Have some soulmate gretchella content courtesy of me (elliott) and em 👀 there was a lot of projecting as far as *ahem* character traits go, hope y’all enjoy!!!!
Summary: Gretchen has grown up with a less than ideal mindset about soulmates. How will they react when they meet their own?
Warnings: subtle(?) homophobia and internalised homophobia, and that may be it but do read with caution as it’s pretty heavy. Let me know if I missed anything!!
Word count: 1,705
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Gretchen was six when they asked about the red string on their finger.
“Daddy, what’s this?” they asked, holding up their pinky.
John sighed, closing his book he’d been reading in the study. “It’s a sign that you have a soulmate.”
“What’s a soulmate?”
“Someone meant for you. Like Vesna and I. We were soulmates, but didn’t let that define us.”
Gretchen tilted their head to the side. “What’chu mean?”
“Don’t let the world fool you. Everyone says soulmates are the most important part of life. They’re all wrong. You should focus on things like work and school, not some frivolous nonsense such as one person in all the world meant to be with you. Do you understand?”
Gretchen crossed their arms. “Okay, Daddy. Can we go fly kites today?”
“No, not right now. I have work to do. Maybe later.”
John hadn’t been doing work when Gretchen walked in.
They were ten the first time they saw a pair of soulmates first meet.
They were both boys. The red string that held them together turned white and they hugged.
Could Gretchen’s soulmate be a girl?
“Daddy?” they began as John drove them home from school that day. “I saw two boy soulmates today.”
John’s grip on the steering wheel tightened a bit. “I see.”
“Could my soulmate be a girl?”
“I’m not sure. I should hope not.”
Gretchen furrowed their brows. “How come?”
“Same sex soulmates have a higher mortality rate due to disapproval and lack of acceptance from peers. Not to mention they’re prone to… well, frankly, divorce.”
“But you and Mommy divorced.”
John’s grip tightened further, and Gretchen could see the marking on his pinky finger where his string once was.
“Yes, straight soulmates do divorce sometimes, but it’s higher in same sex soulmates.”
“Why? And what's morality?”
“Mortality. What I meant is that same sex soulmates more often die young and are even murdered. I don’t want that for you.”
Gretchen was suddenly scared. “What if my soulmate is a girl?”
“Don’t worry about that for now. It doesn’t matter.”
The conversation dissipated from there.
Gretchen was thirteen when they decided they didn’t want a soulmate anymore.
The odds of their soulmate being a girl were far too high. They didn’t want to end up like the dead soulmates their dad was talking about.
They took a pair of scissors and tried cutting their string. The scissors broke and clattered to the ground.
What? This had worked for John when he didn’t want a soulmate anymore. Were they doing it wrong?
They took a knife from the kitchen and sawed it across the string. The knife became ground down and dull.
They tried to untie the string but couldn’t find the knot. This soon became a game of finding the most slippery substance to help them slip out of the string.
Nothing worked. It was hopeless.
There was a chance that Gretchen was doomed to die young and there was nothing they could do about it.
Please let my soulmate be a boy, they thought. I wanna live.
They were seventeen when they stopped caring about what their father thought.
They also started using they/them pronouns alongside their step-sibling, Marion. John had married a woman named Eliza, who he claimed he met at a “gathering” for people who abandoned the soulmate life. Her kids were Marion and Jessique, who Gretchen liked much more than Eliza. Their dad had bad taste.
Gretchen was walking home from school when they felt a tug from their string. They usually felt an occasional pull from it but this was much stronger than that. It just about knocked them off their feet.
Before they could question it further, they were being pulled into the middle of the road. Luckily no one was driving, but Gretchen was still not having any of this today.
“Let me go!” they called uselessly.
It hurt to pull against the string but they really didn’t know what else to do. It was a little while before they suddenly collided with someone and was finally able to stop. Unfortunately the two of them crashed to the ground.
“I’m so sorry!” the stranger yelped.
Gretchen put a hand to their forehead, which had bumped into the stranger’s. “No, it’s all good. No harm done.”
“I should have paid more attention but my string was pulling me away and I—”
Gretchen finally took a look at the stranger in question. Bright orange hair overtook every feature and it was radiant as the morning sun. Eyes like drops of chocolate, enticingly sweet. She was too perfect.
Gretchen looked down at their string. It was white.
“Hi,” the stranger murmured. “I’m Pamella. I guess we’re—”
Gretchen got up and ran.
They were in tears when they came to terms with what happened.
They stood in the bathroom sobbing in front of the mirror. John’s voice echoed in their head.
Same sex soulmates have a higher mortality rate due to disapproval and lack of acceptance from peers.
