#justbipolarthings

[gittetj]

Intense slowfast energy happening today like wow I am a genius and if you don't agree you are a fool but also wow I am a dumbass piece of shit and everyone hates me

[thatbipolarfeelwhen]

You’re starting to get manic so you binge mania videos on YouTube in an effort to convince yourself you’re “not really going manic because this is what mania looks like” But every time you tell yourself that your Brain Goes Faster

[thatbipolarfeelwhen]

i don’t know what’s happening and right now i’m in the middle of self diagnosing myself, and feeling comfortable with the idea that i might be sick all the sites that i’ve seen mention that suicidal thoughts are a very common thing when it comes to the depressive state but i don’t feel suicidal i feel down and sad and helpless and i might hurt myself in other ways (like not putting a blanket on or wearing a jacket when i’m shivering because i feel like i don’t deserve it) does it happen to you

I’m not a doctor or professional so please remember that everything I say is based solely on the experiences I’ve had and the wisdom I’ve gained from those experiences.

Personally, I’m very against self diagnosing. It’s impossible for us to not be biased towards ourselves, especially when we aren’t feeling super stable. That’s why it’s important to see a professional that can remain unbiased and can properly assess, diagnose, and treat you. I know not everyone has adequate access to basic mental health care and that’s bs, but I’d encourage you to be very mindful about self diagnosis.

In regards to your version of hurting yourself but not feeling suicidal when depressed, every person is different. I’ve experienced suicidal thoughts during both hypomanic and depressive episodes and I’ve harmed myself during both types of episodes. But I’ve also experienced significant trauma throughout my life and I’m sure that’s definitely impacted those things.

Does anyone else have any thoughts?

-Mod Sarah.

[thatbipolarfeelwhen]

when you can't stop spending money even though that money is the very last paycheck from the job you impulsively quit and you know you're heading for full blown financial destruction but you can't help it because you need all the things

[thatbipolarfeelwhen]

Hi. So I'm not sure how common this is, but I get mixed episodes according to my psychiatrist and my "manic" episodes don't really fit the norm? I get severe anxiety that causes my brain to go into overdrive, I start having paranoid delusions, I have violent intrusive thoughts of self harm (never harming other people, just a constant loop in my brain of suicidal ideation and impulses to bang my head against something). Is this normal? I have some "normal" symptoms but I wanted to ask anyways.

I experience severe anxiety during manic episodes as well. I rarely feel euphoric unless I’m being extremely impulsive. Normally I’m just filled with anxiety and fear and paranoia. So I’d say it’s “normal”, but I think the better definition is valid. What you’re experiencing is super valid and you’re not alone.

Does anyone else have any thoughts about this?

-Mod Sarah.

[thatbipolarfeelwhen]

that hypomania feel when you just know that you're perfect and nothing you do could ever be wrong so it's really weird that everyone is mad at you now like okay, i'm basically god get over yourselves

[thatbipolarfeelwhen]

When all the pain you had a vanishes and the lack of it is more disturbing than the lack of anger or joy or confusion, and you just want to hurt again because it's feeling and you would do anything to just f e e l.

[thatbipolarfeelwhen]

How would I get a psychiatrist to believe me? I have a baby face and just look super innocent and small and tiny so they tend to look at me like they don’t understand what I’m saying when I try to explain symptoms and experiences. I don’t have a credit card to max out during manic episodes, I don’t do drugs, never been arrested or been hospitalized so they don’t get how I could be manic. But my family has seen me manic. Should I fill out a questionnaire & bring it to them? I’m old enough for dx.

I honestly don’t know. I’d recommend to find a psychiatrist in your area that’s widely respected by teens/young adults because they tend to listen a bit more and look beyond someone’s appearance. But thag might not be helpful in your situation. I don’t know.

Does anyone have any other suggestions or ideas?

-Mod Sarah.