#jasper original

[pantydeluxe]

day 5: long, except i couldn't think of something to fit long so i just drew my babe giovanni

[twinpirate]

ok i missed having a pinned post haiii im jasper i use tumblr to reblog 52 posts an hour and say my inside thoughts out loud (oops) and have fandom thoughts primary fandoms i (re)blog: black sails!!!!!!! merlin/arthuriana/medievalism, the raven cycle, real of the elderlings, the locked tomb (and depending on the time of year, house md) i read a lot so maybe i'll start actually bloggin about books or my creative stuff like art/writing but atm it's mainly black sails! tags key under the cut B)

note: any original textposts are now marked with #she barks my original thoughts, usually fandom -> #jasper original

my inside thoughts (so it can be muted bc i get annoying lol) -> #meposting (this one is getting nerfed/deleted most likely)

my art/writing/creations -> #jasper creates

my book thoughts -> #jasper reads

my gaming thoughts -> #jasper games

lowkey subject to change bc i feel like a narcissist having my name as All of them lmfao

[twinpirate]

the urge to become an entirely different person to the one he knew do that he can never have me again. the urge to unmake myself so he may never recognize me again.

[twinpirate]

i know im sad a lot because i went thru a long painful withering death of a breakup but i also am feeling a lot better than i did a while ago. this too shall pass.

[twinpirate]

i understand straight women with problematic boyfriends because against my will i am quite fond of a man i know to be problematic. i need to fucking kill him for his beliefs but i also only know about them secondhand and it is so hard to reconcile that with my largely positive opinion of him. i dont have the context or the anything to form a really solid opinion but also i believe that it is still difficult to in any way excuse those actions/whatever

[twinpirate]

we haven't spoken in 20 days and i think that's the potentially the longest we've gone in years? and it will become longer than ever someday. as weeks turn into months and so on.

[twinpirate]

sometimes im like hmm maybe i have ocd and then im like no im too normal for that and then im like how the fuck would i know normal. is the normal amount of intrusive thoughts none? several a day? beats me. what defines a compulsion vs not. is this obsessive or does ur average joe feel like that and just keep it to themselves etc. etc.

[twinpirate]

the little pleasures of life like obsessively stalking someone's spotify