#kae rant

[alittlemxchievous]

I am so frustrated with the anti-switch bullshit I keep seeing in kink spaces. It feels just like the bi-phobia I have faced in queer spaces. I honestly prefer other switches 95% percent of the time.

I'm so tired of hearing jokes about every switch just being a bottom. About us needing to choose.

I am a Polyamorous, genderfluid, pansexual, switch. I refuse to choose.

[alittlemxchievous]

I don't think people realise how hard it is to be a trans creator on here, especially if you do sex work. The amount of harassment is exhausting. People treat us like our identity is a fetish. People throw the most idiotic rehashed terf talking points. People expect free emotional and sexual labor constantly. People invalidate you when you don't work for free. People reduce everything to sexual organs. Even the queer community isn't safe. I have gotten more direct hate from the lesbian community than any other community on here. If your favorite trans creator is still making things then throw them some support and appreciation. You don't know how much vitriol your words may be able to offset.

[alittlemxchievous]

In an already very dysphoric day, one of the customers I was helping looked at ny buisness card and said, "Kae? What kinda name is that?!?"

This was after i spent the last 30 minutes helping this man deal with a highly serious financial problem.

I had to figure out how to deal with the situation without outing myself for my own safety and well-being

Why are people like this.... Why are they always like this......

I am just here and my name is just Kae. It's nots short for anything. I don't care that i spell it weird. Its none of their fucking buisness.

Anyway the dysphoria is worse now if you could believe it

[alittlemxchievous]

Dysphoria is terrible today.

I want to just feel pretty, but every time I look at myself i see something else i hate....

Most days I do better....

Not today though....

Not today.

[alittlemxchievous]

Put your goddamn ages in your goddamn bios or get off my goddamn horny blog. I do not consent to having you here if you do not reapect my boundaries

[alittlemxchievous]

Tumblr definitely doesn't have anything against trans creators.

@staff Why does every picture that involves a trans body get a community label?

[alittlemxchievous]

For the people who followed after the head scritches post, this is an extreme kink blog and I am a sex worker. If your age isn't in your bio or pinned I'm gonna yeet you the moment I find you.

[alittlemxchievous]

You're very gorgeous love, and I hope your Dysphoria fucks off so you can see it again <3

I'm trying to see it.... I promise I am.... But my brain points out so many little things like they are failures in my femininity.... It doesn't help when cis people clock me all the time at work.... Even worse, my dead name is on all of our digital systems..... I've made complaints and they claim it's a security risk.... I end up getting deadnamed in emails and messages all the time... It's soul crushing