#father issues

[superrslut]

Yall i hate fathers. Like why the hell is this grown ass man texting me right when im trying to have my downtime to go to sleep and saying some bullshit about how he shouldn’t have had kids and that im a shitty person.

Like girl if i want to ignore your texts because its always some bullshit…then i’m going to ignore you like come on now.

I hate men and its probably because i never had a good male figure in my life.

[samfig]

my father only changing after i left the house pisses me off more than when he’d lock me away

[livsxoxo]

oh…my dad just called me overweight how fun

[oughokay]

Looking through my dad's Spotify account trying to figure out who he is behind his anger

[niclovesche]

Being a lesbian with an addiction to male attention is the most isolating shit in the universe. Because my automatic instinct whenever things go bad is to run to a man, and let him do whatever he wants as long as I can have some support, validation, and ATTENTION. It is so suffocating. And everyone in your life just thinks you enjoy everything you're doing, but in reality you're just using a maladaptive coping skill that feels like a form of self harm. Self inflicted abuse. I'm so tired lol. Get me outta here

[prettypandaboy14]

i hate my dad i wish i had a real one

[celestialplan3]

I feel really stupid feeling this way but I do so oh well. my parents have never been loving, for the majority of my childhood it felt like they just tolerated each other. no one was in any physical danger or anything. but because of that I definitely had to step up in a lot of ways and be the emotional support for my mom as a kid, which wasn't great. I always had to tell her everything was going to be okay when my dad was an asshole. I always felt like that I had to keep both of my parents happy and that their emotions were my responsibility. i had to mediate a lot of their arguments and get them to make up with each other. I eventually realized how unhealthy this was and had to completely check out and just not even though I was so used to trying to manage their feelings.

recently they have become a lot more loving and close, which is great right. well it's SO weird. I'm not used to having parents that actually seem to like each other so it feels so foreign and makes me lowkey uncomfortable (ik that's crazy). but it's just like why couldn't you have figured your shit out when I needed you too. why did I have to grow up so fast and make sure you guys were happy. I had to be your support and I never got the support I needed. I had to deal with everything on my own. like I feel resentful for the fact that they decided to clock in and be normal ass parents when I don't need that anymore. (they aren't that normal they are very bigoted and homophobic but this is as normal as they have ever been). it's just like why did you decide now to get your shit together. it's like FUCK. I never have gotten an apology for any of that and idk if i want one or care anymore but it's like I should be happy. but all I'm thinking about is why couldn't you have been there. why did I have to do this all on my own. why did your emotions always mattered and mine never did. why was I always the problem and why did I have to fix your's.

I hate talking about shit like this because ik people have it so much worse but it's just like AHHHH