They shook their head to rid themself of their thoughts. They didn’t care what their dad thought. They didn’t.
Same sex soulmates more often die and are even murdered. I don’t want that for you.
No. It was all stigma. It was all lies. Shut up.
You should focus on things like work and school, not some frivolous nonsense such as one person in all the world meant to be with you.
Shut up!
Gretchen was on the verge of screaming but kept as quiet as possible. They didn’t want to worry their siblings.
They didn’t care what their dad thought. They didn’t.
Even still they couldn’t accept what they have faced.
Gretchen was eighteen when they met their soulmate for a second time.
Perhaps not entirely true, given that they had spotted Pamella at school a few times since their run-in. This, however, was their first proper encounter since Gretchen ran.
“Uh, excuse me!” Pamella’s voice called out, catching Gretchen’s attention. They realised who it was and tried to walk away faster.
Go away, go away, go away—
“Hey!” Pamella caught up with them, standing in front of them with a shy smile. “So… I, uh… wanted to give you time to process everything, but I’ve seen you avoiding me like crazy. I just… wanted to know why? At first I thought maybe you were upset about me knocking you over, but I don’t know. Man, I feel like an asshole.” She chuckled awkwardly.
Gretchen blinked. “Sorry,” they said on instinct. “Uh… it’s not you, it’s me, I gotta go.”
They walked away without another word.
Gretchen was home alone with Marion when they confessed to what had been going on.
“Wow,” Marion murmured. “I mean, obviously I knew you’d met your soulmate, I just thought… well, I don’t know. Why’d you run?”
Gretchen buried their face in their hands. “It’s complicated.”
“C’mon, talk to me, bestie.”
Gretchen sighed and sat up. “My dad scared me as a kid telling me I was gonna die if my soulmate was a girl.”
Marion paused, their expression never changing. “The fuck?”
“He was talking about, like, mortality rates of gay soulmates and divorce and shit, so… ten year old me took it to heart for some reason.”
“Huh. So when you realised your soulmate is a girl… aw, Gretch.”
“I know, it’s stupid.”
“No it’s not. I promise you, it’s not stupid. Your dad is a piece of shit.”
Gretchen snorted. “Yup, sounds right.”
“Don’t let him ruin your experience with your soulmate. I promise you, if you let your parent try to run your life, it’ll just hurt. Trust me.”
Gretchen glanced over at Marion. They couldn’t help but smile. “Thanks, Mari.”
“You gonna go after your soulmate?”
“I might have to.”
The next day at school, Gretchen was the one to approach Pamella.
“Hi,” they murmured shyly.
“Hey,” Pamella replied with hesitation.
“I, uh… I know I’ve been a dick… but… I wanna… try this whole thing again. You deserve better from your… soulmate.”
Pamella was clearly shocked, and Gretchen gave her time to process what they had said. She took a deep breath and finally spoke.
“Hi. I’m Pamella. He/him pronouns.”
Gretchen blinked. That was unexpected.
“Oh. Uh, Gretchen. They/them pronouns.”
Pamella smiled. “Nice to meet you, Gretchen. I’m sure you’re a bit surprised that I’m… ya know, trans. I’m not out to my parents, so that makes it a bit hard to transition, not to mention I’m scared to get my hair cut.”
“I mean, you don’t need a haircut to be trans, though. Being trans makes you trans. I mean, I’m still feminine and nonbinary as fuck, they’re not mutually exclusive.”
Pamella blushed. “Thanks. I’m glad you get it.”
Gretchen grinned. Maybe having a soulmate wouldn’t be so bad after all.
Gretchen and Pam were twenty when they decided to label themselves as platonic soulmates.
They weren’t romantically involved and they were okay with that. Gretchen was aromantic and Pam didn’t care about relationships. He really just wanted to be with Gretchen in a platonic way. They were all he needed.
They had tried to make it work as romantic soulmates, which didn’t last long.
The one thing they continued to do in their platonic relationship was cuddle.
Gretchen laid on top of Pam, who laid on his back and ran his hand up and down their back. Gretchen was having a difficult day and all they needed was cuddles on the couch with a movie on the TV.
Gretchen looked up at Pam, his new haircut still ravishing in their eyes. Gretchen had been tempted to shave their head but decided against it since they liked how they dyed it. Black on one side, their natural brown on the other.
“Pam?” they murmured.
Pam glanced down at them. “Yeah?”
“Do you think we’re soulmates because we just understand each other so much?”
Pam smiled. “I think we’re soulmates because we complete each other in a way no one else gets.”
Gretchen smiled back. They laid their head back down and closed their eyes, Pam running a hand through their hair.
