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[yalasyardeen]

jdsmccoy replied to your post “spuffy number 5 :)”

this is painful and beautiful <333 thanks so much!!

You´re welcome

[yalasyardeen]

spuffy number 5 :)

Things you didn´t say at all.

You never told him, how much you relied on him, before everything went to hell. Before you hit the bottom of the pit, and your life couldn´t actually get worse, after you had died. 

You never tell him, that when you said he was the only person you could stand to be around, you meant every word. He and Dawn were the only people who didn´t expect you to just get back at the slayerage, and forget the fact you had died. It wasn´t enough of course, but it got you somewhere. You never told him, because you´re not supposed to need someone like Spike. You´re the Slayer and he´s a soulless vampire, and that´s just not how it works. 

It´s supposed to involve more stabby stabby, and more punching. 

You tell him a lot of things, as you grow back together and he gets a soul. You tell him he´s important, you tell him he´s different, and that you can´t really hold the things that happened before the soul against him. But you still don´t tell him, how much he mattered to you in those first few months, before you kissed him and everything went downhill. How much his quiet acceptance that you weren´t okay mattered. Or how it made you feel a little better that he never treated you, like you were a glass doll either. Maybe it´s too much to articulate properly for you. Maybe you still aren´t ready to need him that much. 

You think it´s the last one. It seems like you.

Send me a pairing + a number and I´ll write a mini fic

[kiran-wears-science-blues]

jdsmccoy replied to your post “animatedamerican replied to your post “Oh! And you know who else is…”

i always thought he was saying he was attracted to her, bc the trio expected him to say he was attracted to her, and he wanted to fit in. idk i could see bi andrew but i’m also ok with gay andrew

I could see that (and that was what I meant by ‘I can headcanon how it would make sense’ in my tags), but I’d want that addressed. It’s just in the context of every time bisexuality had a place to be mentioned in the Buffyverse, they didn’t. Andrew is another great candidate and they just . . . ignored it, again. Even if, say, Julie just said: “but didn’t you like Scully from X-Files too?” and Andrew went: “well on second thought, I think that was different”, it would make all the difference because bisexuality is considered as a possibility. 

Like, I’m not sore that Andrew’s not bi. I’m sore that no one is bi or even suggested “but do you like both?” anywhere in the franchise. And just Andrew would have been a great place to bring it up and they dropped the ball. 

[paopufruit]

make me choose

jdsmccoy asked: asuka or misato

[kiran-wears-science-blues]

jdsmccoy I bought from a comic store, sorry! Try googling torrents? Otherwise I can help you look tomorrow!

[kiran-wears-science-blues]

jdsmccoy replied to your post:Faith AND Anya are basically canonly bi, and while...

i have always shipped faith/willow since s7. like it seemed like kennedy was a faith rip off, so why not just have willow date faith. it would have made so much more sense.

I feel like I could buy that so much more tbh.

Like, I actually really liked Kennedy until The Killer In Me. Then I felt so ripped off. :( I don’t hate her but like . . . I did not like that episode at all. 

[kiran-wears-science-blues]

i would yell that i hate andrew :)

YEAH THAT WOULD WORK PRETTY DAMN FAST TOO 

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