#justnatethings

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I love this man 🥺 also 🚨NEW HAIR ALERT 🚨

Joan Jett whOoo?!

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Y’allllll my heart 🥺🥺🥺😭❤️

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My boyfriend is singing to me 🥺🥺 it’s gonna be a good night 😌❤️

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Am I a simp or what? 😂🥺

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Sir, you are no longer obligated to text me. You broke up with me.

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I’m going to marry him 😂

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Nate and I talked yesterday. It was a really good conversation. I set some boundaries, I told him to stop calling me when he’s drunk, to stop with the sexual texts. It hurts, and its confusing, and it only makes me question where we stand even more. He’s noticed that I haven’t been answering his calls and texts recently, and now he knows why. He said it was weird not being together, to which I agreed and then he asked what would happen if we didn’t get back together. I told him I had never really even considered that as a possibility. But I hope that we would still be in each other’s lives, and we would still be friendly with one another, and followed that up with saying that I don’t see myself dating or looking or talking to anyone else for a very long time. I don’t want to think about dating anyone else right now. 

THEN he read me something from his journal. It basically said something along the lines of “If I find someone that looks just like you. That has your same eyes, your dorky laugh, your smile, your nose, your voice, your goofy personality, would it be the same? If I find someone that says “I love you” in a different way everyday, would it be the same? Would I love them the same way? They’re not you. I couldn’t love anyone the way I love you. I don’t want to be with anyone if they’re not you.” don’t ask me why I remember that word for word but it was beautiful. Then I read him something from my journal, and I couldn’t even get past the first paragraph before we were both in tears cause it was ~heavy and vulnerable~ and it was even worse by the end. I did a tarot reading for him, and it was an extremely positive reading, but it said he was facing a lot of adversity in his life right now, to draw close to his friends and family and he’ll come out on top.

It was almost nice to not feel the pressure of a relationship hanging over us. We still have so much love for each other and we don’t really want to be with anyone else, and neither of us are looking for anyone else. But there was no pressure. It was really nice, I feel like I have my friend back... A friend that I’m stupidly in love with, but nonetheless a friend. A friend with boundaries. Something is better than nothing, and we’re not letting each other go and giving up on each other just because we broke up.

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Nate and I are have a ✨cranky pizza date✨ cause we both ordered pizza and we’re in bad moods. So we’re on FaceTime just eating and watching our separate shows. Occasionally one of us will look over at the other and smile

Love is when you can be cranky together but not at each other 🥺