Dear diary,
It's me again, Sunyu! Ready to be the keeper of a new memory of mine once again? I hope so, well I guess you don't have that much of choice either.
So guess what? It happened, my first time… With Kai.
…Yea.
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{`SQUEALS;}!!!! Dear diary, it was truly amazing. I can feel myself blushing again whilethinking about it. Beat me, I know I'm acting like a teenage girl who just losttheir virginity for the first time and who's going crazy about it… Except, I amnot a teenage girl nor am I a virgin― Actually, it really felt like I lost my V to Baobei. I mean… I'm a kitsune… who hasn't had sex for over eight months. That's a record, especially from kitsunes! You know, we're the cousins of succubus and everyone knows how succubus are when they're in need.
Ah, Baobei was amazing, hot, cute, gentle and sexy all at the same time. He was the dominant one yet he made sure that I felt comfortable throughout the act. Mhm, baobei was nice and sweet, but dapper and graceful like the usual.
We made love, that night of February 22nd, 2015.
God, why am I still blushing? Maybe it's because we really made love, love making, the real thing between couples. It was not the usual one night stand you get just to get rid of your urges, but it was something we waited together for six months. I guess it was for the best that faith had us waiting for each other so we could get to know more about the both o us; Learning and exploring our shared feelings during this journey that isn't about to end any time soon. We were strangers who grew to become friends and then best friends to unsure lovers. In the beginning, maybe we did jump to fast in the relationship. We weren't ready so that was why it didn't last long… But for me, it made me realize that I really don't want to let go of Kai. What I thought during those few months when we decided to be a little bit distant… I thought that even if he might not want to have me as the one who would stay by his side as a companion, as a lover and as his family, I would still continue to care for him. From the start, there was this little something that made him so attractive to me. It wasn't his handsome figure or body of greek god. Maybe it was that little flame in him which he was trying to hide with that smirk and that over exaggerating player attitude to show himself as a heartless demon. However, I have this little talent of mine which could often right away detect someone's truth self. I noticed Baobei's real personality the moment I met him and that is how day by day, I fell for him and will continue to fall for him.
Eventually, everyone knows this story. I couldn't handle it to ignore my feelings for Kai and it was all thanks to Hansol who gave me enough of courage to confess to Kai again… It was hard, it hurt, but the red string of love brought us back together. We're having a son and his little brothers and sisters to keep him company. Life grew better and better as time went by, then on the night of Christmas, Kai proposed to me.
… Oh, I forgot that I am still writing to you. I'm sorry, the memories of that Christmas night were just overwhelming me! Hey, I drifted off pretty far from what I was going to tell you in the beginning. Alright yea, what I meant was that though all the events that occurred to both Kai and I, it made us growing stronger as lovers. We cherish each other as if we're depending on each other to survive… Am I exaggerating? I don't know… I just… really need Kai in my life. Yep, last night we made love and the love I felt for him through those previous months built up during that moment to made it memorable for me. My heart almost exploded!
You're eager to know what happened exactly, right? Pervert!
I actually don't remember why I was a little bit upset that I had to climb up and ask advice from Moon Grandpa… Hey, Moon Grandpa really replied back to me again! Isn't it amazing? Usually he stays quiet while letting me talk. Oh right… I think it was because, again, for no reason, I felt that I might not be enough to reach Kai's standards. I'm sorry! Kai would be upset if he hears about this. It was just a small mood drop because I felt a little bit insecure about myself. Yet, Moon Grandpa managed to brighten my mood once again, then Kai and I went back inside. Hmm… Moon Grandpa was also a pervert. He kept on telling me that Baobei and I might get it on soon.
So, Baobei and I went back inside. I was just telling him silly stuffs and he wouldn't stop smacking my bumbum since he was done with me. But! I decided to counter attack. Muhahaha! I told him this: "Daddy.. You deserve to be punished because you won't stop giving me spankies…" He asked me how and I showed him.
I teased him, and went down on him to goof around between his legs. I didn't plan all of this to be serious. I was expecting the usual "KIM FUCKING SEONYU, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" Yet, he wasn't surprised at all, but played it along with me. We were trying to fight over each other for which of us would be the one who would win over the other in that little game of love of ours. However, our game made me wanting him more. Oh god… His fluffy, sexy and warm lips trailing on my lips, jaw, neck… Not wanting to let go of my skin… His voice, huskily whispering hotly against the shell of my ear while his gentle feather touches were snaking all over my body - chest, stomach, thighs… I really was just… unable to resist to him. How could I? He succeeded in turning my brain into a fuzzy and giant mush.
I was ready. He was ready. We were ready.
Baobei's lustful eyes turned gentle again as he took a condom and asked me if I wasn't planning on running a marathon the next morning. That was a silly question. I hate running. I'm a lazy fox. I shook my head, winked at him and took the little wrapper to tear it with my teeth before proceeding on using my mouth and tongue to wrap the condom around his middle. I think what I did turned him on as he suddenly grabbed me by the wrists and pulled me on top of him before holding my hips firmly to direct them towards his.
To be honest, I was a little bit nervous. I never had sex for over eight months and stopped using my toys for a long while, and Kai is huge and really thick. Side note: I am not complaining about it. He probably sensed it because I could read the change of expression in his eyes. They expressed fear, care for my well being and fear of hurting. I'm telling you, little diary, my prince is perfect. I truly love him with all my heart. When I noticed that look, I remember smiling and kissing him softly to reassure him again that I really wanted this to happen. I didn't want to stop. I wanted him… so much. I needed him.
He kissed my forehead and carefully granted my lust and desire for him. Baobei was being careful and slow. He didn't want to rush and hurt me in the process. I mean… It still hurt a little at first since I wasn't used to his size, yet it still went in completely. Ehehe… Do I have to mention that it made me moan?
He let me be on top of him so I wouldn't panic or feel trapped. Only when he felt that I was finally relaxing, he started to make slow thrusting but confident movements, sending me waves of shiver down my spine. What I felt overwhelmed me again. Thrust by thrust, the pain disappeared to let space for pleasure. I'm really glad that Kai had everyone leaving the mansion before this because… God… I let my voice flow out and resonating against the walls without any restrain. It didn't take him long before he flipped me over, having my back pressed on the bed sheets and chest squeezed by his while our hips together were rolling in swift movement.
Kai was cute. He always is, but what I saw through my fluttering eyelids was absolutely adorable and sexy. Huhuhu. I just can't describe it though. I love how he was panting, having his breath hitching at some moments when he felt my walls tightening around him... Or when he burried his face on the crook of my neck. It really turned me on to see how he was expressing his love for me and pleasure in what we were doing at the same time. Don't even let me talk about his groans and when he whispered my name.. and also when we breathe out those three words: "I love you".
I'll leave the rest to your imagination, little diary of mine. When we were done, the both of us were breathless and sweating, but it didn't stop us from still staying glued to each other. I, again, said something silly and made him laugh. I love his laugh. It's manly but so clear. And his smile, his beautiful smile, never failed to make my heartbeat becoming louder.
We went to take a shower together and now we're back in our onesies, talking playfully and snuggling in our bed while I'm writing to you.
I love Kai.
I love him so much.
― Sunyu.