I’m not gonna talk about my groomer pubically like this until I’m in a stable environment to properly show off proof of my claims.
most of my earlier posts were fueled in a manic state and splitting during the stress in in. I don’t feel bad specifically about being mean to a rapist after ive been understanding and patient with him for 6 years. People who think my anger is unjust don’t really know the extent of how close we were and how much he manipulated me. He is an unwell predator and should be called out for his actions. Besides, I don’t feel inclined to apologize when I was always the one giving them when I felt like I stepped out of line and he never did.
that being said I don’t like the person who I become when I’m hurting. I have been nasty and I wanna put that energy into more productive outlets. Like getting my life together and putting my angry energy into art instead.
So yeah, with that all being said, back to regular programming
I feel like this would be a good time as any to talk about my EXO journey that began in earnest in July of 2019.
The funny thing is, I was actually a fan of EXO waaay back in 2012 when they were just newbies. Back when there were 12 members. Back when things were truly starting to get hard for the group. I just didn’t know it at the time.
I took a step away from the k-pop world after college because I was starting to realize just how toxic the fandom side of things could get and I had enough going on in my life at the time. By that time, I had seen EXO the name in passing but, since they weren’t my main favorites, I only was able to put two and two together once I heard a song being played.
That very first song that I fell in love with was “What is Love” and that opening with Ksoo’s “Girl, I can’t explain what I feel...” had me not being able to explain what I was feeling!! Like WHAT?! It was such an amazing R&B song + Beak and Ksoo’s insane vocals had just blown me away!
But it was just one song. Thus, EXO (K & M at the time) fell off my radar.
A few years later, I suppose YouTube thought it would be nice to recommend this video of “Moonlight” for me whilst I was listening to a randomly generated J-pop playlist. That clip of Kyungsoo-ah at the end where he was fixing his glorious red locks from “Growl” era had me 😍😍😍 (I didn’t know it at the time, but it was destiny that I would fall for this penguin prince! 🐧💓) That’s where my curiosity was piqued but it was squashed before it could take off bc I just didn’t have the heart to get into another group at the time since I was facing unemployment and panicking about how I was going to have money for groceries. So, once again, EXO fell by the way side.
Years passed and K-pop slowly fading into a distant memory to me, a love from another time. What didn’t fade was my love of watching choreography videos from dance studios. I had always been interested in modern and hip-hop dance routines ever since my teeny-bopper days in middle school. I loved it so much that I took multiple dance classes in college as a way to exercise. As I started watching more and more of these I ran across BlackPink stuff in early 2019 and so my introduction back into the K-pop world began.
One day whilst watching east2west (a dance crew from Canada that I really like) I ran across a video called “The Eve” that they covered by EXO. The thumbnail had me curious so I clicked on it and I was... 😲 But the dance was not what got me hooked, it was simply the catalyst because in east2west’s outro for the video they played “Sweet Lies” and I was so shocked at how much my body moved on its own to find out what that song was!
As they say, the rest is history. Literally. 😉
Since then, they have taken over my life and my wallet. And not a moment too soon. I was dealing with living on my own for the first time in my life and I felt so unbelievably lonely. Despite getting weekly calls from family and friends, I still felt so isolated. Getting to know EXO and finding out their story and watching their journey felt like I had discovered a whole new group of friends that I could come home to and not feel so alone. Their vibrant and quirky personalities made me feel so welcome and I embraced them with open arms and haven’t looked back since.
I know that you will never see this post but I still want to thank you, EXO, for your hard work and dedication to your craft. You kept me company and warmed my heart with your heartfelt songs, chaotic promotional V-lives, kept me laughing through your variety shows like “EXO Ladder Adventure” and “EXO Arcade”, and swept me away with your immersive concerts! It means the world to me when you put yourselves out there and I feel truly blessed to have you in my life. WE ARE ONE! 엑소 사랑하자!
the interns are doing an animals tournament next week do you want to join??
(@purriors)
... i'm going to be completely honest, that does sound fun... I guess i should get to know the interns before they inconvenience me in every way possible...
I understand why you would want my answer, but Mr. Flare is still the acting head of the lab. While you are in charge of the company we work under, it is their decision. I understand your concern, but again, I am not the one who makes these calls.
I am authorizing you to make one more visit, just to check up on our goings-on. Unless Mr.Flare changes her opinion, that will be all. You are still allowed to send representitives to preform inspections, but my word is nothing against that of a higher-up.
As a scientist, I understand the importance of these sort of rules; I understand my position. I know fully well that Sol Flare is allowed to override any decisions that I make- it says so in your own damn guidebook. They have made her decision and I have no right to override it, even if I do not fully understand his reasoning. If you would like to talk with the current professor- the highest ranking person in the lab- you should have access to his phone number and e-mail. There is no reason for you to contact me about this any further.
