jaewon was sitting in his studio thinking so much, that he didn’t even notice hanbin walking in.
“yo man, what are you thinking about?” no response. “dude?”
“ah, what?” he didn’t pay anttention, and was kind of missing out, what does his frirend said. “sorry, i zooned out.”
“no problem.” he laughed. “i was asking what are you thinking about?”
“i’m kinda..” he was looking for words “kinda sad.”
“why? does something happend? y/n?”
“yeah, her.”
“did you fight or something?”
“no we didn’t. even if there is reason, she wouldn’t bring it up.” he hissed. “i’m sad, because of me.”
“you can tell me, and i can give you advice.” he smiled at him. “no matter what, jaewon i am here.”
“i love her, you know that, she know that, my parents know that, everyone know that.” hanbin nodded. “but i feel bad. i truly love her, but i feel like i’m not enough. she deserves better.”
“what do you mean?”
“i’m always working on something. you know album, new drama or some shoots. it does take a lot of my time, and energy. i see by myself, that i don’t get enough my time to her. i see how she is happy when she see me, but also how sad she is when i need to go.” he was now looking at his foot. “i know that she misses me so much, i heard how she was talking with her friend that she is tired. she would want to have more time with me, and other shit.”
“ah, i understand now. but she never tolds you, that she is mad about it?”
“she didn’t have to.” he smiled a little. “she is tired of this relationship, and she is in it by herself. i can’t be with her, and took everything from her, but not giving enough.”
his words were honest. you weren’t type to say it loud about things that upset you, and jaewon knew it perfectly. he just knew by your actions, that you are hurt.
“so you feel like you are keeping her away on a collar?”
“kinda.”
“i mean.” he stopped. “if that would make you both happy, i feel like you should do it, but think abou it, if you aren’t going to regret it.”
“i am sure.” he wasn’t.
you were staring at your now ex-boyfriend with doubt in his eyes. you couldn’t quite understand what was going on right now. jaewon just walked in, faced you and tell you, that both of you should break up.
“so that’s how it ends.” you hissed. “i thought that you have genuine feelings for me, as i do to you. but..” you were looking now at pictures in frame at the wall “i was wrong. i gave you my all, but now you want to break up. after this time.”
“listen y/n. i love you, i love you so much.” he held your hands, and you were just looking at his hands. “look at me.” you did. “when you love someone you want this person to be happier, you can let go of this person, if this means that it’s going to be better. that’s what i’m doing. don’t you see, that because of my work it’s not working?” he was right. “i’m tired of see you being hurt deep inside, or how many times you were waiting for me. i’m really sad, that i made you upset. that i made you feel like this.”
“but we can still try. i am not complaining!” you lied. “we could get over this. i could be happy at my own, you know. this wasn’t the worst time. i get used to it. if you just want to break up, cause you bored of me, just say it, and don’t lie to my face bastard.”
“i am not lying, y/n. i truly love you, i really do. but i want you to be happier, and i know that right now i can’t be person, who makes you happy.” his voice break down. “i can take away your happines or freedom, just because i am working, and you are waiting. you deserve the best, and i’m taking it away. i love you, but please let me go, as i let go of you. i think you’ll be happier with someone who can be with you.” tear goes down his cheek. he couldn’t believe his words. “i know it’s sounds harsh, but.. we should get over ourselfs.”
“i see.” you said, and let go of his hands. “i don’t see point in it. i was just trying to be by your side no matter what. but it’s okay. if you want me to be happier, then i will. thank you for last two years, and good times. i hope you won’t treat your next girl the same. i hope you’ll understand, that if someone truly loves you, they’ll wait for you.” you turn around. “but now i agree. goodbye, jung jaewon. get your stuff, and get out of my apartament.”
it’s not that good, but i have idea in my head so yeah
