#jaynanigans

[eldritchsun]

me before like wow i live with people so its always easy to have a drink :/

me now, living alone, remembering im actually a fucking alcoholic like im sitting on my own the whole afternoon fighting for my life resisting the urge to get shitfaced. i didnt buy any beers to avoid temptation and im just rotating the vodka bottle in my mind, like i Know its in the freezer rip

[badbirep]

found a butch country singer and now im in full blown country butch longing. when will my butch cowboy come back from the war........

[eldritchsun]

moment de solitude when i go wait a min what the hell am i listening to??? and check to see its

[eldritchsun]

i know im constantly posting abt my fireplace and im so sorry but its genuinely SNOWING and i CHOPPED WOOD and made a fire for myself in my messy house!! and now im warm! aint life grand

ive never had such free serotonin than when im chopping wood. probably seeing castiel supernatural onscreen surpasses it but not by a lot!!

and its so wild bc im! actually good! at making a fire! refined my technique over the years and now if i can chop the wood myself i can make a fire with almost no starter! im real proud! and my boy bestfriend whos like thee patented woodsman lets me do the fire every time! never been so proud

and its very freeing bc i didnt really like look it up or anything, i thought oh this seems like the easiest way to do it and i liked doing it like that so that's what I've been doing ever since. maybe its totally wrong but nobody is there criticise my technique and the fire gets lit every time! so its one of those rare things that i don't really worry if im doing it correctly or not. cause i do it just for me!

all this to say that i chopped wood in the snow (a la frontale !!! pr les français) and before i was depressed and now im happy

[eldritchsun]

The backyard view midway through its winter wonderland transformation

[eldritchsun]

how funny that in a friend group assembled at random from The Youth Of The Village, we ended up with half the squad being bi.

theres four m/f couples and all except one have at least one bisexual partner. i say at least bc in my own brand new relationship thats two out of two 8)

let me just say : thank god for bi boys

now that i think abt it, theres two bi girls (...if you count my own female presenting nipples self....) and two bi guys, and if im gonna be real i have a crush on every single one of these people. luckily i managed to date the only one not already in a long term relationship 8)

[eldritchsun]

I call this look “Not Out To Your Grandma, A Christmas Tale”. My ring fell apart right after the first picture so rip, and my mom cropped out my tie in the middle one :’)

[eldritchsun]

its so funny working in an Old School CompanyTM, the old mom N pop luxury shop, because for several of us we’re setting up to have our whole careers here, and a lot of the more seniors workers are elderly and the company just went through a big hiring phase, which saw my hiring as well as several other young people, and now the cards are falling that we’re each being mentored by a senior member of the staff and you can see the next gen being set up. We’re all becoming friends outside of work as well, it’s tempting to see a little window open into the future all laid up, in five to ten years when all our mentors have retired and we’re the ones old and in charge. It’s gonna b so weird.

If we really do spend our whole lives working in this small factory, living in this small village, hanging out and hiking in the weekends, it's gonna be so wild and so so good to see all my friends faces older, be there for their kids birthdays, build a life together out here hidden away, support each other, build community, networks.

It'll also be like oh this old fucker? Weve known each other since our twenties! And as someone who's always been passing through places, never there for long, all I want now is to stay.

To stay with places, to stay with people.