tw: mental health struggles/chronic pain/healthcare/talk of medications
i am genuinely so fucking angry. Im going to be suffering with this for years to come and all they have me was a shitty little leaflet that was the bare bones of symptoms and how it can affect you, barely touched on how it affects the rest of my body and how i live my life and between my anxiety and the fact that i didnt know enough about the condition i didnt know what queations to ask to get the information i need.
Now i cant even fucking talk to the doctors because they dropped me to be referred to therapy ebcause thats the cause of all my fucking problems, and even the PT isnt contacting me anymore. I have literally been abandoned until whenwver i get assigned my therapist. I was added to the wait list in December 2021. It has been months since then. I have only just even been evaluated, not even in person it was over a phone call. I havent been told any timeframes and i need to get on another wait list to even think about getting tested for ADHD/ADD.
Beyond that, the therapists and my GP arent even giving me the anti depressants the doctor i spoke to said he would get me on, until ive been through therapy. Oh yeah. And he never sent the email to my GP which he said he would do.
Its been months and im alone in this. I have to work for months and years for the therapy to take an affect on my mindset to start helping my bodily reactions to my anxiety and depression, and within that time my chronic pain and joint condition is worsening, and taking its toll on my body.
This makes my mental health worse, which in turn makes my condition worse.
I am stuck in a loop that i cannot fucking get out of.











