Today Hella selfies Last night saw Sylvan Esso and Flock of Dimes at Wooly's with Joey and Ben 👍 Cleaned houses today. I fell in love with the one with flowers. Ate soup in the tub and was delighted to be with my old friend. Got photos back from Laura's wedding. I am wearing a jumpsuit to everything from now on. Slept with Madeleine. Been thinking about taking things one step at a time. A while back I read an article in Forbes or Inc about habits that "highly productive" CEOs have. One was that they plan several steps ahead, like a game. I have long been in the habit of looking over the possible outcomes but mainly keeping my focus on the ground, directly in front of me. It's a habit highly resilient people have; when you're staring down difficulty, planning for all the possible outcomes is impossible and overwhelming. Hope and confidence are tantamount in times of difficulty, and exhausting your ego in superfluous decision making will do no good. This month a climbed a mountain. I like to say it like that; it sounds more like I summited Denali and less like I walked up 4 miles of maintained trail. But to me it felt like summiting a major peak; I hike a lot, just across mostly flat lands with no slippery rocks. A third of the way into the hike I wanted to quit. I carried all the water for the hike and the extra weight was a challenge. We stopped to rest every fifteen minutes. My heart pounded and I couldn't catch breath. It's hard to remember now what even made it feel so bad, but I remember clearly the feeling that I wanted to stop, turn around, and go home. It was terrible and I might not make it and then I'd be disappointed in myself. Instead, we took a long break and drank half the water. And in coming back from the break I realized I'd been looking up the mountain and taking huge steps as if I was skipping steps in a stair case. Like I'd get their faster and that was better. When we started walking again, I kept my eyes in the ground a few feet in front of me, never farther. It didn't matter if my partner got ahead of me; I didn't lengthen my stride. And suddenly the hike was easy again, because I'd set my own pace and gone from thinking about the climb up the entire mountain to thinking only one step at a time. Thinking one step at a time saved me, but examining all the possibilities was important too; I researched the hike thoroughly. Because I took notes and drew a map, we did not get lost at tricky points in the trail many others had trouble navigating. I thought about how much water we'd need, what to carry it in, and remembered that Scott didn't do as well as I do with carrying supplies on a hike. I brought a perfect compliment of snacks. That's all I've got. Eyes closing involuntarily. Thoughts collected. Good night.