sorry for the late response i fell asleep yesterday >w< but yeah.. i'm glad i'm not alone in these semi-depressing thoughts sometimes. it's not like i (even if i wanted to) could drop exo and jongin though. i just question the point of what i'm doing.. it's my life, yet i spend soooo much time invested in someone else's. "i hope he's happy, what are they doing now, omg new performance, awww he's with taemin again ugh my feels, YES A COMEBACK, ugh no he looks so tired, bebii please eat something, fuck sasaengs, please let them win this, i have to see this live, look at him smiling oh god, his future wife will be the luckiest woman on earth" stuff like that.. i think i need a boyfriend of my own lol, or for something to happen to live myself. or am i just overthinking it? shouldn't i just be happy with the feels jongin gives me? i realized this recently, but it's hard cause nothing is probably gonna change lol OTL