this is me trying
jakub dobeš x gn!reader
word count: 753
summary: the canadiens just got eliminated from the playoffs, and your boyfriend is blaming himself. good thing you're here to comfort him
warnings: angsty, habs losing, a bit of self-deprecation, its just pretty sad sorry, no use of y/n
a/n: im currently working on a slaf story, but i was too sad about the habs losing to write all that fluffy stuff, so here's a short drabble born out of my sadness and my friend's suggestion lol
5-0.
You shut the TV almost instinctively, abruptly plunging the room into pitch black silence. It was so tempting to keep it that way, to save yourself the heartache of watching the team lose hope, of watching Jakub save shot after shot, knowing none of it would be enough unless his team actually tried scoring.
You turned the TV back on. You had told Jakub you would watch. He hadn’t wanted you to come, and you knew he hadn’t really wanted you to watch either by the look on his face when you’d told him you’d watch. But he wasn’t giving up, so the least you could do was keep the damn TV open and not give up on him either.
It was still 5-0, obviously. Not that you actually believed that closing your TV for half a minute would have somehow made the game disappear or reset. The second period ended a few moments later, and you muted the TV, the quiet immediately soothing your headache as you closed your eyes. The intermission passed much too quickly, and you were back to watching the game with bated breath, your stomach dropping anytime the puck made its way too close to Jakub’s net, your heart rate accelerating whenever the Habs took a shot.
You smiled softly when Caufield scored with just under ten minutes left on the timer, though the goal was like a band-aid to a gaping wound.
When, with around five minutes left in the game, the team pulled Jakub from the ice, only for him to be brought back only moments later after an empty net goal, you could swear your headache grew tenfold.
And when the team got another penalty with but a minute remaining, you could tell Jakub had all but given up. You closed the TV before the timer could hit zero.
It was about one hour later that you heard the faint beep of a keycard being scanned, and the click of the door as it unlocked.
You sat up in bed, turning on a bedside lamp as you watched Jakub walk in, immediately letting his bags thump to the ground in a muffled sound.
“Thought you’d be asleep,” he said simply as he remained standing in the same spot. And god, he looked so tired. He had looked tired on TV as well, but now that you could really see his face, unobstructed by the helmet’s cage, or by the distance of having to watch him through a screen, you could make out details you hadn’t been able to before.
“‘Course not,” you replied, moving to sit on the edge of the bed. “Did you already shower?” You asked, and Jakub noddled meekly. You patted the space beside you on the bed. Jakub stood there, motionless for a moment, before making his way toward you. He slumped down onto the bed beside you, his head immediately coming to rest on your shoulder.
“You didn’t need to watch the game, you know?” He said after a moment of silence. Your hand reached up to comb his hair back gently. “I let in five goals. Five,” he added after realizing you weren't going to respond, bitterness dripping from his tone.
“You’re tired,” you replied quietly.
“We’re all tired,” he replied, implying it wasn’t a valid excuse.
“Exaclty. It’s a team sport, baby. Even if you played your best game ever, you can’t win it alone,” you said, continuing to comb through his freshly washed hair. “You can’t lose it alone, either, though. It’s not your fault any more than anyone else on the team.”
“We still scored, though. If I hadn’t let any of those goals in, we would have won,” he replied stubbornly.
“You’re asking too much of yourself, my love. The other guys didn’t have to play the entire sixty minutes every other night for the past month. It’s okay, normal, that you’re tired,” you replied, your heart breaking at the self-deprecation in his voice.
“I’m so tired,” he replied, finally dropping the argumentative tone, which melted into pure exhaustion.
“Well, get in here, then,” you replied, shuffling back to the centre of the bed and pulling the covers up. Jakub tossed his shoes off before shuffling in beside you, leaning over to close the bedside lamp. You held your arms out in the darkness, bringing him into your embrace. You continued playing with his hair, and it didn’t take long for you to hear his breathing even out, before drifting off yourself.












