April 20th, 2019
It has been a pretty steady few months. I go to work, I come home, I go on tumblr, I go to bed and repeat it the next day. I have been more actively taking care of my skin, and trying to drink more water. I do want to feel more confident, as I feel like daddy feeds off of my emotions. When I am excited, he gets excited, when I am down, he seems to be down. Admittedly, it could be the reverse, and I suck up how ever he is feeling. He has been up lately, which is nice, and I have been feeling up. I have to admit that I have been pretty up despite a lot of change and emotional craziness at work. I thrive under pressure.
Me and daddy have been doing really well this week, we have had playtime twice this week. I think since he is feeling so good, and I have been, plus working more similar shifts have been helping a lot. We have just been doing really well, havent fought in a while, and its been nice.
I have been making an effort to dress more nice on my days off when I am heading out. Wearing a shirt and a sweater, looking cute, as opposed to a sweatshirt and leggings on my days off. I do wear PJs once I am in for the day, but who can blame me? I havent been feeling very little as of lately, and havent called daddy by daddy in quite some time. I think its just the seasonal stuff, and once the sun stays for more than a day, I will feel myself again. Daddy hasnt been fostering my little side so much as of late either, but maybe he is just growing out of it a little? Sometimes he will call me little, but doesnt really try to put me in little space.
I’ll be making an effort to write here more often, I just feel like I havent had much to say. Despite a lot happening in my day to day life, I just... havent felt the need to say it out loud, yet put it to paper, so to speak.
For example my Business Manager ( BM ) had a breakdown the other day at work, due to it being so hot ( the ac doent work ) and not getting funding to get into her doctorate program, and said stuff about the middle managers ( Assistant Business Manager - S and Assistant Business Manager - L ). The middle managers, S and L, got very upset when they heard about this second hand, as they werent there to witness BMs freak out, and were grilling me about what she said about them, as I was the only front desk person there when BM freaked out. And ABM S was so feisty and angry, and I am this middle man because everyone at work is so passive aggressive, so I have to explain what everyone means and Im so tired of it. I am so emotionally drained every time I go into work, but Daddy never asks, so I just brush it away.....