Oct 7, 2011 I nervously awaited for the nurse to call my name. All week I had continued with the "out of sorts" feelings, and trying to wrap my head around being pregnant. There was still apart of me that wasn't convinced. I decided I wanted to make the first appointment as soon as I could be cause my periods were always off so I couldn't be sure just how far along I might be. Based off my last period I could already be 9 weeks pregnant. That freaked me out because I had been out on the weekends drinking and I wasn't sure how long I had been drowning my unborn baby in alcohol or secondhand smoke. My sister tried to reassure me that everything would be ok, lots of women have no idea they are pregnant early on so they have continued to drink and it didn't harm the baby. Being a prime example herself, she informed me that she got fall on your face drunk during New Years Eve, and later found out she was already almost 4 months pregnant. Which she had a perfectly healthy baby girl...so I tried to relax about it.
When Joe and I got to the doctor's office, I was greeted with lots of paperwork and even more pregnant ladies all around me, each in different stages of pregnancy. When I finally got called back, the Nurse talked to us for a bit then performed the pelvic exam, pretty much an oh so fun pap smear, she informed us that my uterus was growing just fine, and the next step was to take my blood and urine tests, then I would be off to my first ultrasound. So after she left the room for me to dress, I began sniffling, holding back the tears. I was so nervous that I would get there and they would tell me that I was crazy and there was nothing inside me, which I tried to prepare myself for that but I new I would be so sad, to have already lost something I never really had.
The first Ultrasound confirmed that I was 7 weeks and 2 days pregnant, due May 23, 2012. The baby was 1.11 cm in length and we could see that our baby had a strong heartbeat, 152 bpm! We were both so excited and pretty speechless. The moment I saw the little object on the screen and was told that the flickering I saw was his/her heartbeat, I burst into tears. We had officially done cool stuff as Joe would say, we had created life.
