❤︎ Random Jayme Thoughts ❤︎
❤︎ Always been a tomboy but she did girly shit with Sloane just to make her happy. She'd let her practice hairstyles and makeup looks while cheesy pop music played and Sloane went on and on about all the places she wanted to see and the books she was reading and, truthfully, Jayme only ever liked two things about it: when Sloane did her nails and the fact that she's one of the few in the family that gets to hear all of this.
❤︎ LOVES spicy or sour anything. And it's atomic levels of spice/sour too, her siblings can't even eat a little of it (except for Ben and only when it's something lighter) but that's fine by her. They're all amazed that she still has taste buds.
❤︎ She's really into mechanics and built her own bike, as well as a few cars over the years. Mostly, she gets a total junker, fixes it up, and sells it for cheap (because she's rich and doesn't need the money). It's just therapeutic for her, spending hours in the garage, listening to music and focusing on something else for once.
❤︎ Sometimes, when they were kids, she'd cause a scene and get into trouble just to get the heat off of one of her siblings. Mostly Alphonso, but occasionally she'd do it for Sloane or Chris. It's not a thing she needs to do now but she's still a little protective over them.
❤︎ Twilight is her favorite time of day. Not daylight, not yet moonlight, that little in between that only stays for a moment, the sky fading into purple and stars just beginning to glimmer. She likes to watch it from the rooftop, twilight fading into night as she just lingers in the darkness for a little while, counting constellations.
❤︎ NOT into the classic romances. Chocolates, flowers, love letters, that all seems so fake to her and it will make her made is anyone even tries it with her. To her, real romance is personal. It's keeping a drawer full of those crazy sour candies she likes just in case she had a bad day, it's bickering over what movies to watch and insulting each other lovingly, it's texting her pictures your took because, hey, you think she'd like that dog and you know what? She DOES like that dog.
❤︎ Jayme doesn't care for real flowers but thinks origami ones are pretty cool. Actually, she likes origami in general but hers always turn out a little wonky and she doesn't know why.
❤︎ She doesn't say much so what she says is either something that she means or just something mean. And it can be hard to tell the difference between the two. But those who know her best can come to tell when she's just lashing out (and she does it often) and when she means every word of it.
❤︎ Kind of terrified of touch because she wants it so badly and avoids it but craves it and hates how confusing this all is. Jayme wants to much to be held and kissed and all of it because she thinks she's too cold and too sharp and who could ever love a knife enough to kiss it? She needs to be handled gently but, in time, that sharpness softens itself away, at least a little bit.
❤︎ She never actually had to come out as a lesbian, everyone just sort of knew??? It was obvious and accepted as soon as each of them realized it, that was that.
❤︎ Jayme knows that she's a selfish, bitter bitch with a sharp tongue and wishes she knew how to be nice and soft (like Sloane) or charming (like Fei and Marcus) but she's not. She's just not. And she can't be anyone but herself and worries that no one will ever like her enough to accept her as she it. But she's cooler and sweeter than she even knows and she is lovable, Jayme just can't see it anymore.
❤︎ She's nicer then she knows. A hard life has made her cold and sharp and maybe she can't truly change. Maybe she'll always be sharp tongued and sarcastic, maybe she'll always lash out, maybe she'll always lose her temper and mess things up. But she works hard to clean up her mess and silently apologies and tries to show everyone that she cares in her sharp sort of way. But she does have kindness in her and, when coaxed out and treated gently, it comes out more and more.
❤︎ Much prefers Halloween over Christmas. The costumes, the candy, the pranks and scary stories and movies, it's just her sort of thing. And it's Fei's too, they both love Halloween. Marcus only allows the group costumes because its good for social media but, hey, at least they do it.