Let's make a wonder! - part 1
pairing: jaehyun x reader
genre: husband!jaehyun, dad!jaehyun, fluff, angst, smut
summary: It's always been your dream to have a child, but when you got pregnant by Jaehyun, the timing wasn't right. It seemed like everything was falling around you, but still, this little miracle was inside you.
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It was a warm evening in Seoul. The sun was just going down and a pleasant calm returned to the city. You trudge to the convenience store with an oversized hoodie, jogging pants and slippers. You've been nauseous, but at the same time you're craving something salty and sweet.
When you were in the convenience store, you immediately grab a basket and look for the things you would like to eat. You had a violent attack of PMS. You were moody, had back pain and cravings. Actually, you just wanted to go to bed quickly, back to your husband's cozy body. It wasn't long ago that you spontaneously married Jaehyun Jung. You found each other after so many ups and downs in such a long time. You finally realized that you were meant for each other. Even though you were under so much stress, you were somehow happy. You were so in love, so filled with love and you felt invincible. SM Entertainment's statement about the wedding has just come out and the reaction hasn't been very positive. But you knew you wanted to do it somehow. It was now your focus to get through that and also to find a new apartment.
"Is that all?" the cashier asked when you placed the basket at the cash register. You nod and look for your wallet. But you notice in the corner of your eye how the seller laughed as he scanned all the sweets. It was the same guy that was in the store yesterday and you also bought a lot of candy before.
"I know there are a lot of sweets ..." You didn't have to justify yourself, but you felt like a little girl who wasn't supposed to eat that much sweets. You couldn't really care what the clerk thought, but somehow you felt uncomfortable. But the young man smiled and shook his head.
"My girlfriend is pregnant too. She eats exactly the same things." You look at him with wide eyes and fall silent.
"These are her favorite cookies since she is pregnant." He picked up a package and laughed. He meant well and kindly, but you were in shock. Could it be? Were you pregnant? You could hardly think straight at that moment.
You quickly pack your things and run back to your apartment. Jaehyun was still in bed, looking through his phone. He looked at you but only saw you throw the shopping bag on the bed. Jaehyun put down his phone and watched you. Something was wrong, but you didn't say a word. You start looking for something in the bathroom and Jaehyun comes to you as well.
"Y/N, what's up?" He asked, watching you panickedly search the shelf under the sink. But you don't say anything and keep looking until you find the packaging. You always had some spare pregnancy tests to be safe, you just didn't think you'd need one anytime soon.
"Y/N, what's that?" Jaehyun asked, and you took out the test strip out of the packaging.
"A pregnancy test." You look at him with wide eyes. You freeze for a moment and look into his dark eyes.
"What? I thought you were getting your period?" Jaehyun was a bit panicky like you and he was right. You told him before that you're getting your period because you're having cramps.
"I also thought...I just don't know. I just take the test now." You send him out and close the bathroom door. First you take a deep breath, but then you open the cap of the test and pee on it. When you are done, you go out to Jaehyun and sit on the bed.
Jaehyun knelt before you and stroked your arms.
"Do you think you ...?" He was suddenly calmer and more relaxed. But you didn't have an answer.
"I don't know ..." You start to sob because you can't control your emotions anymore. You see that the test was almost done and you lift the strip and look at the result. Your heart rate increased, but you feel Jaehyun touching you soothingly.
"And?" Asked Jaehyun, looking up at you. You take a deep breath and show him the display.
"Pregnant." You didn't know what to think. That was so much at once. You keep looking at the letters and tears roll down your cheeks. Jaehyun sat down next to you and rested his head on your shoulder. He said nothing, probably he had to collect himself. In principle, it shouldn't come as a surprise. You were very lazy with contraception and you were young and healthy. The probability was high, but you hadn't really thought about it.
After you stared at the pregnancy test and were silent for a few minutes, Jaehyun tried to speak up.
"Are we happy?" he asked cautiously. Actually, it was all quite a lot for him, but he couldn't really classify his emotions.
"I don't know, are we happy?" Actually, you only answered him with a question. You lay on your back on the bed and stare at the ceiling.
"I always wanted to be a mother, I thought I would be happier." You sigh and feel Jaehyun lay down next to you.
"I have to tell my manager..." He tried to make a mental list to clear his head.
