So ya boy ended up having to get emergency surgery. Turns out my gallbladder was a lot worse off than previously thought and it needed to come out now.
So I’ve been recovering the last couple days. I’d say that I’m mostly recovered. Just some minor lingering pain. Other than that, I’m pretty good.
So hopefully now that I’m now no longer potentially actually dying, I can get to everyone/everything again.
So hit me up with asks or threads or tag me in shit. Or let me know and I'll tag you in shit. Just whatever works. I'm eager to kick start my recovery.
I have a love hate relationship with the fall and winter seasons. I love them because it's cold and no one will think I'm weird for wearing my jackets and hats and shit. But I hate it because my allergies act up and sometimes I get sick.
Which is where I've been. So I'm getting better? inb4 I lie again. But I'll be doing my best to be around so I can talk and plot and roleplay and reply and answer asks and memes and all that other stuff.
You might have noticed the overwhelming lack of activity from me over the last few months. Been quietly dealing with medical problems and family stuff.
I've mostly just been trying to feel better in my own little ways. Quite honestly though, I miss being here and writing with and talking to everyone. I'm not quite out of the woods just yet, but I will be soon.
Just wanted to let everyone know that I am okay. I plan on getting back to things and the like soon.
Hope you all have good days and nights and all that good stuff. You're always welcome to talk to me here or on discord.
There is a backlog of asks dating back at least a month. I’ve been dealing with some personal shit recently. Things are getting a little better. I’m getting the urge to write again. So here’s a few of the things that I managed to work on. I’ll be getting to the rest shortly. Hopefully. Maybe.
So by all means, keep the memes and random inbox messages coming. Soon, you too, can experience the fun that is my Reno.
If you recall, @turkoftheslums sent me an ask the other day. My answer highlighted some of the things that I wanted to do. I’ve decided to make things a little more clear and give a better understanding of what I want. Its kind of long so its going to go under a cut.
Also understand that despite the fact that I named certain characters for these scenarios, I’m willing to do them or scenarios like them with anyone. I’m not picky about it. I just want to do them and explore possibilities.
If you want to do any of these, feel free to message me either on here or discord.
As previously started, Reno is in the beginning stages of his addiction. When I say this, its not as bad as it could be. Sure in two different scenarios he’s being dragged through the mud. In one other he’s trying to keep it from his partner. In a couple others, he’s learning to deal with the trust issues from being exposed with his habit.
What started this off is Reno had a couple broken ribs with a few more that were bruised. They prescribed him some high dose pain medication. He decided that he liked the numb feeling that it gave him. A sort of high that he’d never experienced before. His metabolism is too high so he burns through the medicine too quickly. He’s got to take it almost constantly if he wants to feel his escape. He even starts to experiment with other drugs to see if he can get it to last longer. And sometimes, they have . . . Side effects.
I really want to see Reno lose himself in his addiction. I want it to consume him. Make him forsakes his friends, his Turk Family. I want to see Tseng’s inner monologue of how watching his second dwindle into madness affects him. I want the Director to kick down Reno’s apartment door down and basically force Rude to drag his partner out kicking and screaming. Send him to rehab? Detox him in their own secret place? I want to write the rehab bits. I wanna see him ache for another hit and get to doing some pretty fucking desperate shit to get it. I want to know what he’s willing to do to get what he wants or die trying.
I want to see him be denied what he wants. I want to see him go absolutely feral. Suffer through withdrawal and be on the verge of giving up, be on the outskirts of death. Maybe even attempt to kill himself. I want to see Rufus get so fed up with Reno’s attitude that he confronts him about it. Thrust this motherfucker against the wall, get in his face, breathe down his neck, tell him he doesn’t have permission to give up. Doesn’t have the authority to die. Get all kinds of tyrannical in his face. Rough him up. Scream at him. Hell, might not even have to do that. Threaten him, sure, but do you know what its like having someone speak calmly to you? Speak all too casually like your life doesn’t matter? Make you feel like absolute shit about what you’re doing. Where your life is going? Shit makes you want to get better. Do better.
I want to see Reno finally break. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. Tear him down until he’s just a blank slate. Let him realize what he’s done. Force him to make a decision. I want to see his friends and family build him back up. I want him to recover. I want him to be tempted to fall again. I want him to be on the brink. I want to see who is willing to save him and who’s ready to forsake him. I wanna see him have to earn their trust back, earn his position back. Make him work for it. Monitor him. Make sure he doesn’t go back down the road that will ultimately lead to his death.
I want to celebrate his win against his addition. Keep a running total of the days he’s been clean. Make memories with him, good or bad. I still want it to be a presence in his stories, but I want the struggle to be there. I want something to reference in various threads. I want something I can reference in asks if I need/want to. The temptation. I want it as a sort of side thing that can be referenced if it needs to. I just want it to make an impact. I want my exploration into it to mean something.
That’s not it either. I want to explore other things. More dark themes. I want to delve deep into his mentality about more things than just drugs. I want to know how the plate drop affected him. How knowing what it meant fucks with him every single day. How he can just keep smiling and acting like nothing is wrong. Delve into his psyche and figure out what it bent, what it broke, what it reshaped. Explore what options I can get from that.
I want to do torture threads where he has to get information out of people. Threads where he gets the shit kicked out of him when he gets kidnapped. Brainwashing, reconditioning. I want to go into detail about all kinds of things and just see what happens. I’ve only done one thread like that. I want more. I want to know just how far things can go.
It's hard to find people to do these things with. At least for me, it is. I have so many ideas. Put me on the spot and I’ll panic and not have any and make myself out to be a liar. Give me something like this, where I can sit and think and give details and avenues and options, and its like a fucking gold mine.
Is most of this word for word from the ask? Yes. But I did elaborate quite a bit, I think. Like I said above the cut, if you're interested send me a message here on tumblr or at Asher The Lion#3154 on discord. We can discuss something and get it started.
