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today is the fucking worst day for an episode holy shit

#just relapsed #it’s really gone from bad to wrose #over the past couple weeks cautious optimism has turned into whatever i am now #i slumped into a kind of depression last week #no showers no face wash no study #only stress and worry #the party was what got me out of it but i can feel myself slipping again #i just feel like there’s something seriously wrong with me #it’s like i’m 9 again #i feel like im stuck in this hole and nothings gonna drag me out of it #haha just like that avogado drawing #🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

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I really just so badly want to stop living superficially and stop wanting to get fucked up all the time and stop being friends with shitty people and stop spending money on meaningless shit.

I wanna travel and experience new things and have discussions about the world, I want to give pieces of myself to someone and get a piece of someone back. I want love and sunshine and REALNESS and genuinity and experiences and learning. I want to talk to more people, be in nature more, get out of the daily schedule and LIVE.

I’m so tired of waiting, every day, for something in the future. I’m tired of being scared of what the day will hold in regards to mental illness. I’m SO tired of living constantly in anxiety about what will happen if THIS happens in the future or THIS happens........ I'm SO tired of caring what other people think and I’m SO tired of living a shallow life.

Because if I’m in this beautiful place, given these wonderful oppurtunities to take classes and learn and be immersed away from home...why the fuck wouldn’t you milk it for all that it’s worth?

#just relapsed #feeling like shit #cognitive dissonance with effort #ya #thoughts #hopeful? idk

Sometimes all it takes is seeing this blood

#text post #just relapsed #again #I can't stop #I need to stop #I didn't know anyone could hate them self this much

#I don't even know what I'm feeling right now #just relapsed #after 9 1/2 months #go me #ugh #I don't even regret it and I feel like I should #u g h

#just relapsed #i should probably get off now #i still have to see if my friend is okay #they arent replying and I'm worried #i am crying and shaking #please answer #i cant do this without you #personal

#just relapsed #ive been clean for a year and a half #and i just relapsed #dont really know why tbh #i just...fuck i cant #i cant deal anymore #and i feel like its better i relapse than kill myslef #because its one or the other at the point #mine #personal

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