"We urgently need a bigger apartment," you say, turning to your husband.
"We have to tell my parents." Jaehyun jumped out in panic. The last meeting with his parents and you didn't go well. They're still mad that you secretly married. If they found out now that you were pregnant, they would get really mad.
The next thing Jaehyun saw was that you were sitting in bed and you were crying loudly now. He looked at you worried and hugged you.
"We should be happy," you sniff into his shoulder.
"You're right," he said softly, and he pulled you even closer to him. He kissed you softly and touched your stomach. It was weird for you that he touched you there, but also beautiful at the same time.
"All changes come at once, but we can do it....right?" You look up from his hand to his face.
"Yes we can do this." He smiled and then you kissed gently.
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Jaehyun woke up, but suddenly he wasn't lying in your bed anymore, he was back at his parents' house. It was his old childhood room where he woke up. He got up and went into the living room to check on his parents. He heard the TV playing and he wanted to see if it was his father sitting on the couch. But all he saw was a little boy sitting in front of him. He watched the same cartoons he loved to watch as a kid. Jaehyun moved closer to examine the image more closely, but then the boy turned to him and smiled. Jaehyun was startled because that was him. The child looked just like he had looked back then. Jaehyun didn't quite know what was happening here, but the boy held out his hands and shouted "Daddy".
Jaehyun woke up with a racing heart. He struggled with his breathing and it took him a moment to regain consciousness. He sat up and wiped the sweat from his forehead when he saw you sitting by the window with your legs together and staring ahead of you.
"Morning," Jaehyun said softly, coming over to you. He kissed your shoulder and stroked your back. His touch brings you back to reality and you smile when you see him again.
"Hey, morning," you say quietly, stroking his face.
"How are you?" he asked, looking at you worriedly with his dark eyes.
"Physically fine. I'm just a little sick. Other than that..." You look down at yourself and put your hands on your stomach. "And otherwise I'm excited, nervous, anxious...but also happy." You smile and couldn't believe you were pregnant.
"I feel the same," Jaehyun then said, taking your hand.
"The thing about being happy too?" You weren't quite sure how Jaehyun felt about all of this. After all, he was also worried about his career.
"Yeah, that too. I had a dream. There was a little boy, he looked just like me, but he called me Daddy. And I kinda liked being called that." He smiled contentedly and then looked at you.
"Do you think it's going to be a boy?" you ask him then and lean towards him.
"I don't know, but my dream thought so." He laughed and stroked your hair. You briefly enjoy the peace and happiness that accompanies you for a few seconds, but soon reality hit you again.
"I have to tell my manager..." Jaehyun sighed and grabbed his phone.
"Wait, shouldn't we wait a little longer. At least until week 12?" The fear of having a miscarriage accompanies you constantly and you wanted to be over the risky time before you tell everyone.
"I know, but my career is in danger anyway. I will only inform him, but they should not announce anything." Jaehyun seemed nervous and you were uncomfortable. But you knew that everything was very difficult right now, so you agree.
"Okay, but he should keep it to himself or just tell the most important ones in secretiveness." You give Jaehyun a nervous look and he nods in understanding.
"Thanks, I know this isn't easy for you after what you've been through before..." He knew it was hard for you to have had a miscarriage before. He would never ask you to take this step if everything around you wasn't so difficult.
The phone call with Jaehyun's manager was very long and intense. The manager was screaming, full of anger and then full of despair. Jaehyun held back very much and let it all come to him. Somehow you felt bad. This baby made your situation much more difficult. And after more than an hour, Jaehyun was finally able to hang up. With a sigh, he sat back down on the bed and put his head in his hands in despair.
"What happened?" you ask him cautiously and put your hands around him.
"He was so upset. He needs to talk about it with the CEO. But I have to speculate with not being in NCT anymore." He buried his hands more in his hair. You didn't see his face, but you knew it was all difficult for him.
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"I wouldn't come now in your position...no...the fans are down and they're just really mad...don't worry..." Johnny strode through the dorm trying to calm his friend down. The others watched him and they too were tense.
"Did you think Jaehyun would be the first?" Taeil asked, he was really confused by the situation.
"Well, I already knew he liked Y/N, but I really didn't think he was going to marry her right away." Yuta shrugged and tried to keep listening to Johnny.
