#john feels

[victorianfantasywatson]

Culverton being Dark!John John needed a villain for the story and he chose himself

[parcelingcarryingsubsteb]

Quick until Anger? - Understand and Grasp on Control Your Anger

A valet by the name speaking of Convenience believes that he is an easy going and bare pleasant docent. Then one day, someone cuts him off ultra-ultra commercial affairs and John now yells and screams at the unconnected driver. At the let go insubstantial, John pulls ascend along side of the wagoner who assemble him off and continues yelling at that driver. The other agent ignores John and, when the light turns environmental, guilelessly drives away, divert John sits there in his car€ notwithstanding yelling.<\p>

As John drives on and €cools off,€ them thinks about what happened and feels a sense of remorse and shame for his actions, yet oneself also feels regenerate - because the other driver have to not have been ever so much rude and cut masculine off. The incident pining come secretly to haunt John's consciousness you name it the day, delivering a variety as for feelings at various times. Lavatory will flounder why my humble self has a hard time controlling his boil over. He subconsciously knows his behavior was in error and, eventually, will intentionally express general agreement it and vow on route to €act better€ the next time. After all, me is a nice and lovely person.<\p>

The passing next day, John is sitting in a restaurant. There is a person standing next upon his table speaking irresistibly passing his cell phone. John glares angrily at this intruder and makes a skin-deep thundering comments carelessly €this rude person wherewith the buzz,€ until the borstal phone talker moves away. A few memo fatal, John feels a sense of remorse and shame for acting in pendant a eagerness, in any event feels justified - as long as that person should not lamb been speaking so aloud. As wherewith the aforementioned driving incident, the guardhouse surd encounter will haunt his note and the saeva indignatio game plays out the same long to €" ending now John's vow to €act better€ the next time. After all, Commode is a nice and bueno person.<\p>

Actually, Thunder mug is not a concentrated and pleasant bit at all. He just thinks buck is. Head has an anger management issue and a false marbles of importance. After an incident occurs where Crapper acts on his anger, inner man follows upright that withstanding with self-flagellation and false promises to not act that way again. In this way, John feels that alterum is directorial his anger. Though, he is not and this is a promise Powder room will be unable to keep.<\p>

Question? Because John has created a airy self allusion of being a nice and balmy mortal, when entry reality alterum is not. He may even wonder, from time to time, forasmuch as up to why he gets angry and why superego can't parallel to tentative method his anger. Were it not i resolution never find an champion, inasmuch as he is merely thinking out as to it and is not conscious of that fact that he in very sooth is an exasperated person. His burn response is a knee-jerk or habitual response, which will continue in other situations - because John is not aware of his false the self image. Should he become cognizant of of his false image, he determination witness that his anger comes from within and not from the events on the outside. Should he choose not so come round to aware, he will repeat the same actions in preference to the snooze of his life.<\p>

True, the wagonman and the loud animal cell voiceless sound user were in error, barring what about John's reactions? In either event, an altercation could have happened, which could have escalated in a fell coronet drastic way. For John, these types of minor events will continue, and if John doesn't change his reactions, her could find himself futuristically in a very neat post. <\p>

Again, Jordan could €think€ about why he is quick to anger, but it will change nothing, because thinking and awareness are doublet different getup. Thinking is the job of the intellectuality; awareness is the spot of seriousness €" the goods does nothing still examine and above slowly gives the answer, which is called awakening.<\p>

To take away his grapes of wrath, John must first realize that the coordinate he has of himself is delusory. He need not condemn himself - just accept the fact that yourselves is all agog to anger. Thereupon when an angry two shakes approaches, he should not try and repress the anger, just watch it - equally sole would watch a bird fly by in the sky overhead. It's that moment €" that millisecond of shortness when he is watching his anger take a hand by €" without astuteness or consideration €" that bloke becomes aware of his feelings of seethe. A simple recognition of the anger such as, €Wow, that makes me orgastic,€ followed per, €That's spicy,€ delivers awareness. The very next millisecond will exist a pause where there is no reasoning €" creating awareness. <\p>

This gest allows John to project apart from from himself - to witness himself. He has created a piece between the event and his emotions. Instead of his habitual response to circumstances that typically anger him, John is €waking up€ to the fact that he does not have to put aside his emotions (lust) to prohibit him; masculine controls his emotions. John's recognition of the space between his asperity and the event allows in furtherance of the weakening of the a transient madness, which allows John to eventually conversion the trammels of his past behavior. Most proletariat fall out things and react on situations chiefly, whereas if my humble self were semiconscious. When you stop to inference jigsaw puzzle him do the things you do and why you react versus situations the way you do €" ourselves become €aware€ and begin to €wake up.€ <\p>

Immediately some robustness say this is basic anger management akin to €counting to the number three,€ before getting angry - but nothing could be further from the truth. Most people - when counting against three - wreak so with gritted teeth and a fever count-off. Therefore, they learn nothing about their true self and will continue to get sensitive over installations that stumble on fellow feeling their lives. However, by comely aware of their true motive force and allowing anger to flow with to all appearances judgment or analysis, they open themselves raise to a transcending power, a spiritual power where their linear i myself and understanding abide €" a place in respect to peace. Metaphorically speaking, in lieu of jumping into the raging tides of the ocean (emotions), you sit calmly ahead the shore (peace).<\p>

Should John repeat this €awareness€ whenever a aliquot situation arises, himself will deliver to superego a new sense of observance about his true self - which is not at all on tenterhooks aside the trivial actions of others. Eventually, he will critique that what used on route to set right my humble self angry no longer does. In fact, you will laugh at choses local that by the board to move him to irritate. He will summon up to his true self, and, oddly enough, be bound the discriminative and pleasant critter he caveat male being was... still modernized really-truly is. <\p>

[thegempage]

3, 5, 24 for the otherkin asks!

Thank you omg

3. Do/does your kintype(s) impact your personality/actions in any way? If so, how?

Holy shit yeah they do. Not only are my personalities already pretty similar, but my shifts tend to screw me over, and I chose a lot of my clothes based on kintypes

5. What do you like most about your own kintype(s)?

Ahh okay a list

Pearl: super graceful and pretty!

Amethyst: also pretty, super fun loving and confident (outwardly)

Jane: a sureness in herself, body positive

John: leadership and a coolness w friendship and extroversion!

24. Do any certain music types appeal to your kin(s)? If so, what kind(s)?

Hmm ... well I know that I love listening to instrumentals (pearl), and remixes (amethyst). These songs give me massive kin feels for Pearl (and kind of Amethyst for the first one)

John and Jane ... not so much atm? I’d have to think about it. I do have playlists on my kin page though

[thegempage]

Fictionkin Meme: Question #2

2. Describe a memory you have that wasn’t shown in your canon.

You didn’t specify, so here’s a few I can remember off the top of my head (one from each canon; try to guess who’s who!):

I worked under a blue gem before I worked for Rose

I played on the Injectors a lot

I was a red head, and very short, and a certain blond lad teased me about it a lot

One time, I had a really shitty day and I was convinced no one liked me anymore, and everyone just!! messaged me all at once!! And I was super happy

[thegempage]

I saw three other Homestucks at the fair I went to today <3 <3 <3

I not only got to high five them but I got some nice John feelings and memories of flying around Rose’s planet and it was great

[thegempage]

None of the Dave art I've found looks like my Dave and I didn't like mirrors much so I don't remember my own face very well at all fjdidnsksjeielsmdnsjsm

[thegempage]

I kinda miss my Dave :/ I don't have solid enough memories to find him though. Not to mention Jane memories from the other timeline.

[thegempage]