#jswriting

[just-someone-writing]

Yesterday

____

Myspace top 5

Instagram live

Facebook invite

Bummin me a light

Textin you on my sidekick

Like I wasn’t your sidekick

Lettin you get the best, the worst

The last, the first

All of me, completely

Drunken toasts we said that we barely remember

Archived posts we said that we’d cherish forever

After all this time

222, Im aligned

But you still feel like yesterday

[just-someone-writing]

the hubris of beginner's luck

[just-someone-writing]

Crack the Whip

Take a hit

Crack the whip

Let’s ride

Take a hit

Crack the whip

Let’s drive

People like me for what I do for them

For how I make them feel

So I play pretend

So what is real?

I play a dangerous game

Self medication is the name

Shots out of tequila bottles I didn’t even buy

Shots fired — you didn’t even try

The surface ripples slightly

An indication of what might be

Below the reflection

I was your selection

Too bad I was a lemon

An AK forty seven

To your heart

Bittersweet after tastes, tart

Take a hit

Crack the whip

Let’s ride

Take a hit

Crack the whip

Let’s drive

[just-someone-writing]

No revenge, bc Enya said:

Who can say if your love grows

As your heart chose?

[just-someone-writing]

Left on Read.

Left on read, and if I was you

I would, too

Drunk on gin and Im thinking

I remember you and I drinking

On the train; it was the end

Of you being my friend

The beginning of an endless end

Time truly is a circle

Tell me why it has to hurt, though

Whatever it meant, it’s not that

Fold me into a tesseract

Still I can’t undo the fact

I never was gonna come back

Left on read, and it makes sense

But the unsaid is immense

You’re so nonchalant, so cool, so gracious

I get it, I got you - social graces

I never thought you’d never not be there

You never got the love you tried to share

You were supposed to be my forever, my lifeline

Maybe next lifetime

[just-someone-writing]

No revenge, bc I drew the Queen of Cups

[just-someone-writing]

Hey QQ — does this mean anything?

First True Love

Sometimes I forget that we used to share a cigarette

Lip balm on the filter, and tobacco on our breath

Feeling like we're living large as we're exhaling death

Falling too far into you, I got lost, and you did, too

We got wrapped up too tight for it to end right

After all was said and done

No love lost, it was just the cost of freedom

Walk your talk and let it go

The friendship sailed long ago

It was two-way on that street, and we met halfway

Love was a cigarette, and we left it in the ashtray

[springfevertulip-blog]

april 24

1:25 am

sometimes i really wonder if we’ll ever be anything at all

like do you even want me? sometimes i think you do but sometimes i don’t. i dont know if it is because im insecure or what. i know there will always be someone better but you like me.

you like me

you always kiss me whenever you see me

whether its for five minutes or 3 hours.

you always kiss me

we don’t have a title

maybe its best if we keep it that way

but sometimes

i really wish you could love me the way i want to be love

will we ever get there?