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[jaetonic-blog]

                                                  ▷ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ◁  

                                        ◢wyxjaewon x @sehwa-wy◣

▷ ► ► ▷It’s a hot summer day and classes for the new semester were just about to start which meant the park would be fairly empty of anyone walking or playing around. Jaewon picked up one of his newer cameras that he recently bought, deciding that it’s about time to finally learn how to use it. He left his apartment in Songcheon and began walking towards the direction of Pyongju Park. Jaewon felt the most at ease whenever he visited this park and it was for one specific reason, it was the place he met his first and only love.

            It’s been five years since that day. Jaewon didn’t know where she went or why she left, but it’s been five years on this day where he last saw the only person who made his heartbeat a very specific way. Every day he wondered what did he do wrong, what went wrong. He blamed himself even though he knew he wasn’t in the wrong. He doesn’t hate her, even after all these years of confusion he couldn’t find it in him to ever blame her. After all, he loved her.

            It didn’t take him long to reach his destination. Today he felt in a particularly good mood. He wasn’t sure why, maybe because he knew the park wouldn’t be as packed as it usually is. Jaewon considered himself an amateur at taking photos, so he always felt a slight bit embarrassment whenever someone cause him with a camera in his hand. He decided to take a stroll through the path way that was lined with trees. His camera strap hanging over his shoulders, letting the light summer winds brush along his cheeks. Jaewon always liked getting the feel of nature before taking photos, so this was a normal routine for him. It was a little trick he learned from his dad before he passed away. 

            When he made it to around the middle of the pathway, he noticed a bird land on a branch on the tree off to the side. He lifted up his camera and pointed towards the direction, but right as he was about to snap a photo the animal had flown off. Jaewon clicked his tongue, feeling disappointed in the lost opportunity. He shrugged off the feeling, continuing his walk but looking down at his camera’s screen so that he could fix the settings on it. He was so lost into fixing his device, he didn’t realize he had strayed off from the middle of the pathway. It wasn’t until he accidentally tripped over someones foot where he looked up in a panic state. “I’m so sorry — “ His voice trailed off from his sentence as he stared the the familiar face. It was her. The woman he hadn’t heard from or seen in the last fives years. “Sehwa...” His quiet whisper blending in with the faint sound of tree leaves rustling when the wind blew. 

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→Most nights would be loud and very busy, but Jaewon had the day off. He wasn’t used to his nights being so quiet. Any time he could, he would prefer going in to work. He wasn’t sure why, but being home alone in his apartment wasn’t an option today. Instead he sat down on the concrete sidewalk and stared out at the sandy beach just a few inches away. A heavy sigh spilled past Jaewon’s lips, suddenly feeling lonely. He reached into his pocket, taking out the unopened pack of cigarettes he bought before coming down to the beach. It’s been a little over two months since he last smoked and despite doing so well keeping away from it, he felt the temptation of starting back up. Don’t do it, Jaewon. These words whispered in his head, another heavy breath spilling as he would stuff the small box back into his pocket. “Why bother even buying a pack if I’m not even going to smoke?” he spoke to himself before bouncing up on his feet. His arms crossed behind his head and while humming quietly to himself he walked along the sidewalk, “What is there to do at this time, is there even anyone awake to hang out with?”

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                                                   ▷sɴᴀᴘ sʜᴏᴛ◁  

                                         ◢wyxjaewon x @wysyijun◣

▷ ► ► ▷It was a rainy afternoon. Normally, Jaewon would be out at his favorite park taking pictures of the beautiful fall scenery, but because of the weather he was stucked in his apartment. He actually really disliked being in his apartment, the empty, neutral colored room always made his mind run wild. He preferred noise, color and just not being left by himself. 

            He was almost never seen in the apartment complex and he's pretty confident that most of the people who live in the area don't even realize this. He's lived here for many years now, but sometimes he still gets greeted like a new neighbor. It never bothered him, in fact he found it quite funny and entertaining to act like he was new to the city. 

            Jaewon had decided to stay put, but rather than being in his apartment he went down to the main open lobby with his camera at hand. He though about maybe taking some scenic rainy weather, like the ones you'd see one TV with the droplets appearing much larger than usual. He was sitting on a cushioned chair, legs crossed over one another as he would mess with the settings on his camera screen. It wasn't moments later when he noticed an unfamiliar face, one that hasn't came up to him in the past. He seemed to have been minding his own business, not even noticing Jaewon lift his camera up and pointed it up at him. Jaewon wasn't completely sure to why he decided to take a picture, but for some reason he felt the angle and position was rather photogenic. The sound of the camera shutter was a lot louder than he expected, sending Jae into a panic as his camera fell into his lap. "C-crap..." He'd mumbled to himself, just hoping the stranger didn't notice Jaewon had snapped a photo of him.

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                                            ▷ᴄᴀʀᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴀ ᴅʀɪɴᴋ?◁  

                                       ◢wyxjaewon x @wyayeong◣

▷ ► ► ▷It was a typical work night for Jaewon. He had spent most of his day practicing his photography skills at the nearby park before it had gotten to dark and time for his shift at Club Mute. In doing so, he was put into a good mood, but in general he always enjoyed going into work. He found it enjoyable to watch all these different people order all sorts of alcoholic beverages to start their wild nights.

              Today was a busy night, he was swamped with making different variants of drinks for his customers.  The list was endless, ranging from a simple whiskey on rocks to something a bit more complex like The Manhattan. It wasn’t unusual for him to be making cocktails, but it seemed like tonight there were a lot more orders in for Blue Mondays and Lemon Drops. He always disliked making lemon drops though, his hands would always become sticky from squeezing the lemons. He also just hated doing anything that involved rimming the glasses with sugar, full aware he was going to have to clean the mess that came with it. 

