#joel ludwig

[deathbyhysteria]

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roommates have switched up since the first term.  aadhya moved out, which was just so sad, and now i’m rooming with just guys.

i’m pretty sure that one of the guys, joel, has a thing for me.

but at the same time, he keeps blowing up at me for literally no reason?  i know they always say that boys are mean to girls that they like, but i’m not feeling that - or him - at all.  i think it’s best that i try to keep out of his way, to be honest.  i do NOT want to give him the wrong idea.

on the other hand, my other new roommate tobin?  now that’s a guy i’d love to give the wrong idea, if you know what i’m talking about.

i don’t know much about him yet other than he takes physics, he loves music and likes to go for a jog every morning, but i already want to get to know him more.  how on earth am i meant to figure out if he’s interested in me too?  are his glances flirty or is he just looking at me?  i hate this so much!

[deathbyhysteria]

꧁mauve꧂

it’s getting a little silly now, having joel on my back 24/7.  getting home from a long day of classes, just to be badgered whilst eating my chicken nuggets?  that wasn’t going to fly.  something had to be done.

“hey joel, since we’re getting to know each other so well, i think there’s something you might want to know about me.”

“really?  tell me!”

“i’m actually a criminal mastermind.  you know that crime syndicate, mobwives?  it’s all me, dude.”

i couldn’t believe that actually worked.

meanwhile, it felt like high time i caught up with aadhya over coffee.  i told her about my crush on tobin which she managed to wrestle out of me.  she gave me some much needed advice.

“love, you need to stop worrying about it, and just ask him out!  boys are clueless, and you’ll never know if you don’t ask.  besides, now’s the perfect time, what with it being love day tomorrow!”

so i’m gonna do it!  i’m gonna ask him out for love day.  please, keep your fingers crossed that i don’t die from embarrassment - literally.

[deathbyhysteria]

꧁mauve꧂

this joel dude is EVERYWHERE.  if i wasn’t sure that he liked me before, i sure am now.  every single time i leave the house, he decides to tag along.

i even tried to convince him to do my homework for me - if he’s going to follow me around then he could at least be useful.  but he refused!  some crush.

i managed to shake him off when i saw tobin headed my way in the commons, thank goodness.  he joined me for breakfast, and he looked so cute.  i don’t even remember what we were talking about, to be honest.  i was too busy looking at his face.

honestly, just seeing him puts me in a good mood for the whole day.  i could barely even concentrate on my homework afterwards!

and i still don’t know if he likes me or not.  i’m terrified to make a move, but the not knowing is driving me crazy.  *sigh* what am i going to do?