"Al, can I call you Al? You don't mind if I talk at you and not to you? I mean I don't care, I'm just asking as a formality.
Did you miss me? that's a funny question, isn't it? You don't have a reason to miss me heh-I don't even miss you when you're not here, if I have ever said otherwise I lied. I don't even know how that feels like, missing someone.
The hosts parents missed it, they mention that a lot. They ask it—ask me—if I miss them. Why would I miss them? We talk almost everyday, to the point where it's part of my routine and apart from that they aren't dead or permanently gone in any way so I ask again, *why would I miss them*? What's the point of wasting your time putting yourself in the corner by thinking about how someone isn't here right now? Nothing. It's pointless. Just another prison. Like all the other ones people put themselves in wasn't enough—
Huh, I got a bit angry there didn't I? pff-[laughter] It doesn't even matter. None of it does...
Sometimes I wish I could miss people. I wish I could actually miss them—the host's parents—and you, I suppose. I wonder how that would feel."












