#jaszzie

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Lmao

My girlfriend just said she was gonna make it her mission to find my blog.............

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And this is exactly what I️ feared. Why do you think I️ stopped you when we went out drinking with your friends? Cause I️ know your limit and didn’t want you to feel like shit. I️ get you went out with your brother but he didn’t take care of you. And that’s some fucked shit. Now I️ have to come and pick you up super late and take care of you. I️ still love you, but I’m upset at your brother for not being responsible.

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When you ask what’s wrong and she says nothing, then you ask her to promise and she says “well Can I tell you later?” Uhhh how about you tell me now. Otherwise my minds going to think the worst. Which is exactly what it’s doing now 🙄🙄🙄

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Hmmm

Well, it’s kind of crazy. My girl missed Mother Nature by 13 days and she started freaking out. Don’t get it twisted, I was slightly freaked out. But at the same time... I’d make life work. I’m established. I got my own place, I got a job that can potentially make me thousands on thousands per month, and I got a strong will. I’d make it work. So sweetheart, whenever you read this. Know that if it comes to that, I got you. You won’t have to worry about anything.

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You know what’s wild

My girlfriend and I have been joking about having a kid and whenever we go to the store we always stop by the kids clothes and admire how cute they are... and I can’t help but think of a future with her and a little gremlin that’s ours. Alls I’m saying, is our kid would be one ruthless motherfucker.

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Fuck

I came home to my bathroom completely cleaned. Not just stuff put away clean, I’m talking about stuff put away, and my counter, sink, toilet and tub were scrubbed and cleaned. All by my girlfriend. I didn’t ask her to do it, I didn’t mention it.. I just came home after work and it was done... why? She said it’s cause she loves me and “I want to help make your life a bit easier.” What the fuck dude. How did I manage to finally get a girl after all these trials and errors who finally appreciates me? Who goes out of their way to do that? Two days ago she cooked me dinner.. yesterday she cooked me breakfast. I fucking, ugh. I can’t. I’m so lucky to have her, and god damnit I just want her to move in and be with me at all times.

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The fuck is going on

So much shit has happened recently I don't know what to do mentally. I've been seeing my girl everyday and god I can't get enough of her. It's wild. One would think "damn son I been seeing you way too much I need a break." But it's quite the opposite. I legit want to see her all the time and spend time with her. Going out, staying in, playing board games or video games, drinking. Jesus. I just love being around her. There's an 80% chance I got a new job as well, which I'm super pumped for. Because I'm tired of driving and I know sales is where I fit in with the world. It's healthcare, or sales. Can't get into healthcare without school. And well fuck that. So sales it is. Though my dad isn't too fond of me leaving but.. I gotta fly on my own. I can't hold back because of him. And an ex bestfriend contacted me after a 5 month hiatus. Which... completely took me by surprise and I still don't know how to react to it fully. I mean I agreed to work things out but.. me being me.. it's tough. If it were a normal friend I'd be like "fuck off". But this friend is different. And when we stopped talking, at least for me it felt like the end of a relationship. But we'll see what happens. Life is throwing me through some absurd obstacles. And I'm trying to stay afloat and be positive, because I don't want my girl to see me weak, but shit dude. There's only so much I can take.

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Seems like

Everyone is against us. Seems like no one is happy about our relationship. And that's totally fine. I'm all about proving people wrong. It sucks that the one person I've counted on to be on my side through everything, is against me now. Which only makes sense because he's jealous. Which is fine. I don't care. Let him be against me, let him spread all the negativity he wants, I know I make you happy. I know that I won't do anything to hurt or harm you. And I know that I want to be with you. Everyone's going to have an opinion, fuck their opinion. The only persons opinion that matters, is your own.