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off-day pre-yoga bible reading

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Free & Happy

Another special day today. Special because God made it special. God allowed this broken, tired and hardened heart of mine to know how much He loves me. 

I am constantly amazed by God's unfailing love. He's constantly pursuing me, whether I want it or not, feel it or not. 

So today a church staff came up to me as Vivian and Ruiwen was praying for my injured back, he told me he felt like there's blockages in my life and I've been through a lot of pain and sufferings that I can't seems to let go and move on. I felt it instantly in my heart that it's about time for me to move on and be happy. 

I've been trapped in those past hurts for far too long. Failed friendships, disappointments in people I love so, so much. I deserve to be happy and free.

So many people have spoke into my life the past 1 month and it's amazing how God used even a pastor through dreams to speak to me. It really just reflect one thing -- His love for me. 

If you're reading this today, it means you care a little about my life, so I would really love if you can keep me in your prayers. Pray that I will learn how to let go. Pray that I will accept the fact that it's all part of God's plan for people to leave and pray that I will love them despite all the disappointments I felt. 

Can't wait to come out of this season feeling renewed and free again :)

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God is never more than a thought away

"Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable -- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy -- think about such things."

Make your mind the dwelling place of God.

The goal here is to have a mind in which the glorious Father of Jesus is always present and gradually crowds out every distorted belief, every destructive feeling, every misguided intention. You will know your mind is increasingly "set on God" when the moods that dominate your inner life are love, joy, and peace -- the three component of the fruit of the Spirit. 

I face a crisis. I remember that I am not alone. "The Lord is my Shepherd" has become part of my mental furniture. I don't have to be bigger or smarter than I am. I live at peace.

Somebody praises me. My first thought and feeling move toward God's goodness in my life. I experience a little surge of joy.

Somebody condemns me. I remember that God supports me because he loves me. I don't have to appease or blast the critic. I can love.

I take my daughter to Krispy Kreme. I am amazed at how good God is to create such a human being. I'm filled with joy. Joy and Krispy Kremes. Grateful that God thought up Krispy Kreme.

God is never more than a thought away. 

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Your Presence is Heaven

I've never felt like how I've been feeling -- lonely & insecure. Or maybe I have in JC1... I came out of that year with a really good friend made, Vani!! I wonder what or who will I get when I come out of this deep dark lonely tunnel. Hoping that it'd be a stronger and closer relationship with my mighty God. 

"Host His presence", these 3 words from one of the Pastor during Fire Conference just keep appearing in my mind. I am almost half a year late, but I am excited as I take a step of faith and obedience to sanctify every part of me for You to dwell in. Better things and days are just ahead of me, I know it :) 

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For now, it's just studying and trying to study daily with a heart full of anticipation. Anticipating for an adventure of who knows what. Heart is such a mystery -- it feels it before things really happen. I am wondering what is my heart anticipating and what does my heart know what is to come? Why do I feel like my heart is causing me to desire an adventure, a full day of fun under the sun? But whatever, the poor me just got to resist all these feeling and force myself back to my books before the weekend arrives. Here we go, SAT.