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[oathkeptroxas]

I don't even know if this is gonna make any sense but I can't stop thinking about it so have some words

Shane and Ilya are both bad communicators but for different reasons and both have different strengths and comfort zones in vastly different social situations

Ilya was already comfortable with his sexual identity before he met Shane. He has less of an issue with the concept of coming out because he's confident in his bisexuality and doesn't give a fuck what people think. He's largely still closeted because of the larger societal view and how it will impact his life (potential loss of his career, not being able to return to Russia) but on a person to person level he's chill about it.

Shane hasn't come to terms with his sexuality yet and Ilya is his first sexual experience with a man. He has a lot of conflicting feelings about it and is navigating something that is already difficult to handle whilst in the midst of a high stress job, wanted to be the best of the best, wanting to fulfill his lifelong dream, wanting to make his parents proud, and then feel the weight of having to be this huge brand ambassador and representative for companies that want to use his race for tokenism

Shane is in the public eye in a much much different light than Ilya is. Shane has a lot of expectations put on him already without having to dissect his sexuality. He's anxious and paranoid and stressed. He's the golden boy of hockey, he's the role model, he's the success story.

Ilya has built a bad boy reputation of sleeping around and being a cocky bastard. The public don't expect much from him other than to be good at his job, which he is, so his public image isn't really a burden to him.

But on the flip side of the narrative. Shane has friends, people who want to spend time with him even off the ice. He has loving parents who want the best for him. Shane is surrounded by support but I think he sometimes doesn't know that he can ask for it. I think so much expectation has been put on him for so long that he doesn't know how to ask for help or open up.

He's very much caught between who he's expected to be and who he is. And for a large portion of the story, he let's the public persona be a priority.

Whereas Ilya uses sex as an act of stress relief. It's recreational, fun. It passes the time. But he's not really close to anyone really. His brother only speaks to him for money. His father is dying and was never proud of him anyway, and he lost his mother at a young age. He has no one. He likes rebellion, and trouble and to act out in a way that is probably freeing for him. A big fuck you to the dad he was never good enough for even when he was the best.

It's no wonder these guys can't communicate for shit. Ilya expresses himself through sex and has never been in love before or had any real relationship. Shane has tried too hard with a few relationships that didn't go anywhere and he never had the time to analyse why that was because of the expectations set on him.

Tl;Dr They both can't communicate for shit. They both hurt each other and themselves unintentionally. They both have vastly different backgrounds that shape and inform their actions/choices in a way the other could never understand.

There is no villain between them.

In the ven diagram of story conflicts, there is no man vs man here. It's all man vs himself and man vs society.

[oathkeptroxas]

This may be an unpopular opinion but fuck it!!

I don't like it when people still use "Firecrotch" as one of Mickeys nicknames for Ian post season 3.

He only used Firecrotch early on when he was trying to maintain distance, and it started as a way to mock Ian when he actively wanted to kill him.

When Mickey said "do you need some time, Firecrotch?" in season 2 in that teasing almost soft way, it was his tone that gave him away, despite his words still trying to maintain that distance.

It's the same way that he said "I'll rip your tongue outta your head" but couldn't help that soft smile and had to avoid eye contact. What Mickey says and how he acts and feels are usually at odds entirely in those earlier seasons. That's kinda the point.

He says he's hot for that teacher woman and says he wants to fuck Angie in season 3 yet in the scene moments prior his eyes can't help but stray to Ian when it's mentioned that love is not a mistake.

Shameless character development and narrative (and especially Noel's nuanced performance) SHOW us how Mickey feels while he insists on TELLING us different. It's part of what makes his arc through his internalised homophobia so heartbreaking.

From the second Ian goes from being "Gallagher" to "Ian" in season 4, Mickey never uses Firecrotch again. It's not intended to be an affectionate moniker, never was.

