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[kanzaki19]

unannounced but complete and ready for upload.

A time travel fix-it fic for anyone interested

From Whence You Came (Ch2)

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[kanzaki19]

unannounced but complete and ready for upload.

A time travel fix-it fic for anyone interested

From Whence You Came (Ch3)

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[kanzaki19]

A time travel fix-it fic for anyone interested 💜

From Whence You Came (Ch11)

A day late but posted with love and apologies

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[kanzaki19]

unannounced but complete

A time travel fix-it fic for anyone interested 💜

From Whence You Came (Ch5)

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[kanzaki19]

a quick note because I'm wretched with social media interactions...

this year has been bad, not just for me, but for everyone. My mental health has seen way better days and the stress of my job, family illness and tension, and the weight of responsibilities that always seem to fall on my shoulders have simmered endlessly keeping my anxiety above normal and allowed the gremlinsin my head to run wild sometimes. My sleep has suffered and with that my creativity has stagnated.

I'm still madly in love with everything I've created, I just can't find happiness with what I'm trying to add. I catch glimpses of amazing things but find the words I put down fall short, leaving the whole idea lacking the vivid life it deserves.

There is new stuff coming though!

I've got a short fantasy piece that I finished and will be available on AO3 after the exclusive period is over. It was an idea I'd been playing around with for a while and was finally able to finish with a little courage and opportunity.

I've got a little under 4k of the next yuri on force chapter marinating but I've ran into a snag with inspiration for it. Namely, this chapter sets up the big arc and my anxiety over getting it right won't let me push past this moment of happiness the boys are sharing. (I'm also terrified my internal struggles with isolation and separation are going to bleed out into Yuuri's situating and although I know working through the issues are good, I don't really want that in my writing. Y'all deserve better than that)

I also have a new piece for the mdzs fandom crawling out of my skull that might see the light of day if I can wrangle it into some form of sensible dialog and interactions and, most importantly, not scare myself off from finishing it.

Anyways, I'm still kicking. Just not so high.

Stay safe, and if you have the capability to do so, reach out to friends or loved ones and see how they're doing.

💜

[kanzaki19]

a little hope for anyone wondering about Yuri on Force. it's coming along, I promise 💜

[kanzaki19]

I've been mostly missing from everywhere but I come forth from the abyss with something soft and fluffy for everyone

Tabloids and Other Fake News

The clattering of something solid across the living room table draws Victor from the bathroom. “Did Yurio come over?” he asks loud enough to be heard through the apartment. The responding NO is mostly muffled but immediately recognizable as Yuuri. Victor can’t see him from where he’s standing in their bedroom, but Yuuri's tone is off enough to warrant checking on him fully. 

Victor finds his husband hunched over, sitting cross legged on the couch with his head braced heavily against his fist; mood clearly soured. 

“Love?” he says quietly, crossing the room. It’s clearly a question, open ended to allow Yuuri the freedom and ability to answer anyway he feels comfortable; an approach Victor learned in the early days of their relationship.

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[kanzaki19]

Chapter 13 of Yuri on Force is live!!

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