              He pulled out a rag from beneath the bar counter now that he was free from making cocktails for a moment, letting his coworker take care of orders while he did some minor clean up on his work surface. “Sometimes I wonder... what even the point of rimming the glasses with sugar anyways. It’s more aesthetic than anything.” He mumbled to himself, throwing the rag back where he got it from so he could prepare himself for his next customer.

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                                               ▷ᴀ ᴅʀɪɴᴋ ᴏɴ ᴍᴇ◁  

                                       ◢wyxjaewon x @minsoonwy◣

▷ ► ► ▷A typical night at Club Mute is how Jaewon started off his weekday. As always, he was at work. He loved being at work, watching all these people he didn't know enjoy themselves while he served up cocktails and liquor to anyone who stepped up to the bar counter.

          Most people who came to the club on a weekday were regulars. It wasn't unusual for him to remember the faces of the people who came up to him on a daily basis. Jaewon was one of the more popular bartenders, which made him the prime choice for regulars to order from him rather than the others who were on shift.

          He was in the middle of prepping the usual things he needed for the most common drinks when he noticed an unfamiliar face walk through the club doors. The way man the man dressed made him look like he wasn't a local, which peaked Jaewon's interest. His eyes following the mans movements until he noticed him walk past the counter. "Hey." Jaewon called out with a polite grin, leaning over the counter to catch his attention. "I've never seen you around here before. What are you doing at a place like this on a weekday?"

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                            ▷ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʟɪɢʜᴛ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ʏᴏɴᴅᴇʀ ᴡɪɴᴅᴏᴡ ʙʀᴇᴀᴋs◁

                                         ◢ wyxjaewon + @wyseulji ◣

▷ ► ► ▷It's the middle of the night and Jaewon had been out drinking with some friends. He was never one to go out and drink to get drunk, at least not in a long time. But with certain events of him being fired from his job, he didn't know what to do but drown in sorrow and turning to alcohol to keep him from going insane. 

               Honestly, It was a mixture of things that cause him to spiral back down the never ending loop of drinking to get drunk. Of course the whole getting fired was icing on the cake, but another reason was because he just found out his ex had left Wonyang once again without notifying him, despite the two getting rather close. 

              He didn't even know where he was at this point, his mind clouded with conflicting thoughts. In his current drunken state, he believed his ex-girlfriend was still around. He'd forgotten the truth, maybe because he refused to believe it. The dark streets that flickered with street lights that seemed to be on their last bit of life, reminded him of all the times he'd walked her home. He began to drown in those memories, gradually craving of that feeling of want and affection. 

              Lost in the night, still wasted with a half empty bottle of liquor in his hand, he saw a faint light shining from a window. His mind instantly thought he was in the area of where she once lived. Jaewon was clearly not in the right state of mind, but what kind of man who has lost everything would be? He felt like the only thing that mattered is the present moment and doing what he wants, no matter how selfish it seemed.

              His eyes scanned the area around him, squinting every now and then, not only because it was dark but also because he found it hard to focus on anything around him with his sight being blurred. He took a deep breath, crouching down to pick up a small grey stone from the ground. Eventually he stood back up onto his feet but not before losing his balance for a moment. “Hey!!” He yelled out as loud as he could before taking a sip from the bottle he held. “I know you’re in there.” He mumbled incoherently as he tossed the small pebble at the lit up window. “I’m here to save my princess from whom ever is keeping you from me.” a hiccup followed right after these words.  

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                                       ▷ᴜɴᴇxᴘᴇᴄᴛᴇᴅ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅsʜɪᴘ◁  

                                        ◢wyxjaewon x @wyurie◣

▷ ► ► ▷It wasn't something he was proud of, but not long after Sehwa (Jaewon's long time ex-girlfriend) had left without word he turned to sex for an outlet. He was always confident with his looks, so he never struggled in luring people into bed with him. But he was at his lowest point possible, at one point he didn't think he was capable of pulling strings and instead found himself paying to please himself. 

           He never expected to see her again, hell he never wanted to see her again. Jaewon was in a good place now. He's been sober and focus on his job, every now and then he does his daily routine of sleeping with drunk bar hoppers but what kind of man would he be to turn down someone anyways? He's a bachelor with no one even remotely being interested in, he just wants to live life without the world crashing down on him again.

           It was late at night, Jaewon was just at the end of his shift at Club Mute where he worked. He was minding his own business, preparing his last few drinks to customers who enjoyed just staring at him until he left. He was always friendly, actually liking the attention but he suddenly felt chills run down his spine when he noticed a some what familiar face. He couldn't pinpoint exactly where or why she looked so familiar, but for whatever reason he felt uncomfortable. "Hey. Are you a regular here? You seem rather familiar but I'm unsure why."

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                                            ▷ᴏᴄᴛᴏʙᴇʀ ʙɪʀᴛʜᴅᴀʏ◁

                                     ◢ wyxjaewon x @wychoisehwa◣

▷ ► ► ▷ The beginning of October. Jaewon had always had mixed feelings for this month and it's only become worse now that his ex girlfriend, Sehwa, is back in town. Jaewon sighed heavily, leaning back on the wall as he sat on his bed. He looked at the time on his phone, noticing the date. He hesitated for a second, but in the end decided to send a message.

[ ✉ Sehwa >>] Happy birthday, idiot. Don’t expect to get that plush from me !! I posted it on social media as a joke.