Instead we get a plethora of other nicknames Mickey gives Ian: sleepyface, mumbles, red, lover, husband, babyface, sugartits

[oathkeptroxas]

Collecting bot comments like Pokemon cards

I'm sure most people know by now about the cruel spam bot comments posted under "guest". And of course the easy way to avoid this is to turn off guest comments, but I refuse to limit engagement when engagement is what keeps fandoms alive.

This comment is entirely fake. There is nothing in it that directly references the text. A real comment will at least in some way acknowledge the fandom/characters/plot. Do not let these fake comments discourage you.

Actually, even if you do get a hateful comment from a real life asshole, WRITE ANYWAY. Someone else's vitriol is a reflection on them and never on you. Keep fandoms alive. Keep writing.

(Also using hobbyist as an insult on the fanfiction site is so fucking funny asdfghjkl)

[oathkeptroxas]

Gallavich not on the ship list but they're number 1 in my heart

Happy Valentine's weekend to them only

[oathkeptroxas]

Anyway fuck the heatwave for exacerbating my chronic illnesses and knocking me on my ass for practically all of gallavich week:(((((

I was gonna write little character studies/ficlets regarding how the concept of each sin has evolved with them over the course of their lives. But I literally only got to do day 1

:((((((

Would anyone read them if I did get around to completing them/posting them late?

[oathkeptroxas]

Me and the mutuals performing a communal block to keep the fandom clean like some kind of pest control. Lmfao

[oathkeptroxas]

I've been thinking about what I could do for Gallavich Newbies week, and in doing so kinda realised how many new people I've seen in the Gallavich tag and in my activity page over the passed few weeks.

So I just want to encourage them to join in if they're interested!! We can all help keep the fandom alive. You can find the full details over at @gallavichthings

And for fic writing, I have a tip or two!

Now, I'm not a professional. I have no background education in literature. I'm just a woman in her 30's who has been writing fanfiction since she was 13 years old, across countless fandoms.

When I first approach a new fandom, the daunting thing is "WHAT do I write?" Sometimes coming up with a plot or scenario can stonewall you before you even begin.

And I know a lot of people Google random story generators to get creative prompts. I've done this, too! It is a great resource when inspiration is low!! However, I wouldn't necessarily recommend this for absolute beginners.

Here's why: writing fanfiction is different to writing original fiction because there are pre-existing frameworks in place. And having to consider WHO these characters are, WHEN/WHERE/WHY they would factor into the given prompt, and HOW they would act within that situation, can be a LOT all at once.

I have ALWAYS started with either a meta analysis or a character study. Whether I was writing for Twilight, Pokemon, Final Fantasy, DC Comics, Fruits Basket, it always started the same.

I choose a character or dynamic that I love within the chosen media. I choose a scene or scenario from canon that showcases why I love it, and then I consider that moment from the character's perspective.

This is a great writing exercise and a great starting point for fanfiction specifically, due to that fact it removes the pressure of trying to come up with a plot. There's no definitive beginning, middle, and end that you have to establish. You just essentially re-write the scene, but from the perspective of a character you love.

This gives you the chance to find their "voice". It gives you the chance to stretch your creative muscles and put yourself in the mind of the character before you then venture into a larger scale story.

Because generally in fanfiction, the characters remain consistent in their "voice". They retain their personalities, quirks, morals, and tone from canon, even if dropped into wildly different circumstances. So, finding their voice has always been where I start.

Of course, I want people to go all out if they want to! Swing for the fences with your 100k AU!! Take those risks!!! Ooze your creativity!!! But for the people who want to write something and don't know where to start or don't have the time for something larger, this is my recommendation.

(Also, my tip for writing dialogue is to read it out loud when editing. Hearing it actually spoken helps you determine if it sounds stilted/awkward, especially if you can try and say it how the character in question would. This also works well to check pacing.)

[oathkeptroxas]

ah fuck it's gallavich week and I forgot and I have exactly 0 words prepared. Better open a word doc and hope for the best rip