さよならひとり

lee taemin. 93.18.07 ❝evil maknae of shinee by day, terrifying solo artist by night. with two sides to him you'll never know what you're gonna get. just know it'll always be 100% Tae-Man.❞ ©

[leetaemiin]

[ another day, another winter storm that took out my power. Thought I'd pop on my data to let y'all know ]

[theremightbeowls]

Yes you my shimmering fur ball

[datvetlife]

[leetaemiin]

how do i take things too far? ;_; i am thankful and happy they're around, i don't hate them or anything-- my mom has done bad things though, i'm sorry i act the way i do-- but you are right, some things get easier to deal with, 4 years ago i didn't think i'd get through what was going on at the time but i did, and i feel my life changing slowly right now so. ;;

don’t be sorry~ i know how easily overwhelming things were at that age, and then you throw crushes and love into the mix and it’s one big jumbled mess. i was around your age when i found out i had depression, so i can imagine how dramatic and extra i was around then, ahahah.

i’ve also dealt with self-harm– though not cutting, just other ways. nothing that left scars. but i was hard on myself for a long, long time. still am on occasion but i’m getting better at it. letting things go and all that.

i dunno, maybe it’s me reading into it too much and being kinda out of date with how “kids these days” internet, but like, talking in caps and freaking out and spamming, things like that– i’m like whoa lex, take a breather hahah. i wish i had your energy! 

changes can be good and scary, but just know that not everything is bad. i’ve had several ups and downs the past two years, ones i don’t openly discuss because of personal reasons, some i do but only to those who know me well, and i look back thinking– damn, i’m still here. i take a breath, hug my cat and even if i’m feeling shitty or depressed or anxious, i think about how thankful i am to have another day to talk to my mom on the phone or see my cat sunbathe, or yanno, get to perform with the guys on stage and live my dream. 

[nelliel66]

[mintytaemin]

[jaeditor-blog1]

TELL THE TRUTH. THERE‘S LESS THINGS TO REMEMBER.

일. 이. 삼. – reblog for a short starter or follow for a friend.

[leetaemiin]

wHATS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN--

THAT YOU’RE ITTY BITTY

okay but for real, yeah there are times i’m like-- girl chill, you’re being extra and then i remember being your age and how i acted and i just breathe and move on. it doesn’t mean i hate you or i’m insulting you, there’s just times where you take things a bit too far.

i know your parents fight-- mine did as well-- and that sometimes your dad pisses you off. you should be happy that they’re around. i lost my father in june, and as harsh as he could be, i’d do anything to get a hug from him again, or to hear him talk or laugh before the cancer got to him. i probably sound stupid or rude for saying “YOU SHOULD APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE” when i don’t know your story, if you’re dad is shitty or whatnot. there’s times my father and i bumped heads because we’re both tremendously stubborn, but like i said, i’d give anything to hear him laugh again, even if it was for a limited time. the silly things won’t mean anything when you grow up, believe me. [i] have dealt with a lot of things, and still dealing with some pretty heavy things. some stuff gets easier, some stuff doesn’t. there are things in life i’d miss if i did anything, like summer time, my dogs, my cat, my mom, my friends, the guys, upcoming movies and ice cream, laughing, the smell of freshly cut grass, going to the beach, camping--- so much more. just think of that simple stuff. :)

[leetaemiin]

📱

Send 📱 for a late night text from my muse.

[sms: Choi] do you ever think about something as you’re laying awake[sms: Choi] about like bad things[sms: Choi] like yanno death and how you’d deal with certain people dying[sms: Choi] i kinda hate it and wish i could turn my brain off at night

[leetaemiin]

taem am i annoying---

you’re a typical itty bitty babbi.

[leetaemiin]

📱

Send 📱 for a late night text from my muse.

[sms: bumkey]  so i’m watching game grumps and talking to papillion[sms: bumkey] i had a great valentines with him >/////<[sms: bumkey]  not sure why i’m texting you this at like, 3 am---

[roleplayers-ink]

Send 📱 for a late night text from my muse.

[monicaarts]

I just want him and roo to be happy forever is that too much to ask honestly

[jinqki]

press your number - performance video ver. 2.

[fytaem]

TVBS Global Chinese Music 160604 © sTAEalive - do not edit

[leetaemiin]

You’re away but hopefully you are okay. Eat well and also rest okay? I know your job is tough on you but please look after yourself okay?

I treasure you a whole lot and I want you stay in my life. Thank you for everything Minnie. I’m leaving this for you.

[ x ] [ x ] --- oh gosh, this is so amazing and adorable. honestly, i wasn’t expecting it. thank you so much. and i hope to stay in your life for a long, long time because you’re amazing person, truly. you’re so generous, kind, gentle... and every day is something different.

[shineefan]