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[uroojs]

She's throwing herself at you!

But why though???

Man pretty girl looked at me like that and I'd be like >.> o.o >.<

*sigh*

[uroojs]

Long Awaited Feelings/My Feelings Can Wait - Jing Xui and Ji Youyan - Jaded by Miley Cyrus

So recently I've been obsessed with a comic called Long Awaited Feelings by AirRabbitYan, 森海章鱼 and 闵然.

It's actually the novel that I've been reading more of, and it is completed. Here is a bit of what the drawing looks like

So the art is tots amazing.

My favourite scene:

The story is about Ji Youyan who has been reincarnated or brought back 2 years after her break with Jing Xiu, and 3 years before her death. She's decided in this life that she will pursue Jing Xiu.

It's honestly quite a story, and I highly recommend the novel and the comic. I do say to read the novel first before reading the comic. The comic tends to miss details from the novel, which can be confusing. The comic however tends to capture the visual of the character's facial expression and such so a combo of the two is the best way to immerse yourself into it.

So now for the actual post that the title is based on. WARNING SPOILERS BELOW! I was listening to Jaded by Miley Cyrus and was like, "Hey, this describes Ji Youyan and Jing Xiu's relationship (at least in the beginning) quite well. Wanted to dive into what the lyrics remind me of in the series.

I don't wanna call and talk too long I know it was wrong, but never said I was sorry Now I've had time to think it over We're much older and the bone's too big to bury

So this part reminds me of Ji Youyan in the first chapter of the novel and comic where she realizes she wants Jing Xiu, that she'll fight for it, and goes to pursue her. She realizes that she's wronged Jing Xiu ("Never said I was sorry") and she's had time to reflect especially after her original death ("Now I've had time to think it over")

Oh, isn't it a shame that it ended like that? Said goodbye forever, but you never unpacked We went to Hell, but we never came back

So this part "Oh, isn't it a shame that it ended like that?" reminds me of the way Ji Youyan and Jing Xiu broke up. The comic hasn't caught up yet to the novel, but in the novel it was shown that Jing Xiu felt that Ji Youyan didn't love her anymore and Ji Youyan felt that Jing Xiu didn't believe her any more with broken promises in the past. So Jing Xiu asked for the break up, and really their first attempt at having a relationship with each other and subseqent breakup really was painful and such a shame.

"Said goodbye forever, but you never unpacked" So in their first timeline, Ji Youyan and Jing Xiu didn't contact each other after the breakup, but in the first chapter, you could see how heartbroken Jing Xiu was over Ji Youyan's death, so I don't think she ever "unpacked" or let Ji Youyan go.

"We went to Hell, but we never came back" Well Jing Xiu went to hell for Ji Youyan. But actually, after their break up, both of them didn't fare too well.

I'm sorry that you're jaded I could've taken you places You're lonely now and I hate it I'm sorry that you're jaded

So the chorus really feels like it's describing Jing Xiu for me. Despite saving Ji Youyan, she's actually pretty jaded and rebuffs all of Ji Youyan's attempt at being close until a certain point. I always get confused by this because Jing Xiu did everything she could to save Ji Youyan, so wouldn't you want to get back with the person you saved ASAP? Also I know it's "jaded" but jade has a significant meaning in this story.

You're not even willing to look at your part You just jump in your car and head down to the bar 'til you're blurry Don't know when to stop, so you take it too far I don't know where you are and I'm left in the dark 'til I'm worried Oh, and it hurts me

I find in this part describes Jing Xiu. I felt like she never really looked at herself and blamed herself the way Ji Youyan did for the collapse of their relationship. Whereas Ji Youyan blamed herself in a way that she wronged Jing Xiu, Jing Xiu never looked at herself in a way that she wronged Ji Youyan. When Jing Xiu reflected on their relationship demise, it always felt that she'd done so in a lense of "I love her too much, spoiled her, and therefore our relationship didn't survive" It just never sat well with me the way she wasn't really willing to look at her part. It wasn't until chapter 100 in the novel that Jing Xiu realizes Ji Youyan was hurt by her actions or by the actions of those around Jing Xiu. I'm also a bit pissed that Jing Xiu hides a pretty big thing from Ji Youyan once they get together about their past life and it's like dude, have you not learned from the past? Communicate!

I think this is my favourite part of the lyrics to connect to the story.

And it's a fucking shame that it ended like that You broke your own heart, but you'd never say that We went to Hell, but we never came back

I think "You broke your own heart, but you'd never say that" is also my favourite line to connect to the story. I think it describes Jing Xiu perfectly. By asking Ji Youyan to break up, she really did break her own heart.

I'm sorry that you're jaded (jaded) I could've taken you places (places) You're lonely now and I hate it I'm sorry that you're jaded

We've gone over this part lol.

I won't lie, it won't be easy When somebody new's on your body I'll change my number but keep your T-shirt I don't mind it's torn up and faded

Well Jing Xiu has been keeping tabs on Ji Youyan, and it was definitely not easy for her when she finds out about Ji Youyan's death. Also, her feelings when she finds out that when Ji Youyan was dying, she was holding the jade must have been something, I guess overwhelming with grief?

I'm sorry that you're jaded (jaded) I could've taken you places (places) You're lonely now and I hate it I'm sorry that you're jaded I'm sorry that you're jaded

I kind of feel like the chorus is also where Ji Youyan is apologizing to Jing Xiu for all that's happened in the past between them.

And that's it. That's all I have for now. I hope there are others on this site that are into this novel and story. It's so good.