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“you can’t run away. you can’t hide when the person you’re hiding from is yourself, ben,” she’s one to talk of course, but she’s trying, her arms wrapped around herself and the thin, Earth-style shawl pulled around her narrow frame. there are bags under her eyes that haven’t been there before but she’s getting no sleep with no news of the twins. honestly, it’s slowly draining the life from her in a VISIBLE way. if he’s running from himself PADME is guilty of the same crimes. “look at me.”
but she can’t call him obi-wan without a bang of guilt. she makes him this, doesn’t she? in a round about way. anakin should’ve never FOUGHT for her so hard, should’ve let her die. it’s this — pervasive fear of death that seems to ruin the lives it tries so hard to keep. she sits next to BEN and presses her fingers to his cheeks, eyes wide and pleading. “i can’t lose you. and you — you can’t lose me either. so we HAVE to just — KEEP GOING and PRETEND that the devil’s not at our doorstep.”
angst meme. ( @solitaryjedi )90.