. (knowing, however, is not the same as accepting it. was she really this ugly thing just for the way she felt? how could her feelings be so wrong when it was the brightest thing she's ever experienced? the hard planes of men could hardly intrigue her the way a soft curve of a woman could. she was quick to accept herself when she met you, though. because...well, heaven could hardly compare to what was in front of her, now could it?) she had never really fallen in love before you. childhood was spent keeping her head low and throwing herself into school work, pretending she didn't crave the connection of another human. the one and only boyfriend she had was more of a strategic plan than anything else, and it didn't last long. as an adult, her work simply allowed no time for such frivolous things. she buried herself in the job, and convinced herself that she was perfectly fine in between the hours. she’d pray with the rosary and force herself to stop thinking about other people, about how women her age were going out with groups of friends and who had people that innately understood them. when she bowed her head before falling asleep, she would force away thoughts of partners and cuddling, of the intimacy that came with being known so intricately. if she didn’t ask for those things, if she didn't give loneliness room, then it couldn’t take root. (so what if sometimes it pressed against her heart so heavily that she felt like she couldn’t breathe? it was fine. it was all. fine.)
and then you came along, and what a whirlwind you were. slowly, every aspect of her life had changed. you burned so bright, it was like looking at the sun itself. jaehee was caught in your orbit; so entirely devoted to you that it felt like a new religion. she swore herself to you, offered you everything she was just to stay by your side. mornings were spent with whispered pleas of 'five more minutes' and refusals to detangle yourself from her arms. you clung to her, somehow found solace between the cracks of all her broken parts. she would always be the first one out of bed, and you would find her in the kitchen whenever you decided to get up for the day. coffee would always be ready for you, made perfectly. and she would be making breakfast, never allowing you to skip a meal. and when your arms would wrap around her, when you would whisper that you missed her even though she had been in bed with you twenty minutes ago, jaehee would feel the slow, warm rush of love through her veins.
nighttime was spent with the two of you tangled together on the sofa, telling stories and laughing together. it was inside jokes and stories from youth, and it was stolen kisses between each breath, of feeling ignited like a fire. nighttime was also spent between the sheets, softly gasping into each other's mouths as you both fell apart over and over again. this intimacy was sacred; it was knowing you inside and out, it was vulnerability that she never took lightly. when you kissed her afterwards, it felt akin to someone looking at her raw, beneath all her layers, and deciding she was worth something anyway.
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♪ listen to the playlist on spotify
tracklist:
– begin again
– state of grace
– nothing new
– clean
– mary’s song (oh my my my)
– eldest daughter
– thank you aimee
– you are in love
– you belong with me
– the man
– it’s nice to have a friend
– snow on the beach
– karma
– hits different
– tied together with a smile
– lover
– crazier
– ‘tis the damn season
– everything has changed
– this love
other playlists: zen ♡ yoosung ♡ jumin ♡ saeyoung ♡ jihyun ♡ saeran ♡ rika
