#jail school

[meet-me-in-forever]

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Took two tests today for the county jail school, made a 91 on the first and an 89 on the second.

State test is tomorrow :) Wish me luck!

[meet-me-in-forever]

Today in jail school;

It was kind of tough for me.

The instructor I knew personally because my father had introduced us, due to the fact that I was going to school for the exact same thing he was. Sociology and Criminal Deviance.

He and I are profilers.

Well, he taught the Mental Health class, it went over all the biological, psychological, physiological aspects of inmates and how to deal with them. He also taught personality disorders, this is where it hit me hard. 

My Ex and I had been constantly fighting, and I always was trying to get her to get help but the mediocre doctor saw nothing wrong with her. I knew her better than anyone and I DEFINITELY knew there was something that could be done. There wasn't anything WRONG with needing help, but I just wanted to help the girl I loved so she could be happy.

This class hit me really hard because I learned exactly what was wrong with her. All the symptoms, the classifications, everything. I saw all the treatments, how to handle them, everything. I'm certified to differentiate between the diagnosis and the act. Everything.

And I still feel like I can save her, help her. Show her that its okay, and its not a death sentence or that it means shes crazy, that its okay.

But then I remember the same thing I've been telling myself for so long now.

"You can't save everyone, especially someone who doesn't want to be saved."

[sincerelyatomgirl-blog-blog]

So aren't our jails already crowed? Now we're sending mothers to jail because they want their children to get a better education? Sheesh, seriously, just doesn't make any sense AT ALL!