DWC - 06 June - Day VII - Horrify / Render
[Iɴ ᴀ ғᴏʟᴅᴇᴅ ᴘᴀʀᴄʜᴍᴇɴᴛ, ʙᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴍᴇssɪʟʏ ɪɴ ᴛᴡɪɴᴇ, sᴇᴛ ᴀᴛᴏᴘ ᴀ ᴅᴜsᴛʏ ᴄʜᴇsᴛ ᴏғ ᴅʀᴀᴡᴇʀs, ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ʀᴇsɪᴅᴇs ɪɴ ᴀ ᴡᴏʀɴ-ᴅᴏᴡɴ ʀᴇsɪᴅᴇɴᴄᴇ ɪɴ Bᴏᴏᴛʏ Bᴀʏ. Hᴇʀᴇ sɪᴛs ᴀ ʟᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ, ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴀᴅᴅʀᴇss, ɪɴ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ ɪғ ɴᴏᴛ ᴀᴡᴋᴡᴀʀᴅ sᴄʀɪᴘᴛɪɴɢ. Dᴇsᴘɪᴛᴇ ʜᴏᴡ ᴀᴘᴘᴇᴀʀᴀɴᴄᴇs ᴍᴀʏ sᴇᴇᴍ, ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ's ᴡᴏʀᴅɪɴɢ ɪs ᴄᴏɴғɪᴅᴇɴᴛ ᴀɴᴅ sᴜʀᴇ.]
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By the time you find this, I wonder how different our lives will be. Will we, perhaps, be living in a different home? Will we even still be in Quel'Thalas? I know well that your heart takes you to places so far away, though I have questioned often enough if it is your heart that does or if you are merely avoiding that which seems to cause you no shortage of distress.
I know I have convinced you, persuaded you many times over to humour her. I know what you must think of me for doing as much. If our roles were reversed, I cannot say whether I would take the same approach or not. If it were my parents who tailed after us, wanting to be a part of our lives on such a level, would I have the heart to turn them away? Likely not. I have always had something for them that you have not.
Love.
I know that things are more complicated than they seem, that there are things you have not told me. That you will not tell me. From the very beginning, you have been a man of secrets. I worried, some, when our engagement was decided upon. If the man I was to marry was anything that he seemed. If anything he spoke to me was true, or if he merely let lie after lie after lie drip from his tongue.
I would like to think that by now, I have a much better understanding of who you are, even if there are still so many shadows that embrace you.
There is little doubt that our marriage was not what you had wanted or envisioned. Perhaps you had a mind to choose your own, or, I presume you might not have chosen anyone at all. At least, not in that time. Perhaps not ever. I hope that as our years have passed on and we have encountered so many other things together, that you have not come to resent me for being at your side.
You might have wished to conquer the entire world. If you were a conqueror. You are no such thing, are you. But not complacent either. No dreams of glory or romanticised ideals of perishing on front lines for a greater cause. Some might call you selfish for that. Heartless, even. But I know the truth, and if I do not, then I know the truth that I perceive. For where you have shown a certain coldness to others, to even the rest of the world, you have shown me kindness and understanding.
I suspect that the you which you perceive in a reflection is a very different man from the one that I do. And I imagine our future children will think the very same, though that future may come sooner than you think. I have not told you this yet, but it seems there is some discussion about the markets, the city, that I may be with child. I have not noticed a difference myself, but I would hardly know what to expect and others are sure of it. I will be going for examination to determine the truth of that soon. I hope that it comes with fortuitous news and that you will be just as pleased. But I fear that you may think it is only a representation of traditions and ideals we are expected to uphold, rather than the very symbol of life that we have created with one another.
Until then, though I see you smile so very rarely and even less do you laugh, I hope that you have found some joy with me. For though self-sufficient as you are, you ought not to face the world alone. Even should you feel that it has turned against you or that you have lost your place in it, I hope you will come to realise that you always have a place here with me. In my embrace. At my side. In my life.
As where I thought I might find cruelty and a lack of kindness, you have shown me otherwise. If you have ever questioned it, questioned your worth, questioned your significance, I assure you that my life is all the better for you in it. You have brought me a great many joys. And though we do not say such things to one another, perhaps looking back on this will remind you of something I think you do so much need to hear.
I love you.
You are a man worthy of love. You are a man worthy of mine. You are a man worthy of me.
Yours Always, Ei'riya
He had read it only once to begin with, though as time took its toll, weathered him down, and took from him the things he had felt he connected with, his eyes occasionally looked it over.
Soryk wondered how he had ever been a man who deserved it. Her letter. Her love. Her life. Her devotion. In the same breath, he wondered if that man who existed then still existed in the prominent present. He was certain that man had long since died. Not on the fields of battle. Not for glory. Not for those romanticised ideals Ei'riya had sometimes teased him over.
He had died for nothing, he was certain.
No matter how he questioned it, however, no matter how he turned those sweet and considerate words from his late wife over in his head, Soryk realised that as much as he had in so many years past, he still had no answers and no words at all.
As ever and even in death, she had struck him speechless.
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