Dear June, You are going to be nine months old in five days. How has time passed by so fast? When you were in my belly, before I even knew if you were a boy or girl, before I felt flutters and kicks, I knew I would breastfeed you. I had, and still have, the goal of breastfeeding you until 18 months. In the beginning things were so unbelievably easy, I never knew how someone could struggle with supply issues, pain, and everything else that comes breastfeeding. I went back to work at seven weeks and had almost 1,000oz of frozen breastmilk stored and I was pumping double what you had during the days. It was so easy. Around three months you went through a nursing strike and that almost broke me. I thought we were done breastfeeding. And then you nursed again like nothing had happened. Things have been easy for me, for us. Well here we are, at nine months almost and I feel very nervous. I don’t feel confident. I am barely, and sometimes not even, pumping as much as you eat during the day and we are going to have to start dipping into our freezer supply. I, so badly, want to stop pumping at work but still be able to nurse you. I’m so scared my milk supply is going to dwindle and you’ll be weaned before one. Everyday my milk output is just a little bit less and I’m not sure why. Is it stress? Is it because pumping has become a chore? Or is it because every time we nurse, I’m tense because you have been biting?I’m hoping this too shall pass and next month we will be rocking it again but I’m not sure.