"I think Jaehyun should have thought more about us. Our image is in danger and the fans are camping and protesting in front of our apartment and in front of the SM building. At least he could have told us something..." Doyoung took a sip of his Americano and while speaking these words, he didn´t even look at his members.
"Hey, don't be so hard on Jaehyun. We know how much Y/N means to him." Taeyong also tried to be calm in this situation. He could tell the other members were uneasy, but he knew it was important to keep a clear head now.
"Think about Taeyong, all our private relationships are now being closely monitored. It's not like we don't have enough Saesang already." Doyoung rolled his eyes and continued flipping through his newspaper, still not daring to look at the others.
"He's right, now we'll be under more surveillance," Yuta said and sighed. There was a brief silence between everyone, they didn't know what to say anymore, but then Johnny came back to them. His phone call with Jaehyun was now over and he sat down with the others.
"And what does he say?" Taeyong asked, looking up at Johnny with his doe eyes.
"He's pretty exhausted. We have to consider the fact that he won't be in NCT anymore..." Johnny bowed his head, feeling quite shocked by the news. If Jaehyun had to leave the group, it would be like losing a kind of brother.
"What? I thought he was just taking a hiatus? That's what Lee Soo-man said." Meanwhile, Mark joined the group with Haechan and Jungwoo.
"I thought so too, but Jaehyun said we should expect him to go." Johnny sighed and tried to collect himself. The whole group was quiet and everyone tried to think how to keep Jaehyun in the group.
"I think that´s weird, actually Lee Soo-man keeps his promises...", Mark then said and the others agreed with him.
"Right, maybe I should talk to him? I have a good relationship with him," Taeyong suggested, but then Doyoung puts the newspaper aside and looks at his members for the first time.
"Maybe you wait and see. If Lee Soo-man has other plans for Jaehyun, then maybe something else happened." Doyoung looked around and only saw confused faces. He shook his head and then went to his room.
"What's wrong with him?" Haechan whispered to Mark, who just shrugged.
"But maybe Doyoung is right. We should find out everything and then somehow figure out how to convince the authorities that he can stay. The others nodded and everyone knew that they had to help Jaehyun somehow.
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When you woke up in the morning, you immediately threw up. The pregnancy became more and more noticeable day by day. Your nausea didn't stop and so you spent the morning with your head on the toilet bowl. Meanwhile, while you wait for your next round of throwing up again, you look at your phone. Your Instagram was private but suddenly you had thousands of requests. They were either Korean or anonymous profiles. You knew that didn't mean anything good. Apparently, the fans had figured out your identity and that made you even more nervous. In response to this, you immediately vomited again.
After feeling like you're done, you get up, brush your teeth, and go back to bed. Jaehyun was still in the sheets, but he was already awake. He sat up, pulled you towards him and pushed up your shirt.
"Good morning baby," he said softly, kissing your belly. He stroked it and looked up at you.
"Good morning Mummy," he grinned and with his hand he took yours and pulled you towards him so he could kiss you.
"How can you be so happy?" you ask him, wrapping your arms around him.
"Repression," he said, stroking your temple.
"I think they know who I am now," you say quietly and show him your Instagram. He looked at it, but then he picked up your phone and put it aside.
"Leave it, don't read anything." He suddenly became serious, but he had enough experience with shitstorm.
"But shouldn't I face that?" you ask him, but he immediately shakes his head.
"No, not in this case. It's better for your psyche..." He stroked your head.
"...and our baby." His hand went to your stomach. You put your hand over his and you enjoy the silence. But then he kissed you and looked deep into your eyes.
"I have to tell the boys," he said seriously.
"What? Can't we wait until I'm over 12 weeks?" You wanted to keep it as long as possible.
"They have to know, I can't hide it from them..." Jaehyun was already looking at you begging, but you weren't sure.
"Yes, I know...I've had a miscarriage before, what if it happens again?" Tears collected in your eyes and you didn't know what to think.
"It will not happen again." You found Jaehyun's statement presumptuous. He had no idea what you had been through.
"You don´t know that." You stand up and grab your forehead. The whole situation was already stressful.
"But how can I look them in the eye and hide that from them?" Jaehyun watched you walking, but you shook your head.
"Please Y/N..." He looks at you and you stop at that moment.
What should you do?
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next: part 2