I struggle so much with my thoughts I think I’m crazy. no one else does but no one knows me more than me. I’ve been losing and trying to convince myself I’m winning. it hurts, it’s draining, how do you face reality without faking happiness? do you know how painful it is to fake your favorite emotion? I live in a mental inbetween state everyday and every night. I love to hate my mind but my mind loves to hate me.








