#jester yapping

[acartooncl0wn]

I need more mutuals that like Bendystraw sigh.

I have some real freak shit headcanons to say about Bendystraw I know I can’t say publicly because all my current mutuals are normal and arent Bendystraw freaks like I am and i don’t wanna get jumped 😢

[jesterthetransroyal]

Being sensory seeking is an odd experience.

I’ll be in class, or out at a library, or anywhere that isn’t my house. I usually listen to really loud music because I love the stimulation it gives me, and I usually draw when doing so. I’ll sit there for hours, with a stable supply of energy, knowing nothing in the world could make me not want to continue, knowing I’ll yearn to keep this cycle going if I dare to stop for even a moment

And then I’ll stop.

I’ll get distracted, go to the bathroom, check my phone

And when I come back, all my energy will be gone. I won’t want to move. I won’t want any noise. I won’t want to think. I’ll suddenly be too overstimulated to exist

I’ll sit there, not even thinking, but deep down I know I want to do stuff. I know I like drawing, I know I like listening to loud music. But I don’t want to anymore. It’s like every ounce of enjoyment and personality has left my body, and now, just my existence is too much to handle

And then I’ll breathe out.

A wave of energy I had no idea was there leaves my body. I can feel it flowing from my chest and out my fingertips. It happens each time I breathe out, and after about 5 minutes of emptying my mind of every thought that came in during the past several hours, I find I can move again

I put on my headphones, open my sketchbook, and start it all over as if nothing happened

Being sensory seeking is an odd experience.

[acartooncl0wn]

I like how everyone in the myth fandom drew bendy in a pinup bunny costume for Easter. The world is so bright and beautiful.sniffles..

[acartooncl0wn]

Looking back at all the designs I made for the motm cast so far and it’s so painfully obvious that I’m a toyhouse artist omg.

[acartooncl0wn]

The thing that sucks about wanting to write comic is that you have to actually WRITE before you make the comic. And i don’t know how to do this. So I just sit there and draw bullshit until the story makes sense

[acartooncl0wn]

oughhhfankid comic dropping maybeeee this afternoon idk

[acartooncl0wn]

oughhhh.. bendystraw maxxing. I need these bitches to fight to death NOW.

[acartooncl0wn]

I think creators should actually just turn off anon asks on tumblr completely tbh. Especially because of the freaks in nort and fly’s inbox who are clearly dog whistling other proshippers lurking in the fandom.

It reminds me of those popular white guys in my Highschool who’d try to bait others into debating with them on problematic takes and then make fun of them for being validly uncomfortable by it.

Like get a hobby atp man.