how do i take things too far? ;_; i am thankful and happy they're around, i don't hate them or anything-- my mom has done bad things though, i'm sorry i act the way i do-- but you are right, some things get easier to deal with, 4 years ago i didn't think i'd get through what was going on at the time but i did, and i feel my life changing slowly right now so. ;;
don’t be sorry~ i know how easily overwhelming things were at that age, and then you throw crushes and love into the mix and it’s one big jumbled mess. i was around your age when i found out i had depression, so i can imagine how dramatic and extra i was around then, ahahah.
i’ve also dealt with self-harm– though not cutting, just other ways. nothing that left scars. but i was hard on myself for a long, long time. still am on occasion but i’m getting better at it. letting things go and all that.
i dunno, maybe it’s me reading into it too much and being kinda out of date with how “kids these days” internet, but like, talking in caps and freaking out and spamming, things like that– i’m like whoa lex, take a breather hahah. i wish i had your energy!
changes can be good and scary, but just know that not everything is bad. i’ve had several ups and downs the past two years, ones i don’t openly discuss because of personal reasons, some i do but only to those who know me well, and i look back thinking– damn, i’m still here. i take a breath, hug my cat and even if i’m feeling shitty or depressed or anxious, i think about how thankful i am to have another day to talk to my mom on the phone or see my cat sunbathe, or yanno, get to perform with the guys on stage and live my dream.
